Its late and you are on your way here...
I dont know what to do or say anymore,
I am lost in yet another of lifes snow storms...
Looking to the right and the left of myself,
Looking ahead . . .
to see if the light at the end of the tunnel,
is still really visible,
Did I see that light,
or was it just wishful thinking..
I am not sure anymore...
I think this is the second darkest time in my life ...
I dont know why this has come to pass ...
Why things are this way ...
I may never know ...
Do we really ever understand
these feelings in life or is it
like something that is just out of reach ...
Something we desperately try to grasp onto ...
To hold onto ...
Something that no matter
how we try to understand,
Its just as elusive as the butterfly that you look for
Its only their when your not looking for it....
softly floating to your shoulder ...
and then you may never even see it ...
It may pass unnoticed ...
Once upon a time you saw me ...
But you left me alone for so long ...
Then I became the butterfly ...
~
Rain © cls 2003