| Screaming To God Fingers gently skimming across the heavy white bed rail empty sheets piericing into my soul knuckles turning white with anger fear and lost joys filling my heart What is inside you - Anything, anything at all Do you care what anyone feels or do you only think of yourself Trickling rain, like the tears of my pain My world gone asunder, my heart feels like thunder In the stillness there is madness that fills me with sadness the years have worn me down I can bearly stand my ground yet I walk like I have no doubt that you are still mine And still yet ... a part of me screams as the thunder rolls through me rippling the things I do not wish to feel in still another endless night Fingers gently skimming across the heavy white bed rail empty sheets piercing into my soul knuckles turning white with anger fear and lost joys filling my heart .... down on my knees screaming to god at the foot of my bed asking what is it that I have done my hands griping so hard that it hurts god I cant see anything from here please take me from this place please dont leave me like this ... god not like this ... I have tried everything I can think of, been so willing to give ... but god I dont have anything left ... please make the thunder go away lord .. I cant take it anymore ... I gave my heart lord, you know that I did, please dont leave me like this ... In the stillness, there is a madness .... the years have worn me down, I can bearly stand my ground ~ Rain © cls |
| Your World ~ My heart leads me blindly pulling me in all directions taking me away, far from here my heart wanders in an unknown land looking, searching and never finding my heart cries the tears of time the frear in my own mind I am so lonely and yet with you, with you in presence, but not in your mind, your eyes, or your heart I look for what I cant see, I try to see it with you try to feel what it is you feel, I try to understand we were torn apart by the very things in our hearts mine looking for where yours had gone it was what was so very important to me the love I once felt, the care you once gave, yours looking for things that ment little to nothing to me ... you seek success in your name & money to build your empire what I need has been taken away, lost along the way the things you then offered were so empty and hurt so very much ... the thoughts gone, vanished within your successes each success bringing a new and frightening distance our once happy home is now an empty lie with nothing to hold me ... what was once mine now belonged to the world, taken from me ... having allready won my heart, you looked for something new leaving me to die in this lonely place that you call home, it means nothing to me without you here ... I am dyeing inside ..... screaming to get out and no one can hear me you take my heart wherever you go ... you pack it off like its your belonging something you can set aside and tend to when you have the time the time that never comes to this home anymore this place that has become my prison ... a prison for my aching heart an empty place ... its just a shell to me ... nothing means anything anymore, nothing makes any sense here so empty, so alone ... you took yourself away from me, and gave to the world, so unselfishly to them ... yet abandoning me along the way ... god I just dont understand ... please help me if you can your will, your drive, unmatched by but a few so open to the world ... as once you were to me ... consumed by such a desire, like I had never seen for anything but me ... oh so far ... so very far from me you go and then suddenly you will give me reason to hold on ... making me think that all will be well ... then you tear me apart walking away so easily back to your world a world that is killing me, shoving me off, making me chose another road ~ Rain © cls |
| ^v^ Not sure what a sunny day is anymore ..... Just think about it ..... Really what is anything worth ..... What is the worth of words ..... The worth of pain ..... The worth of sun or rain ..... If there is a forsaken point in this damed world I am not finding it ..... I need to keep writing or ill go insain ...... ^v^ |