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I had the most god-awful dream last night. Imagine dreaming that the closest person in your life just had a fatal accident. I can't remember the last time I dreamt that I was actually balling my eyes out... Then of all the people to come and comfort me, it happens to be my ex... the ex g/f. Which opens soooo many doors I can't even comprehend. She was reason I joined this fledgeling anime club years ago. So we could promote artwork. It's funny... thinking about how far it's gone, from being a selfish reason to taking interest in people and a club, all the way to the zenith of apathy.
In a way, it's come full circle. The original goal of having something published is more or less done. How many people own an a-kon 13 t-shirt? A few thousand? I hope you're doing the same where ever you are. And yes, success is really pointless unless there's someone there to be happy with/for you, right? Some dreams die and some come true even if it's not the way you want them.
Speaking of which. This week has been spent chasing another proverbial dream. It's a new goal as well as a very old old dream. As silly as it seems... I feel like I'm living otaku no video. The work, the random meetings with people over various meals, the planning, the passions... it's all there. It's the project to end all projects. And I'm so happy that Meagan is along for the whole ride. Of all the people I know and trust, she's the only one who seems to care about this as much as I do. And when all is said and done, I have no doubt that everything will work out...
We've been meeting with Ally and rest of the crew all week. Eating at Nippon, drinking coffee at CyberCafe, and generally working on what is the beginning of something great. Which I hope is a good thing, with all the weirdness going on in her life. She thinks she's been bothering me all week, but in reality she's been more of a support than she knows. Ally's great, between the DDR and work we've been putting into this thing, I can't imagine all of this coming together without her dedication. Let's hope it keeps up for another year and then some.
Right here, right now... This is the beginning.
My friend Sara showed up last week wanting something I couldn't give. How do you tell someone how important they are to your life when all the things they care about at the moment is really trivial. It's great feeling that someone trusts you enough... but it's worthless when that's all you're good for. I haven't felt worthless for a while, especially when I was truly trying to help.
I need to spend more time with Jyoti and Rachael, minus the parasite that is Clay. It's painful watching some people mindlessly go after your friend, who's obviously not interested. Oh well, like that's never happened before.