I loved you, 
but you were scared (so scared) 
My stressing’ days 
and my sleepless nights... 
I remember how I lived my life 
without you (without you). 
Wantin’ to share something special. 
A relationship worthwhile and meaningful
So that I could have to hold 
and not a shadow over love... 
(That’s what I don’t want to know). 

You say that you want me. 
You say that you need me. 
Doing and changing my body and soul
In magical ways behind the world... 
It’s not where I want to be. 
You say that you wanted me. 
You say that you needed me,
But you kill all my precious memories 
With your stabbing words... 
You burn every piece of me
(even worse) 
with your actions leaving me disturbed. 
You loved me, 
but you were scared 
(so scared)

Your carefree days and sleepful nights... 
I know you must remember well 
(clearly well). 
Of the kinds of breathless cries we bare. 
I felt you in me... 
on my skin you would lay. 
And in my heart you would stay. 
I just couldn’t see fear the way you saw, 
because once I’m in love... 
I fear no one. 
Not even the ones who try to bring dilemma. 
Till this day I never knew, 
maybe I’ll never know
Why you were afraid, 
too scared to fucken admit. 
I never understood why you just didn’t show me
That you really cared, did you care? 
You wouldn’t say it. 
Making me feel as if
You didn’t break a sweat. 
Didn’t freely break a tear for me. 
Didn’t break your heart, 
But mine (still hurts). 

I wanted you to go all the way with me. 
Next step, next level, 
further the ecstasy... 
Instead you murdered my innocence,Fuck it! 
My innocence was lost when I knew what sin was. 
I could only have you in the many fake fantasies. 
Drivin’ me n drivin’ me 
into the state of insane efficiency. 
I prayed for you to love away my pain
That you and I had created for me to cry. 
I was never scared, cuz’ I loved you 
(so clear). 
And so then I began to think. 
Fear wasn’t a matter of your fact. 
It didn’t keep you from coming back. 
And there are times I think that
You were just too ashamed to be... 
Doing and changing my body and soul
In magical ways behind the world... 
It’s not where I want to be. 
It’s not where I want to be.