Here I am at fifty-five years old
wanting my dad, for me to hold.
One last time for him to hear
and whisper I love you ..in his ear.
I think of all the time we did waste
running past each other in a haste.
The roles he played for him were set
so closeness for us, we didn't get.
The daughter he wanted, I couldn't be
The father I needed, wasn't he.
Somehow through this time we endured
and found our love was still shared.
So at times likes these, and Father's Day
I sit and ponder, wanting to say
Dad, I'm still that little girl
held on your lap, hair in curls.
If I could go back all those years
I wouldn't be sitting here in tears.
Tears of pain, feelings that I missed
the gift you gave me with a kiss.
So with my sadness, and a prayer
Dad, in my heart, you're always there.
Kay Elaine Ekwall
copyright l999
Touching Souls
I want.....
To reach out and touch your soul
To stroke you and make you whole
To cradle you in my arms, like a baby
No longer possible, since you're a lady.
I wish......
To heal in you all your pain
To make sure it never comes again
Only love in your life and harmony
Opened doors so you can see
...all the wonders of life I've given to you
so many possible futures to view.
But, all I could give you is the breath of life
I cannot take away all strife
Each person's job is inner healing
To do it for you would be stealing..
..your chance for joy coming from inside
...with God's guidance, no need to hide.
I would, If I could take on all your pain
As I did bringing you to this life again.
But your pain is yours alone to bear
And with this knowledge, I can only share
What I have learned, the paths I've taken
Some wisdom learned and some forsaken.
Here my gift daughter, for what it's worth
is a womb for your rebirth.
Kay Elaine Ekwall
copyright l999
Perched upon the edges of time,
billowing clouds of nostalgia
overcome me.
Pognant memories of peaceful days,
of innocence, of blindness (perhaps),
slide stealthily into my mind.
Memories of children laughing, playing,
bright Christmas mornings,
eggnog and pumpkin bread.
Tables laden with extravagent
and delectable morsels
tantalizing my taste buds
....even now.
Faces so dear and long since gone
come out of the mist to me
and say....love.
Precious, tender moments spent,
in loving you.....loving me.
Lovingly, I close my album of memories,
sadly, maybe, but glad to have had them,
open to creations of a new future
one not yet dreamed of....and I smile..
Kay Elaine Ekwall
copyright l998
To Jamelle, a child
so dear and fair,
A girls with
flowers in her hair.
A child born
in a strange place,
She came in here
so full of grace.
A heart as big
as all out doors,
And, in her mind
I found the chore.
So strong in self
and realized,
That she had always
opened eyes.
Into the heart
she had the sight,
While others
floundered in the night.
And she,
a caring being too,
Into her circle
she did drew,
Friends that hale
from near and far,
Helping each other find
out who they are.
We are but
earthly dwellers here
A short time
for us this body to wear.
And, if this
bright spirit may pass by
Tell her I'll love her
from on high...
Kay Elaine Ekwall
copyright l998
A new friend like you is a treasure
more precious thatn the purest gold
in a chest that's now opened
a new relationship to behold.
As we unlock each hidden door
with silver keys from our past
sharing lifes' experiences
helps new friendships to last.
Like a song you've written
on the pages of my heart
your tender words touch me
where others cannot start.
To share with you my deepest thoughts
a pleasure from me to you
with heartfelt thankfulness
is what I give to you.
Kay Elaine Ekwall
copyright l999
To Laura....
my dear, dear friend,
So full of surprises
you amaze me.
And now, your life is
changing, re-arranging
the pattern.
You're so afraid, of what?
the same things
we are all
.......afraid of.......
Fear of the unknown
a journey - a leap
into space.
The feeling of
F
A
L
L
I
N
G
And not
being able
to stop.
...is this what you feel...
I wish I could
help you...but
I can't make
your journey
for you.
However,
I can listen,
I can understand.
And share
my fears with you.
You're not alone
my friend.
...we journey together.....
Kay Elaine Ekwall
copyright l987
