COMING OUT, BUT NOT IN THE WAY YOU THINK

In the last few years I’ve pretty much kept my professional life and my BDSM life separate, at least as far as the mailing lists I’ve been on have been concerned. But as I look at my life and where it is going I see the barriers as a royal pain and it is time to get rid of them.

It wasn’t always this way. I was quite open about my field in the days of CDG and that never presented any difficulty. There has always been a large overlap between the occult/magickal communities and the BDSM scene in Chicago so my work in the area of psionics and magick fit in extremely well. In fact they may have helped in my being accepted because I am no more easy to get along with in person than I am online, in some ways maybe even more difficult.

But as I did more and more of my communication through computer with people I had never met, I sort of dropped the Dr. Psionic Uncle Chuckie label because it seemed that it would be counter-productive (prior to DaggerDom, the AOL screen name I used was PSIMAST, a contraction of Psi Master and it was originally intended to be used to sell books). After all, I want to have SOME credibility and not just be the local nutbar. Well, all that is sort of changing now because my research and writing has taken me to a point where I find my experience and work in conflict with the experience of others in the scene and my point of view must confuse them greatly. So let me explain.

While I have become somewhat respected in the scene as a sort of elder statesman, albeit a rather opinionated, highly unorthodox and troublesome one, in my professional world I am considered to be one of the super bad guys, someone whose name is mentioned quietly, if at all and usually with some terror in the voice. A few years back someone was nearly thrown out of a meeting of the U. S. Psychotronic Association merely for mentioning my books and Dr. Charles Tart did an absolutely comical dance trying to avoid me at the 1993 World Parliament of Religions. And I can’t say that I blame them because I work and write about an area of parapsychology that most folks in the field would either rather not admit exists and never, ever would admit to working in it themselves. And to make matters worse, I popularize it! Meanwhile I have lots of fun with their general discomfort. The idea that all these serious researchers are getting their shorts in knot over little old me is just too delightful for words.

Frankly, I do bad things to people. I generally just say I screw with people’s heads on the other side of the world and leave it at that, for obvious reasons. And this has some implications for my role in the overall scene and my reactions to certain issues that get raised. There are very real reasons why I’m not intimidated by law enforcement or the opinions of the cursed vanillas and the people who worry about such things know the reasons. My research is considered real important in some areas and interference in it is looked down upon, to say nothing of what the implications of that research are. As I once said in all seriousness, “If I can do the things they think I can do, they have far more to fear than I.”

So what the hell has this to do with BDSM? Well, as I said on the cover page of this site, there is quite a bit of material out there relating to BDSM as a form of sex and chaos magick. But no one has yet made the reverse assessment, looking at the mindset of Chaos Magick as a paradigm for the practice of BDSM. In other words, they’ve used floggings to set up an energy relationship for magick, but they have never done a scene where the only thing done with the sub is psychic or magickal. And they have never taken the thought process of Chaos Magick, particularly its absolute relativism, and applied it to the relationship or theoretical aspects of BDSM.

There is precedent for this. The followers of the Xtian current practice what they call Christian BDSM and they go to great lengths to find ways to mix the two, even going so far as to call Jesus a Submissive! (Actually he was more likely a switch, as his making a flogger and using on the money-changers proves.) There was a very heavy cross-over between Satanism and BDSM in the 1940s-1970s, continuing well into the 1980s which occasionally showed up in the porno-picture industry and the relationship between Wicca and BDSM is too well known to be worth commenting upon.

I’m going to try to correct that with this site. I really don’t know where it is going to lead, maybe off a cliff, but I’m going to give it a try. And because this is a work in progress, you will find articles that seem pure BDSM and articles that seem pure Magick. I’m less concerned with technique here than I am with philosophy, but tech will get covered because there are things that folks have just never written about before.

Stick around, the fun is just beginning, and remember, “That is not dead which can eternal lie, and with strange eons, even death may die.”

Uncle Chuckie