Disappointment

I’m a disappointment. 
I’m a disappointment to you
I’m a disappointment to you.

Don’t call my name 
When you’re in need 
Don’t mention me
When you’re breathing slowly

I crawled to the top
And made a name for me, 
Such nice things, 
but what’s the point of this...
Such nice things with no one to share with,
But my smile ain’t real 
when you know what’s within.
Reach inside me and feel.

Such a disappointment 
Such a damned disappointment 
I am to you.

Why don’t you just pick me up and love me?
Why don’t you just wrap me in your arms and shelter me?

Aren’t there times when you just give in
And start to believe the things they say
I’ve become something 
I don’t want to be,
I fell away in the ride.
And I can’t find any time 
to search and work
My passions inside... 
they’re slowly dying in my eyes.

I can’t help me... 
stripped of my powers.
I’m senseless now.
Call me a bitch and I’ll just stare. 
Nothing matters to me anymore 
When I’m gone in mind and here in body.

Don’t depend so much on me
I’ll just slip away quietly 
you won’t even hear me cry
I hate that I used to believe,
But everything in everything don’t last forever...
Though I do hope I feel better...
No blames.
No regrets.
Don’t ask me.
Don’t bother.
I’m a disappointment...
How you’ve made your point.