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"Letting Go"

Wasn't it only yesterday,
when we were both sixteen?
I was standing on my front porch
in my white, tight fitting jeans,
You sat down on my porch step,
with me and my best friend.
And that's the day you stole my heart,
the day I let you in.

As I gazed into your bedroom eyes,
how was I to know?
That you were someone special
and you'd break my heart someday?

In my memory I see you standing,
like a statue silhouette.
Your hair, your eyes are two main things,
I never did forget.
Now I'm in my golden years,
remembering my past,
Thinking back at Yesterday,
to a love that didn't last

Your youthful gestures intrigued me so,
As I memorized your manner, like
the way you moved, the way you dressed,
and the color of your hair.

My desire was to know you,
I hoped somehow you'd care.
My desire was to meet again,
I cared not when or where.

Your eyes they seemed to dare me,
your smile was most inviting.
As I studied your image,
I was drawn in by your lips.
I remember the moment,
when you gave me, my first kiss.

My heart it was pounding,
inside me so wild.
But why was it beating
so rapid and loud?
I longed to embrace you,
but I didn't know how.
I was trembling and shaking,
I was no longer a child.

But I was just a child,
my heart, it was tender.
I was fighting to hold on and yet,
I couldn't wait to surrender.
A touch, a kiss, anything to grasp on to.
That’s when you whispered you loved me,
And I whispered , "I love you too."

I carried your picture,
wherever I went.
You were are a part of my heart,
like a page in a book.
To me you were graceful,
charming and sweet.
You were everything I dreamed of,
my life was complete.

Will you hurt me if I let you in?
Will I regret the day I do?
Will your eyes that
speak to me of promises,
protect my innocence?
Letting go ,is what I need
to keep you always with me.
For without you in my very soul,
what good would my life be?

That moment in August,
with the stars all aglow.
I longed for tomorrow,
so I let my youth go.
I knew that I wanted
your heart to be mine.
For without you beside me,
the sun wouldn't shine

I recall that sick and awful feeling,
when you turned and walked away.
You turned the brightest,
sunny day into a gloomy gray.
You surely left an impact
on a once contented soul.
You broke my heart and left me.
Why? I still don't know.

Letting go was hard to do.
My tender heart was broken.
You left me without a parting kiss
and goodbyes were never spoken.

I'll always remember that summer night,
when first you claimed my soul.
For you took with you my innocence
and I still loved you so.

Do you know you carry a part of me,
wherever you may be?
I can't help but wonder,
if you ever think of me.

Lana Catlin
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