lilane and the other classes who had the recollection before us said to expect some tears. and meron nga, during the "forgivness" part. we were just saying the prayer and some of us already started crying (think barbie). amy was holding my hand the whole time so that she won't cry. her hand helped me rin not to go all emotional and break down in front of my classmates. i did eventually cry though. when ibarra told us about his family life and how his mom is abroad and his dad being sick. he's the only one who takes care of his dad despite his very busy schedule in school. he also told us one incident wherein he had to find an open drugstore at 3 in the morning because his dad was having a hard time breathing. doon ako naiiyak sobra..

i cried nung nagkwento rin si ayssa. she was being compared to her prettier older sister and her smarter older brother all the time raw. i didn't expect na ganun pala yun. after the whole activity, i felt closer to my classmates and understood them more.

ariane, ross, ayssa, gemma, bea, allen, amy and i had lunch together afterwards. major bonding with the girls..=) allen told us about her confusing love story. bea and i shared rin with her our "break up blues".. and with that, i realized na i still love the guy. no matter how many times i say na si (insert name here) na, i keep on running back to him parin. sure, he can make me happy and he'll sometimes make me forget about him. pero at the end of the day, before ako matulog, it's still him i want to tell me goodnight and not si (insert name here)..

omg. speaking of tulog. i had a really creepy dream last night. i woke up in bed to see a strange man in a cloak with a beard but i just ignored him and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. then i came back to bed. i felt that the strange man was still there while i tried to sleep. when i tried to check, i couldn't open my eyes but i kept hearing strange and creepy sounds all around me..shit. then i woke up for real. looked around for a strange man in a cloak, there was none, and said "our father" until i went back to sleep. hehe.. takotin ako minsan eh..=p

btw, here's a quote from diane a's blog which qara wrote:

I'd love to show the Canadians here how us Pinoys rock in karate. My first session consisted of our shihan calling me "very good" and "very strong" (with a strong Japanese accent). Imagine Ate Muriel and Diane brown belt coming here. The dojo would flip!

so she actually thinks of me this way?? she doesn't know i know her site address so she couldn't be setting me up. i suddenly feel guilty about everything i ever said to her and about giving sir sonny her site url. oops.. my mistake. i still love her though..=)