Hope is lost
Lost to another shore.
All that matters
Gone evermore.
Need to reclaim
To complete who I was,
Who I am.
Never will be
Without Hope there, beside.
Help me find
I can't do it alone.
All these feelings inside
That I just cannot shut out
Will not.
They burn within my heart, mind, soul.
Always with me.
Constant torture
Without Hope.
A scorching load
Naught can quell.
Pain increasing
I need relief.
Suffocating from despair.
Thick dark clouds
No salvation in sight.
Yearning for Hope
Standing there,
Awaiting me.
Take me from the shadows
Let me feel you,
Shining.
But you won't.
Hope is lost,
Lost to another shore.
What I need most
Never mine evermore.
All consuming
Breathe it.
Taste it.
Feel it.
You know it's there.
Alwaya there.
You cannot escape.
Wouldn't want to.
Strong like the diamond
You wear like achain.
Binding you
Marking you sold.
Eternal like the God
You allow to govern ceremony.
Admit yourself
Below and insignificant.
Safe like the Church
Open to all.
Those who believe
Those that don't and amusement seek.
Feel a need.
Now.
You're being stifled.
Confined to control.
Prisoner in your own life.
Must break away
From servitude and eternity.
Impossible you know.
You feel it
Taste it
Breathe it
And know you can't live without it there
Suffocating you.
Take me
Away from here.
I can't stand this pretence
Any longer.
She smiles
Another lie I'm expected
To believe.
She lives life
False and fake.
With all appearance of reality.
She speaks
Seriously believing that we don't see
Through her.
She lies
Naturally to make herself seem special.
Truth hurts.
I can't listen
It hurts she needs to lie
To me.
I can't know
What's truth or not...
Believe nothing
I can't open
Myself to her false visage
Need the person within.
I can't see
Where to go from here.
Something will happen,
Be assured
I can't understand
She thinks us ignorant enough
To believe
I can't trust
My friend who I don't know
At all.
Live in hope
She will one day
Admit and undo.
I'll be there
Waiting, as always
To find the real her.
Secrets I hide.
Dreams I am ashamed of.
Aspirations I fear
Thoughts not sane.
Feelings unnatural
Run through my veins.
Ideas, disturbing.
Memories not my own
Terrified faces
Of what I don't know.
Constant pressure
Malevolence within.
Events missed in person
Yet somehow in memory.
Emotions derived from unknown events.
Hatred to love,
No understanding why.
Unable to control outbursts
Alienated and alone.
Others stay away
Though less scared than I.
My mind turns,
Daily against itself
Nothing I can do.
Live with the torment,
No way out.
Half of my life lived
By another.
Another me,
Yet different.
Cannot understand
Cannot comprehend.
Another person's means
Achieve the same end.