| Emotion Reft With Devotion Silent dreams, eerie screams drifting through me... to see beyond now, past yesterday, in behind tomorrow.... pushed into the light of being, a sorrowful tear fills my eye spiraling with fear.... I dance alone in love so dear... everything so clear, I see the road, your on it, ....but I know me.... ..........walk on.......... rock on....... [you still dont see me, and I am not a beggar] nothing can hold me down... was your fear grounded in reality? its seeming so, as I feel I'm letting go... [as you ignore my existence, push me away with your silence] I am hear again.... looking into dusty archives, long ago tales [silent trail of tears] tossing off veils, reaching for the light... its east to see, I am only me.... you've no time to add me in... [no space, no place, I fall from grace] I feel it all again... how hard I try to deny, how I try to bend to help you heal.... I cant make you feel that I am real. And you dont even know me... how can I be real, when you deny the feel.... how am I to dance, to sing... to bring you the things, only love can bring... when your gaze lays upon bygone days... emotion reft with devotion... you call me 'friend' pull me to pieces again and again.... lift me up, strike me down... you slipping off in silence my heart bleeding... your knowing... .......friend....... you call me friend... I listen to your words again and again emotion spills from my mind cant believe you still don't have time... you never did, you never will... always needing a few more years to settle things [your time, when your ready, yet again....nothing together] always never reaching that goal... theres always more years ahead... it was business, it was personal... never ending...I was bending.... bending until I broke... no time for 'us'... the very thing you say is all so important. The community loves you, needs you, feeds you... you answer the prayers of the distressed every day... who am I to think I could sway you... [all I have is love to offer] you never took the time then, you called me friend then too... as you broke me in two. I dont ask much of anyone, I asked you least of all... I was a beggar back then, I begged you to hear my words, my pain... [with my humility laid bare, you dared walk away] .....no time, not now..... well talk later how reminiscent those words are to me a crushing blow... the 'us' I was to never know. Because you never gave it, you never gave yourself... ~ Rain © cls 2003 |