Bitterness

Written in early 1999 and first performed live in April that year at Spaceland in Los Angeles. It was played solo and with a band through to the end of 2002.
Various different versions were recorded before the final one that ended up on "The Invisible Man." in 2001.
Now you read through the lives of the saints
And you said if I was a saint, I'd have a bigger beggar's bowl
But now all you read is a list of complaints
Bitterness poisons the soul

You're a student of archeology
And you take comfort in cities that fall
When you smashes your place up,
You thought you were making history
Bitterness poisons the soul

You took your name apart and then you put it back
As someone you never wanted to know
Now you're just as helpless as those you attack
Bitterness poisons the soul 

I don't know if I will ever love again

You like to wear expensive designer shades
You're so cool you turn Spring into Fall
But you find as the world darkens, it's you that fades
Bitterness poisons the soul

You dig through your closets for old truths you used to wear
Like an actor who forgot his role
Like a coward jonesing for the next big scare
Bitterness poisons the sould

I don't know if I will ever love again