My parents are in their 70s. All my elder brothers and sisters are married. And that makes them busy with their own families and responsibilities and stuff. Plus, we are scattered in this crowded and busy island called Java. That’s why they can no longer take me for monthly shopping or night stroll. Or daily conversation over dinner…
Though I wouldn’t blame them for that (cause I guess it’s one of the consequences of growing up…), sometimes I feel left behind. Alone. Forgotten. Disbanded…
This little sister is sometimes so lonely without her used-to-be-around elder brothers and sisters.
(To grow up would be an awfully big adventure, Peter Pan once said.)
I’m 28 now.
I have my own responsibilities, too. Well, mostly work and bills to pay J.
I guess this is how it feels to grow up. Though I believe I still have many years to go before people would really consider me as “grown-up”…
Sometimes I feel tired of this growing-up thingy.
It apparently IS a never-ending business! I wonder what keep one going from day to day, doing mostly the same thing everyday, so mechanical, so dull, so… routine…
But then something strikes me.
It’s the people around you!
It’s every second you and they spend on each other!
It’s the love and care that you and they shower to each other!
My family. My friends.
My teachers. My old friends from college.
My bosses.
I could tell from the look my elder sister, a mother with one son, gave me this morning.
I could tell from my other elder sister’s voice when she called me this morning.
I could tell from the SMSes I got from my friends I knew from college and communities.
I could tell from the firm handshake my workmates gave me this morning.
I could tell from the emails my friends sent me in between their working hours.
I’m not alone in this growing-up business.
In fact, I’m never alone.
And I’m loved…
It’s always an amazing feeling to know that there’s love around you to help you go through anything. To keep you hoping.
What I am today, I owe that so much to the love and influence I’ve got from each and every individual I’ve encountered in my (so far) 28 years of existence in this world. And surely I would meet many more people in the years to come, and I believe they’d contribute to what I would be in the future.