Siren

I was born with music inside me. Music was one of my parts. Like my ribs, my kidneys, my liver, my heart. Like my blood. It was a force already within me when I arrived on the scene. It was a necessity for me--like food or water.
-Ray Charles


Ah, my story is full of drama, romance, action, excitement.... well, some of that anyway. But most of that didn't occur until more recently. Earlier in my life it was duller, not much going on. But then.. I bloomed. I mean, really bloomed. I'm not being conceited at all, just saying it like it is. I don't know just where I got my looks... no offense to my family... but looking at my genes, I'd have to say I'm a mutant or something. I started getting a lot, and I mean a lot of attention from the guys then and while that can be nice for awhile, it can turn into a real hassle. I really got into it for some time there, though. Was nice turning heads, and I have to admit I went out of my way sometimes to get guys to turn their heads to me when they were with their own girls. Didn't usually take much, guys think with their pants. And it wasn't just guys my age, I had adult men watching me when I was only 14. That got a bit creepy, especially with some of 'em. Which is what helped convince me not to do that anymore. I stopped wearing such revealing things and tried to fit in like a normal girl. Fat chance after all that. Screwed myself there.

The one thing I've been able to claim besides my looks, something I'm real proud of, is my singing. I've always been able to sing well, guess I've got a natural talent. I love to sing and when I stopped going out of my way to turn guys' heads, I jumped into that. Choir in school and anywhere else I could get anyone to hear me sing, I'd be. That started to get me a lot more guy attention and some of it was okay, I do like guys a lot. But it got out of hand one night, real out of hand. I was 15 then and this guy in his late thirties cornered me after I was done singing at this talent thing. He started offering me a chance to get my music career funded, I bet you can guess what he wanted for it. I'd started to have this great desire to go professional, but that's not the kind of shit I wanted to deal with. But some people don't like the word no. Lucky for me there was this Araņa in the contest named Lyric and she had some of the others there watching her. One of 'em, Toxic, saw what was going on and jumped in there to give me a hand. Scared the guy off without a lot of trouble and then introduced me to the rest of 'em that came. Real great bunch of people, I hit it off with 'em right away. So I started hanging with 'em and after awhile got invited to join. So I did. Haven't regretted it at all. Though I was stupid at one point not too long ago, actually.

I didn't feel like I was much help with all the shit that was starting to go down, so I asked Paco to turn me into a vampire. He wasn't sure at first, but I insisted so he agreed. Stuck me physically at 16 forever. Though at least I've always looked older than I am, so that helps. Of course, it totally fucked up my music career. I can't leave New Orleans. Not just me, but my presence or my voice. So here I am, little old Siren, right here and stuck right here. Sucks a lot, though at least it keeps me from getting carted away as a prisoner to some of the places that others have gone. No more career for me, but then I guess the way things are going in the world now, wouldn't be much chance anyway. And I have to be careful singing too, because I have this not so nice weakness that women get real jealous, insanely even, when I sing. That lasts a couple of hours. Not something that I really like to risk. I seem to be really good at getting myself into things that I didn't expect. Ah well, I'll adapt. Always do. And there are more important things now to worry about what with all the shit going down. Guess we'll see how it turns out, I just hope that things go as optimistically as all the optimists around say. Guess I've got to keep trying to feel that way, too. Hard sometimes, but that's the way it goes.


For me, music and life are all about style.
-Miles Davis