Don't Know

by Jara

Don't Know (Pt2): Can't take it Die?

Comments: Here is part 2. It feels different from part 1 because I was feeling differently when I wrote it and somehow can't go back to that feeling. I'm not satisfied with it, but there isn't much that I can change. For all those people who wrote me comments, encouragement and threats (you know who you are :P) I dedicate this to you. Vanilla Mint, Matrim, Kalove and her demons hide, Gren-chan. I know there is someone else who wrote, but I lost your email. You had such nice comments ^__^

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Walking determinedly, Shinya stopped in front of Kyo “Kyo can I ask you something?”

Smiling the blond vocalist looked at the hesitant drummer. “Sure, what?”

Nervously Shinya asked Kyo to sit down. Once they were sitting, Kyo turned to Shinya “Ok I'm sitting down, so what's up?”

“Uh”, blushing Shinya didn't know how to begin. Taking a deep breath, he asked “How do I get a man sexually frustrated?”

Kyo was disconcerted for a second. Those were not the words he expected to come out of reserved Shinya’s mouth. Once the shock wore off his humor came back and he laughed. “You want to get a guy sexually frustrated?”

Red faced, Shinya nodded. Kyo took pity on him and tried to stifle down his laughter. “Ok the best way I know is to tie him up and then touch him? Maybe sit on his lap and rub yourself against him?”

“You're a guy you know what turns you on. You know how to touch yourself.” He looked at Shinya’s face. “Errr..maybe not.”

Lost in thought for a couple of minutes, Kyo blushed. “An ex-girlfriend of mine who wanted to get even with me, handcuffed me to the bed and then started to strip for me. That got me so hot. Then she straddled me and did a whole bunch of wicked things to me. She then impaled herself on me and moved so sensually I swear I was gone come hard right then and there. Seeing her “get off” was a big turn on. “

Closing his eyes for a couple of minutes, savoring the memory, “afterwards, when she came, she left me all worked up with no release, handcuffed to the bed for the maid to find me the next day. Now there's an experience I would not like to repeat. I was frustrated as hell, but it sure made sex with her the next time interesting.”

Giving Shinya a wicked grin, he confessed. “I still have the handcuffs.”

“Oh.” Trying not to blush, but failing Shinya asked, “Can I borrow your handcuffs?”

Laughing maniacally, “Sure, but you have to tell me how it turns out”

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Later that day during practice, Die kept taking peeks at Shinya. He didn't know what to expect from the drummer after what had happened yesterday.

Will Shinya say something to me? Will he tell the others, not that I care? Will he tell Yoshiki? Dammit is he gonna do something? Maybe it didn't mean anything to him. Maybe he just doesn't care about my feelings for him. Maybe he doesn't want my love.

Staring morosely at his guitar, he didn't notice when the others left and was alone with Shinya.

“Die”

Looking up Die saw that Shinya had moved to stand next to him. “We need to talk about what happened yesterday.”

Die opened his mouth to say something, but Shinya interrupted him “No. I donut want to talk here. Come to my apartment tonight. We can have dinner and then discuss what you meant by” blushing Shinya looked down at his hands “touching me the way you did yesterday. Ok?”

Die nodded “Ok”

Smiling shyly, he handed Die a piece of paper. “Here is my address. I will be expecting you at 7pm sharp”

The petite man picked up his gear and left.

Smiling whimsically, Die mused, “Maybe he wants to give us a chance.”

He sat there for a 10 minutes smiling into nothingness, when suddenly he got up. “Oh man I have to find something to wear.” Looking at his watch, “ And soon, I can't be late.”

Rushing out of the hall, he left his guitar lying on the floor, forgotten.

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Shinya was nervous. 6:55 p.m. everything is ready for tonight.

He looked at the iron chair he had borrowed from the gaijin “lady” next door. She had guaranteed that no matter how strong a man is he will not be able to move it.

It was true. It had taken her two lovers to move it into his apartment, her two huge muscled lovers.

The doorbell chimed. Shinya quickly ran to the mirror for one last look, smoothing down his red velvet dress, checking that his make up was perfect, before he answered the door.

Opening the door, he was surprised to find Die standing there with a bouquet of red orchids in his hands.

Smiling shyly, Die handed the flowers to Shinya. “I got these for you.”

“Thank you, they are very beautiful.” Looking at the flowers “No one has ever given me flowers before.”

“I'm glad I was the first one then.” Being very nervous, Die blurted out. “They are called “Oh Dear”.

Shinya smiled prettily at Die's obvious nervousness. “I will go put them in some water.” Rushing to the kitchen, he called out “why don't you sit down on the sofa and make yourself comfortable while I get dinner.”

“OK” sitting down, Die looked at the interesting chair. It seemed out of place with the rest of the rooms décor.

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After dinner, Shinya came back with a glass of wine and handed it to Die. “Here drink this while I clear the table.”

Die stood up offering to help. “Why donut I help you.”

“No I will do it. You are my guest. Sit and enjoy your wine.”

Die sat back and watched Shinya. He liked the way Shinya moved because there was grace in his movements. He noticed the gentleness with which he handled the china plates. The way his fingers curled around the wineglasses.

Shinya lifted his face and caught Die staring at him. “Is something wrong?”

“No, just enjoying the sight of you.”

Blushing, Shinya returned his attention to his task.

“That is an interesting chair. “

“Yes. It belongs my neighbor. I am keeping it for her. It's part of her work.”

“Work?”

“Yes.”

“How does she use it?”

Smiling innocently, “Why donut you come and sit in it and I will show you.”

Die looked at Shinya’s sweet face. “Ok.”

Shinya smiled again. Oh this is too easy.

When Die was sitting on the chair, Shinya walked behind him. “Ok put your arms behind you. Rest them on this curve. Ok.” Shinya had maneuvered Die's arms through the floral ironwork. Quietly he reached for the handcuffs.

Click.

Die laughed. “Oh I get it. You can remove the handcuffs now.”

Shinya walked around to stand in front of Die. He smiled satisfactorily. “Nope.”

“Shinya is the meaning of this?”

Shinya looked down at Die through half slit eyes. Turning his back to Die, Shinya grinned. Slowly he walked to his bedroom, sashaying his hips as he went. Die stared half with desire, half with worry.
 

Shinya was coming down the hall, barefoot and in a red silk robe. If Die could have, he would have fallen off the chair. He bet his life that he wasn't wearing anything underneath. Quietly he watched as Shinya walked towards him, standing still before him, staring at him.

“Shinya?”

“Sh.”

Die stared as Shinya slowed moved his fingers to the sash of the robe. Very slowly he untied it, and let the sash fall to the ground. His eyes followed its’ descent. Shinya flicked his wrist catching Die's attention again. Slowly again, he took the edges of the robe and pulled them apart. He left them open letting Die take in his nude form.

Oh shit! Die stared. He was fascinated by contrast of the red silk against Shinya’s pale form.

Shinya let the robe fall off his shoulders, and let it hang on his arms. He raised his right hand, and let the forefinger touch his forehead. Gently he let his finger trace his own face. Down his nose and over lips. Slipping his tongue out, he liked the finger and traced his full lips. He then lowered the finger letting his other fingers caress his neck casually. Using both his hands, he caressed his chest and stomach. Watching Die's reaction through this, Shinya smiled inwardly knowing how much Die was enjoying this show.

“Do you like what you see Die?”

Breathless Die whispered “Yes.”

Shinya let the robe fall of his body completely. Die stared at the material pooled around Shinya’s feet. His eyes followed the pale legs, up to the hip. Shinya was aroused and Die believed he was so beautiful like that.

“Die” Looking up, Die was startled by Shinya’s face. There was lust in the pretty brown eyes. His pink tongue licked the slow sensual smile that graced his lips. His flushed face have him a sexy innocence that Die had never seen before on the drummer.

Shinya moved and sat on Die's lap. He leaned into the tall man’ face and licked the dry lips. Something hot slithered its way down from Die's lips to his groin. Moaning he captured Shinya’s lips in his and kissed him hungrily. Shinya let him, but slowly moved his hands to unbuttoned Die's shirt.

Shinya broke the kiss.

Die groaned when Shinya’s blood red nails pinched his nipples. Sliding down to his knees, the red head unzipped Die's pants.

As Shinya ran his hands over his pale chest, he asked Die “Do you want to touch me?”

“Yes”

“Sorry Die.” Die saw the smile on Shinya’s face and he shivered. “Not tonight.”

The drummer stood up to sit on Die's lap. Shinya ran his hands down his chest again, stopping at his nipples. He caressed them until they turned to hard nubs. Running his hands down further to his stomach, he asked, “do you want to see me touch myself Die?”

The thought of it made Die jerk his hips in response. Leaning in his head, he nipped Die's ear and whispered “I take it that is a yes.”

Smiling wickedly, he took his own length in his hands. His forefinger traced the slit at the tip. Round and round the finger went. Die was captivated by the attention Shinya was giving himself. Slowly he started to stroke himself. At first the strokes were gentle and deliberate. Then quickened the strokes, moaning as the pleasure was filling him. Shinya started to move his hips to his own rhythm in the process rubbing against Die's own groin.

Moaning Die almost closed his eyes, when he heard Shinya gasping Die's name hungrily but he needed to see Shinya love himself. Shinya’s left hand wrapped around the guitarist's neck. His nails dug into his skin, making Die wince.

Shinya’s movements became more frenzied as his release was nearing. Faster and faster he stroked himself, chanting Die's name. Suddenly Die saw as Shinya’s head fall back, yelling his name, while raining Die's stomach with his milky seed.

Shinya’s slack body slipped between Die's legs, to sit on the floor. His head rested on Die's naked thigh arousing him more with the hot wet breath against his sensitive skin.

Shinya moved his head letting his hair caress the red's hardness. Crying out in pain, Die begged “Shinya”

Looking up, Shinya smiled seductively as he answered “Yes, Die did you want something?”

“Please Shinya, touch me.”

“Tsk, tsk Die. The naughty things you say to me. Do you think I'm that easy?”

“Please Shinya.”

Letting his hair caress Die once more, Shinya stood up, swaying a bit. “I'm sorry Die. I'm too tired.”

He turned and walked down the hall to his room. Die watched him walk away dumbfounded.

“Shinya! You can't leave me like this. Unlock the handcuffs.”

He got no response.

“Shinya! I'm not kidding. Come and release me.”

“Please…..”

Shinya felt a little bad when he heard Die's cries. He didn't think he was going to able to pull it off. But somehow, knowing that Die enjoyed the little show fueled Shinya’s courage. He blushed as he thought about tomorrow.

Forget it. I will face it when it comes.

Tonight he was tired. Sleep claimed him soon.

In the morning, Shinya got up, got dressed and headed into his living room. He was a bit afraid about Die.

Seeing how Die was asleep made him feel guilty again. It must have been some uncomfortable for Die to sleep like that. Shinya stood admiring Die's body. He would definitely like to explore it at his own leisure.

Die opened his eyes and stared at Shinya. He was angry. In a cold voice he ordered Shinya to release him. Shinya was about to when Die said “I am going to beat you Shinya.”

That scared Shinya. He didn't like violence. Fear pumped in him, so he did what any other person would have done, he ran.

“Shinya!”
 

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The rehearsal hall

Kyo was just waiting for the right opportunity to ask Shinya how it went with Yoshiki. He was very certain the drummer was talking about him when he asked for Kyo’s advice the day before.

With a loud crash, Die stormed in. He looked a mess and angry, very angry.

Kaoru looked at him and said, “About time you showed up.”

“Not now Kaoru.” He bit out.

Looking at the other two members “Can you please leave Shinya and I alone? We need to talk.”

Toshiya was about to ask why, when Kyo noticed the handcuffs hanging from Die's left hand. He turned to Shinya and blurted out “It was Die!”

“Out now!”

Sensing that something was up, Kaoru and Toshiya moved to leave. Toshiya took Kyo’s arm. “Come on this look serious.”
 

Shinya was standing behind the drum set. When Die came around one side, he stood up and quickly ran around the other way. “Stand still Shinya”

No” He looked to the door, seeing if he could reach it before Die. He took his chance and ran. He was about to open it when it was slammed shut before Die locked it.
 

Outside the remaining Dir en Grey members jumped when they heard the door slam and lock.

Kyo started to giggle. Die and Shinya!
 

“Die I…” Shinya quivered.

“What Shinya? You what?”

Taking Shinya by the arm, Die dragged him to a chair. “I'm going to spank you so hard Shinya that you wont be able to sit at your drums without wincing.”

Slap. Slap. Slap. Slap.

“Die! Please stop it hurts.” He squirmed in Die's lap.

“Good. Pain is good Shinya. I felt pain last night when you left me aroused and frustrated.”

Slap. Slap. Slap. Slap.

“Please Die, I'm sorry.” Shinya started to cry. Hiccupping, Shinya sobbed. “I just wanted to get back at you.”

Die stopped. He turned Shinya around so that he was sitting on his lap. “For the other night when you touched me. I know it was childish.”

“Was that all it was Shinya. Revenge?”

“Yes and no.”

“I enjoyed the nice time we had during dinner. And afterwards when I..” He blushed and looked down at his fingers.

“When what Shinya, say it.”

“When I touched you and myself, I wanted to arouse you.”

“And?”

“I learned that I like being in control. I wanted you to see me touch myself. It made me want to touch myself more. Afterwards, I realized I wanted to..” Blushing he looked down again.

“What?”

“I wanted to do it again, but maybe this time we could touch each other.”

“So you want to have sex with me?”

“No I want it to mean more than just sex.”

Die stared at Shinya before he leaned in to kiss the redhead.
 

Outside again

Yoshiki arrived and immediately asked why they weren't practicing.

Toshiya quickly answered “Die came in angry and told us to leave because he needed to talk to Shinya privately.”

Kyo cackled so hard, he almost fell off the stool he was sitting on. Toshiya turned to hush him.

“How long have they been in there?”

“20 minutes.”

“Well they had enough time. You need to practice. Go in now.” He ordered impatiently.

“We can't the door is locked.”

Reaching into his slacks “I have a key.” He took it out and unlocked the door. Opening the door, he was rewarded to the sight of Shinya in Die's lap, being thoroughly kissed with Die's hand up his skirt.

Yoshiki stood there for a second, before he backed out. “Um maybe we should give them a couple of more minutes.”

Kyo cackled again, but not before he said, “Any more time and we will be here all day.”

Yoshiki wanted to laugh, because he knew Kyo was right, but that would ruin his image.

“Well I will get you guys some coffee. Kaoru you are the leader, you take care of this.”

Yoshiki dashed out. He did not envy Kaoru’s job.

Sighing, Kaoru didn't want to do it. Toshiya rolled his eyes and decided that he would solve it. He opened the door and was rewarded with the sight of a shirtless Shinya with Die's hand still up his skirt. He closed the door quickly.

“Um maybe Yoshiki is right. We should give them a couple of minutes.” Kyo laughed harder still.

Kaoru gathered his courage and said, “I'm the leader here. I will do it.” He opened the door but there was no Die or Shinya in sight. Then a muffled cry and the drum cymbals fell down. He saw a skirt fly over the drum set. “Oh Die!’

That was enough for him. He backed out quickly. “Um, I'm hungry let's go out for breakfast.”

Toshiya quickly agreed, but Kyo said evilly “What about Die and Shinya? Shouldn't we invite them?”

Kaoru and Toshiya walked to stand on each side of him. Each grabbing an arm, the dragged a laughing Kyo out with them.
 
 

End

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