October
	October 1st, 2002 tuesday Hi all.  I'm happy today.  You know why?  Becuase of  last night.  I meant to go into more depth of what happened last night, but I didn't have anytime to do so.  So heres what happened we were talking and all of the sudden she mentioned that her sister(or somebody mentioned) wanted to know when I was going to ask her out.  Actually I'm not going to get into the specifics.  If you want to read the conversation then click here.  Anyway, she's great.  She's so talkative and I'm so shy. But she actaully likes what I like.  Do you know how uncommon it is to find girls that actually admit that they play playstation, and like it?  She so nice too, and she dosen't keep anything inside.  Anyway, I hope that we stay together for a very long time. Anyway, have a good day all.
	October 2nd, 2002 Hi all.  Man today was really great.  School went fast, and wan't as boring as usual.  What happened after school was the best part though.  I feel extremely lucky right now, becuase I'm going out with somebody really special.  I went over to her house and spent about 2.5 hours there, and had a really great time.  We talked, and she showed me her house, and everything.  I wish I had her mother.  I was over at AC's house  with her, alone....nobody was there.  Then here mother came home, and she's all like "nice to meet you" not even caring that I'm over there, and alone with her daughter.  That's so cool.  Then we talked some more, and then she just took a nap.  While she was sleeping I just looked down at her, and smiled.  I almost never smile except when I'm laughing or something, cause I never feel that happy to where my body just takes over.  I SMILED, that's a rare occurence.  It felt......wonderful to be holding her, and being able to just look at her.  It made me realize that I have something special, and that nothing will change that.
	October 3rd, 2002 Hi all.  This school year is going really fast.  THe first nine weeks is almost over, and It just seems like yesterday that I started.  The days just keep going by faster, and faster.  Everybody said that your senior year goes by super-fast, and I see now how true that is.  I think maybe i won "shyest guy" in my senior class.  If so it's the first time I have actually gotten reconized for something.  Not much happened today other than that, and that AC came over to my house today.  Today was fun and all when she was there, but to me it didn't seem like she was happy to be there, or that she was having fun.  If so, then I need to do something about that.  I have no idea what, but something.  I really need to stop being shy, but that's kinda hard to do.  I'm not nervous it's just that I don't know what to do, or say.  I really need some help here with this.  I don't know, it's just that i don't know what I should be doing or how I should be doing it.  I really need somebody to sit down with me, and explain to me how to talk to people. AC's different in that she is very outgoing.  By nature I"m not, and I need some help with that.  If you can help I would really appreciate you guys contacting me and giving me some help.
	October 4th, 2002 Hi all.  Nothing new happened today, the same old stuff just happened.  Went to the mall after dropping off A.C. and get Need for Speed II.  I tried looking for a b-day gift for her, but I can't think of anything to get her.  You know how hard it is to shop for a girl?  It's freakin impossible.  I can't think of anything that she would actually like getting. Girls are difficultl to shop for.  Especially when you don't really know them that well either, and you just started out a relationship.  You don't know their likes, dislikes, wants ect......it's so damn hard.  I would much rather her just pick it out, but that's not really right to do so.  I hate gift shopping, i'm just like so close just to buying a gift ceritificate some where, but then that's not perssonal enough.  Gosh, i wish this was so much easier......I wish one of her friends would just like hand me an ad or something and say "get her this".  It would be so much easier.  Oh well......I hate shopping.
	October 5th, 2002 Hi all.  Work today wasn't actually bad it went by really fast, and I hardly noticed the time. Today was also fun because of A.C.'s "birthday party".  She was having one even though her mom didn't want her to, and I don't know if she got away with it or not.  Anyway, I had alot of fun there, and I actually was able to talk.  I seem to have a pattern when I'm with her and her friends.  The last two times me A.C. and her friends were together(outside of school) I was really quiet for the first hour or so, and then as time passed I loosened up and was able to be ourspoken.  I wonder why that is?  Hmm....I don't really know, and it's really starting to piss me off.  Oh well.  I think tonight was one of the better times I've had with people.  I mean I've missed out on alot when I was with that ex of mine.  I'll tell you one thing, AC's friends are fun, and great.  It went by way to fast tonight, but it was fun.  I hope to do that more often.  By the way, happy birthday AC, even though it's not your birthday till the 9th.  That reminds me........
	October 7th, 2002 Hi all.  I know i missed a day, but it's okay.  Nothing much happened over the weekend except A.C.'s b-day, and I already went over that.  Um.....today was good though.  After school I went to the mall with A.C. and we hanged out and stuff, and then i went to her house and stayed untill i had to leave.  I like it over there, it's like so private and there's nobody there either.  I had fun, and I'm looking forward to tommorow even though there's really nothing going on.  I don't know, i think i'm going to re-write a story that i wrote a while ago, because i haven't written anything in a while, and that's a good start.  Hmmm......A.C. didn't watn me to get her anything for her b-day, so instead i'm going to take her out to eat and then to a movie on saturday or something.  Yeah, that sounds good, a nice date.  Can't get much better then that.  You know what also i can't wait for?  Summer. Because of six flags.  I get a discount at work to go there on a certain day, and it only costs me and like 5 other people only 16 dollars to get in for the entire day.  I can't wait to go again.  This summer's six flags was okay, but only because i only went with one other friend.  Next year's will be better, becuase hopefully I'll spend it with somebody special to me.  Yeah, I can't wait to go.
	October 10th, 2002 Hi all.  Nothing new to report, or discuss.  I did have fun yesterday at a concert/speech.  My youth group went to a Vapour(a christian rock band), and I also took A.C., rebekah, and a friend of mine.  It was fun, but to tell the truth i had more fun after the concert then during.   Cause I stayed over at AC's house for about a half hour when i took her home, and i had a great time playing basketball with her in her yard.  You see that happenen in movies and tv, but for me it is almost an occurance that doesn't even exist.  It was fun, and i enjoyed it throughly.  I hoped that I can do that again sometime.  Other than that nothing new has happened, same old stuff day after day.  Atleast I have a three day weekend, thank God. Well there's nothing new to really talk about so bye.
	Ocober 11th, 2002 Hi all. Yesterday was an eventful day, but not really.  School, then i just went home and did nothing till like seven, until I talked to AC and asked if she wanted to do something. So we went to laser quest, and then to Wal-Mart and we just looked around and stuff.  Then we went to the movie thearter to look for here sister, and that was interesting.  Hmm....that reminds me, our school has as football game tonigh and i have to go.  Hopefully she can go as well, cause i'm going to board otherwise.  Oh well......you'll have that sometimes i guess.  Yeah, yesterday was fun.  Well i guess that i'll seeya later.
	October 15th, 2002 Hi all.  This week is kinda good, but not really.  My parents are on vactation, but my Aunt is here and she's forcing me to go to my grandpa's house almost everyday so it kinda sucks.  It figures, they go on vacation, and I'm looking forward to a relaxing week and I can't do anything now.  Oh well.  This really bites.  Atleast I can pick up my g/f now for this week cause my parents aren't home, and won't know that i'm doing it.  It kinda sucks but it kinda doesn't.  You'll have that sometimes I guess.  Hm.....I don't know what to do Friday night, or saturday.  I'm supposed to go to a haunted house with AC, her sister, and maybe her parents, and hopefully my parents will let me.  They really don't let me do anything cause there a bunch of assholes.  But then again I think all people say that about there parents.  I mean they treat me as if im 2.  I can't do ANYTHING without asking their permission.  It's like they find it fun to control my life, and I'm fucking sick of it.  I can't wait till i'm 18 so i can move out, and leave this prison.  Oh well, atleast I got AC, adn that's a good thing.  It would be dull, boring, and devoid of any fun if she wasn't here. I'll tell you someting completly unrelated to what I'm talking about.  Dont' ever use somebody.  It hurts them, and it will only make you look like a jerk, and usually the consequenses usually outwiegh any potential gains you might acquire.  It's really not nice, and you have to be heartless to do it.  Well, i guess I'll seeya later.  Bye, and frog I'm picking u up tommorow so bye.