| I wanna be with you by: Faye "I try but I can't seem to get myself to think of, anything but you " 'Of all the things I could have woken up to...' I thought as I turned over, trying to ignore the alarm bells in my head urging me to wake up. "Your breath on my face, your warm gentle kiss, I taste, the truth, I taste the truth" The truth? Oh your certainly far from knowing the truth Danny. And warm and gentle kiss? The only time I've experienced that was after the signing of the record deal. A playful smack on the lips in a moment of joy. How many times has that fantasy re-played in my head? That the kiss had lasted longer, been induced with more passion...perhaps confessions of love? Oh get a grip Darren. "We know what I came here for, So I won`t ask for more" I've never asked for anything. Except your friendship. After years of longing, I've still never asked you for more. Why? What's the point? You're as straight as they come. I mean, I know your not homophobic, but we've had this conversation so many times before. You just don't understand how one man can be attracted to another. You can appriciate a good looking guy... but anymore? I wish. And I do. "I wanna be with you, if only for a night, to be the one whose in your arms, who holds you tight. I wanna be with you, there's nothing more to say, there's nothing else I want more than to feel this way. I wanna be with you" Yet another fantasy. You see Danny, I have many fantasies, all of which involve you, to your shock I'm sure. But I have one main fantasy. The one which conveys everything I've ever wanted since that fateful summers day I met you. A night, my confession and you reveling in it. Infact, you returning same feelings I've just poured out. You'd tell me that you too, fell in love with me the very moment you saw me. That for 10 years all you've wanted is to be with me. That's theres never been anyone else in your heart. That it's been tearing you apart all this time, knowing there was no way I felt the same. "So I`ll hold you tonight like I would if you were mine, to hold forever more. And I`ll saver each touch that I wanted so much to feel, before (to feel before). How beautiful it is, just to be like this" Then you'd hold me all night, as if I were yours. Forever. If you could see me now Danny, you'd erupt with laughter. A grown man crying because he's fallen in love. Unrequited love that that. Pathetic huh? Oh but I can't help it. You don't understand what it's like. How could you? Everyone you've ever wanted has recipricated those feelings! Why wouldn't they? Take a look at yourself. You are simply divine. I don't want to be in love with you. But I can't change it. The more I resist, the father I fall. "I wanna be with you, if only for a night, to be the one whose in your arms who holds you tight. I wanna be with you, there's nothing more to say, there's nothing else I want more than to feel this way. I wanna be with you" Maybe if I tell you, you'll understand. I don't expect you to feel the same way. I don't any hope for that at all. If you'd wanted me, we'd be together by now. You've always gone out and got what you wanted. Obviously I wasn't an important purchase to you. Would you understand if I told you? Would you hold me for one night? For friendships sake? Pretend I was yours? Stop this sad, lonley, head over heals in love, old fool's heart breaking? Just once...it's all I ask. "Oh, baby, I can`t fight this feeling anymore. It drives me crazy when I try to. So call my name, take my hand, can you make my wish, baby your command?" 'Yeah so...what I came here for? Urm...oh yeah! Erm..I don't want this to change anything,.. I mean obviously it will, considerably, but I don't want it to...I want you to forget it once i've told you Danny...well not forget it, but, well, not change...act normal...and-' 'Darren...For God's sake spit it out boy!' 'Ok...right...yeah...rambling...hmm...' '*Darren*...' 'I Love you' "Yeah, I wanna be with you, there's nothing more to say, there's nothing else I want more than to feel this way. (I wanna be) I wanna be with you, (I wanna be with you) I wanna be with you..." Why couldn't you be disgusted? Hate me? At least throw me out, needing time to think! But no, you had to be the wonderful human you were. Scraping me into your arms, telling me it wouldn't change a thing, you were just sorry you didn't feel the same. And you did what I'd hope. For one night you held me. Let me beleive you were mine and I was yours. Softly stroked my hair, carrased my skin...even kissed the top of my head occasionally. I couldn't sleep at all that night...this was a night that I had to live with for the rest of my life. You see Danny, if you'd hated me, I could have told myself you weren't the person I thought I'd fallen in love with. Slowly, I would have got over you. But you didn't. You reacted how I'd dreaded. You reacted like Daniel. The man I love. And I fear you're the only one I ever will. "wanna be with you..." |