| I Died ~ I died long ago I could not look ahead I could not look back I was just standing still Just sitting on the dock watching ferries glide by... I did not want to live I did not want to die but I couldent even cry anymore it was everything it was nothing it was alltogeather brutle... rag tag....slam me down my little broken mind.... get the hell away from me dont want to talk empty words dont need anymore empty dreams as my heart trys to fly you bind my wings.... you bind them with empty promisses your words ring so loud and clear I see the emptyness I fear everywhere.... I run....I try to hide my heart.... hide it so you cant hurt me anymore cant you see? cant you see what the hell it is you do to me? have I smiled for you? have you heard me laugh..... when was the last time I ran to you I cant ask you for help, you just push me away.... I am affraid of anything & everything with you... cant talk to you... cant love you... cant see you anymore... cant feel your heart.... you wont let me I died long ago just sitting on the dock watching ferries glide by... dont want to live dont want to die couldent even cry it was everything it was nothing it ws alltogeather brutle... rag tag.....slam me down my little broken mind.... can you tell me what I am doing here where is tomorrow... what happned today... I need to wake up.... I died long ago....... ~ Rain © cls |
| Fear ~ can you see the fear in my face... can you feel it when you walk by... shall I tell you about my dreams.... can you see that when you talk to me the words get lost before they reach me... do you know where I am? do you know where I stand? (I have told you exactly) do you care? are you there? do you know what I fear... do you know what I feel... everything is so dark.... the rain comes down so hard and its the only comfort I find somewhere in the back of my mind something says run......fly.....go now..... I here it al the time now..... is pushing... is pulling... is tearing me apart... you have no idea..... your to busy..... (you dont here what I say) I feel a shiver run down my spin when you walk by... Nightmears fill my bed... you speek and I feel pain in my heart... pain so great I cant here you anymore.... words are just things you use... you say the things people want to hear... you the man that can read people so well.... and yet you have never seen me~ you have no idea who I am.... why have I been here all of these years? I am your good girl... I am always there for you... I am the life of your endless party... I stay to make everything right... I take you home at the end of the night... I open the door when you've worked all night... why is it your so proud to have me??? your little pupet that plays whatever game you toss at her... and only god knows what the next adventure will be... the rain comes down so hard and its the only comfort I find somewhere in the back of my mind something says run.... fly...... go now...... I here it all the time now...... is pushing.... is pulling.... is tearing me apart you have no idea..... your to busy...... can you see the fear in my face... can you feel it when you walk by... shall I tell you about my dreams..... ~ Rain © cls |
| ~ I want to go to heaven I want to leave this place ~ |