Nobody Was There

Finally, myself has found
A drain to unplug away some of these pain.
(it was burning me insane)
The scars on me are left there
for memories of shame. (shame)
all this time (all this time)
I’ve wished my life was different.

Why wasn’t anyone there
Nobody was there 
No one seemed to care
(Nobody really cared)
to recognize how I’ve tried
I’m so lonely and so damned afraid.
I need someone to hold me
(hold me, hold me)
with no questions in mind
learn to love me (love me)
with no lies (lies, lies)

Everyday of my confusing life
there had to be at least…
if not ten then three or four fears
that often kept  me awake and aware
that my life just ain’t sweet fucken cherry fair
let there be solid clear answers
so I can spread my wings and fly (high)
soar into the blue endless sky

I’ve come to think
When I had sunk beneath,
Below the surface
Was I, why was I
Chosen to be on this ride
Been growing up in more 
Than averaged tears
I can’t believe I survived
Many times I’ve felt unworthy
Walking upon nothing,
But tightropes through my journey
I remember the dark-numbing times
When suicide crossed my mind,
But somewhere inside the tangled up lines
You can easily find the truth
Behind these tired out eyes
Leading you to a silent cry
That you’ve go to look beyond
And listen carefully and you’ll hear
(you’ll hear me)
that I don’t want to die.
I don’t want to die.