I sit here opened up like a ball in half and I love you away in my tub My tub of liquid I flow so freely And I’m in this heaven of filthy pleasures No ones knows, but me These fingers they tire out after a while And my back aches as it dirties against this wall of tiles I cry out your name in moments Thinking of you takes my breath away Of how I need you I need you...
As it fills up around me Then I feel like my last string of life is being sucked away And I can’t do anything about it But sit here in my tub of heaven tired and restless and let it be I’m calling your name in my head And I’m seeing you in my bed I smell you as drops of water sprinkles upon me My eyes aren’t focusing properly now I just want to hold your body close to mine Feel your fingers in between me I want you to love me in my tub of heaven Why don’t you in this reality Why must I dream these impossible dreams Why did I let you in... I didn’t invite you in like this Now I can’t get you out, cuz’ it’ll never be the same again
Just one kiss... one taste Whisper something... whisper my name I want something of you to consume Belonging is what we need yet we get lost And I don’t know where to stand But just sit in my tub of heaven... with my eyes closed tight As it feels around me My heart races as it takes over As I’m in the middle of passion... lust You’re loving me in the right ways For 4 seconds of bliss then I can’t take it Then you fade... you’re gone when I open my eyes And I get lost in this heaven all over again This heaven that I’ve made for myself to be close to you
Why do I need you Why do I need this Why do I need this tub of heaven Why can’t I have you Why I can’t have you
I have no answers Because you’re suppose to answer them for me I wait in here for you But I know you’ll never come for me Like I would for you As it overflows... I’m drowning in my tub of heaven I love myself away thinking of you loving me... in this tub of heaven