Resisting the Urge

I WANT TO BURN I WANT TO BURN I WANT TO BURN I WANT TO BURN. i want to cut through my pale skin and watch the beautiful deep red seep through. I WANT TO FIGHT I WANT TO FIGHT I WANT TO FIGHT I WANT TO FIGHT. i want my revenge on the people who have hurt my friends. I WANT TO HURT I WANT TO HURT I WANT TO HURT I WANT TO HURT. i want a sharp pang of pain to stop this carousel and take me back to reality. I WANT TO SLEEP I WANT TO SLEEP I WANT TO SLEEP I WANT TO SLEEP. i want to bash my head into the wall, a quiet, undesturbed sleep. I WANT TO BREAK I WANT TO BREAK I WANT TO BREAK I WANT TO BREAK. i want every bone in my body to crack, the pain the pain the pain. I WANT TO WASH I WANT TO WASH I WANT TO WASH I WANT TO WASH. i want to scrub away all the dirt your touch has brought to me. SCRUB SCRATCH SCRUB SCRATCH until there's nothing but raw, unreasonable flesh. I WANT TO BE ALONE I WANT TO BE ALONE I WANT TO BE ALONE I WANT TO BE ALONE. but these voices will never leave me always in my head. POUDNING PRESSING POUNDING PRESSING a ceaseless drum you are to me POUNDING PRESSING POUNDING PRESSING i can't take this anymore POUNDING PRESSING POUNDING PRESSING maybe soon i'll die POUNDING PRESSING POUNDING PRESSING ...i'll never be that lucky...