As I sit here looking at this picture, I wonder, ”Who am I?" Nobody on Earth really knows the true me, including myself, so it is hard for me to say. I know who I try to be, a beautiful girl who everybody loves, but is that who I really am?
I see, in front of me, a girl trying to get through life; trying to make everybody that she sees happy. She tries to help them, be nice to them, and comfort them, but she is having a difficult time. She is now realizing that she has to know who she is and make herself happy before she can make others happy. Many people get cheerful when they are around other people who are happy. Therefore, you have to be joyful to make others pleased.
I see a fearless looking girl who is still hiding the fear and sadness she holds inside. Afraid of others, she bundles up her emotions. She is just now starting to let go, starting to realize that she does not need to be afraid of anything. All of the sadness she once held is starting to be released. She is beginning to smile and laugh much more than ever before, when she was in a state of near depression. She does not know why she was so downhearted, it just happened. She did not feel loved or like she was cared about, therefore she was very melancholy herself.
You may sit there and wonder how her sadness has disappeared. How she can forget about all her worries? The answer is simple; she found herself in God, she found love. All she needed to do was look.
At one point in her life she had some problems with her friends; she was very selfish and rude, and they did not appreciate it. It got her very down, and she did not understand what as wrong. Then they decided to explain to her what she was doing, and that inspired her to make a change in her attitude. She is now a lot less selfish and not nearly as rude. They truly did help her by explaining her faults to her, and it caused her to be more joyful and loving.
Through her learning to love others and to not be afraid of losing them, she has found happiness. She used to be very afraid of death, always thinking that herself or somebody around her was going to die. She then realized that it is all in God's plan; if he wants them to come see him then they will die, if not then he will wait and let them go. She has no reason to be afraid, because once the person dies, if they have found Him, then they will be in a much happier place.
In learning to be happy, she has found part of what she is. In time she has learned things about herself that others do not know, that other do know, and that others are searching to know. She has learned to be more careful, more respectful, and more loving; who once was a bratty little child is now growing to be a beautiful and joyful young adult. Her once selfish attitude is now starting to share.
I sit here looking at this picture in front of me I see myself, Rosalind, a child of God. I am still searching and dreaming, yet still happy with what I know about myself right now. I am a little shy, yet loud; a little egotistical, yet humble and modest; a little bit of everyone, yet, all in all, I am me. I am able to see other's viewpoints and respect them and sometimes not understand others, yet I have my own opinions, which create ME.
