17th March 2004
. New Skin, FAKE? Skin
.
Listening To
: SENS - Peace Of
Mind
Time On Planet
Fake? - 22.45
today.. was a
pretty good day @ work.. not that I've woken up and start to enjoy my
daily work but.. @ last I've managed to clear up the mess in my documentation
room.. tidy up my workplace.. filed the documents in place...
went for my run..
and tried SpongeBob's product from Malaysia... " Oh Man.. " .. so deadly
that I can just do with
one single Fag
to last the whole day ...
Asked Quek and SP
Lim to accompany me to Jurong Point to buy Observatory's CD... but.. it
happened to be a trip too costly for me.. accident buyer for 3 CDs
when I planned for only one... oh well.... no more CDs for next month ....
CDs CDs CDs...
They're all burning holes in my pocket... I've bought 4 CDs this month... 1.
FAKE? 's
New Skin Mini Album... 2.
Observatory's
Time Of Rebirth CD .. oh by the way.. Observatory is a local band.. 3.
SENS's
Songs For The Heart CD.. it's a best of compilation CD.. and 4. Jazz Queen
Astrud
Gilberto 's
CD.. it's sort of like a compilation too ... and I did not dare.. to find
out how much the 4 of them cost in total.. I'll
kill
myself...
Actually.. I've
not even got my hands on FAKE? 's New Skin.. but EvOn was kind enough to
burn them and transfer the mp3 to me all the way from Chiba... 4 new songs
to satisfy my FAKE? addiction ... the tracks seems ok.. but.. needed
more time to get used to it...
I got to know the
band
Observatory
through the
press... and after reading some rave reviews about our home grown band..
I've decide to buy their debut album... the packaging uncannily resembles
Pearl Jam's
1994 Vitalogy LP..
It's sort of like
a diary form with hand writing scribbles... what it surprised me was
this..
The torn pages ...
! got a shock from it... * Heh * .... and what I really like was that... the
CD package kind of ... felt personal.. in the sense that... ..
... with hand
scribbled lyrics... drawings and even paper clipped mini photos.. it makes
me feel that... the CD seems to be like their demo CD.. raw... but still...
it reminds me a lot of Pearl Jam's Vitalogy ... ok.. enough of CDs... NO
more CDs for me !..
Tomorrow I'm
taking 1/2 day... to be honest.. I'm taking it as not to jeopardize my
normal fall out time.. and secondly.. I had things to settle.. should be
meeting Yaohui .. to accompany me to the Loan centers, HSBC and the May
bank.. to find out about the bank loan... I'm also making a trip down to SP
too.. If I can squeeze some time... need to find my lecturer... needed his
help...
and coming
Saturday... should be going down to Music Underground instead of Centro...
cause Vincent asked me if I'll be free to go Chiong... but.. already
promised my poly mates liao.. so.. hope to persuade them to go M.U
instead... hahah.. two birds with one stone ..
Lookin' forward to
my weekends ....
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dULUGE
eVIDENCE
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15th March 2004
. Shag-ster ?
.
Listening To
: FAKE? - He
(a)
dFuc
(k)
Time On Planet
Nostaglia - 22.02
Actually...
there's really nothing special about
today to write down anything but.. I'm
surfing around the Newcastle University's website.. and took a look @ what
facilities and services they offered.. so ah.. hairdressers... second hand book
stores... and wait .... just under the section "
sexual health
" ...
" Condoms and
dental dams are
readily available
from Campus Central. This is a free service we provide for our members and
trust that you will use this service wisely. We have also installed condom
vending machines in both the male and female toilets adjacent to the Lake
Cafe Complex for your convenience. "
s
Oh My Lordy !
...
safe sex for all ! ... oh well ... I'm smiling right now in disbelieve..
and.. of course.. I'm happy to be aware of that service.. !
so ah ~.. ... .... ... it'll definitely be ahhhemmm...
useful ...
Now.. I'm feeling
the signs of getting older... cause.. I'm now.. err... looking through a
list of contact.. courtesy of Mr. Zhiming.. I know you're looking @ this..
Thanks!
for doing these shits !... I mean.. I'm sure that we're appreciate your
efforts ! .. oh anyway...
We chatted about
some of our Primary school mates.. and some retro names sprung into my dusty
mind... Shu Juan, Xiao Fing, Yuan Yuan, Hanwei, ZhiXing, Rong Zhou.. bla bla
bla... and... Oh Man ... Retro !
and.. I missed
that last outing cuz.. * Sigh * ... well.. I'll be present for my
next one ...
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13th March 2004
. Doing The Things I
Hate
.
Listening To
: Aerosmith - Back
In The Saddle
Time On Planet -
20.25
Just yesterday...
my Mum was forcing me to take up driving lessons.. which I'm totally not
interested ! .... although it'll be fully sponsored by her.. but.. I'll
rather she put those money to good use..
such as using them
for my living expenses overseas.. Driving seems to be one of the
last
things on mind
mind to accomplish now.. but.. I'll go for the basic theory now.. just to
keep her happy for a while and hope that she'll forget about the whole thing
altogether ...
One thing I won't
deny is that... a Driving license is essential .. but.. I just don't see
myself getting one.. not in the near future.. ..I know I sound like a loser
but.. knowing how to drive isn't in my priority list now.. the first on my
shitty list.. is..
study....
What I felt is that.. my education is far more important than another skill
like driving..
Yes yes.. you
might say that I'll need that plastic card for my working needs or how much
of a loser I am.. but... yeah... till I get a degree first..
others.. can fu*king
wait
... cause I did not say that I'm not getting one... I'll learn how to drive..
someday ...
Performing guard
duties are one of the things I hate.. Being trapped in the Army is also..
something I detest.. negotiating stuffs with someone who's stubborn
and un-compromising... waking up too early in the morning and off to work...
and...
fake plastic trees
... Yes.. I hate them too .. I also hate people who seems to be like a
radio without the power-off switch.. ( I appreciate quietness and
peacefulness ) ...
I hated people who
gives me " empty promises " ... just like someone did to me
today.. well
actually..
both of us were @
fault..
I must admit.. .. here's me.. guilty of changing plans... and she.. being
so
... stubborn and un-compromising ... oh well ... I guess.. we're both hot
tempered and stubborn ...
oh well ...
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12th March 2004
. Take My Life
.
Listening To
: Eminem - Stan
Time On Planet
Kill Me - 19.47
... lucky... Yours
truly
wasn't
being activated for guard duty.. feels so good to be @ home ! but... would
be better w/o that migraine...
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dULUGE
eVIDENCE
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11th March 2004
. I Hate Rainy Days..
Makes Me ZzzZzzz
.
Listening To
: Suede - The Wild
Ones
Time On Planet
Guard Duty - 21.15
Yesterday.. I did
my duty with....
Ta Ta...
Marc Pereira.. not that brainy Royston.. oh well.. I knew I'm gonna
to be in the first detail and that Marc Pund*h offered to stand
with me.. and so... anyway.. talked to him a bit.. about proper
pronunciation .. argued with him a bit about religion and stuffs...
and suddenly..
yesterday.. I felt like an old bird.. in the sense that I get certain
privileges.. such as getting the other detail to take over the sentry..
earlier.. * haha * all thanks to Mr.. Tanny Boy ! for waking them up @
3.30am.. ! ... and that Shiva fellow... * sigh * ... " Mei Ta Mei
Xiao " .. whatever..
and Royston was a
total cock... brought 2 Econs textbooks to sentry that made my thin 8 Days
magazines looked stupid... and his packing and unpacking of his
luggage inside the guard rest this morning.. simply pisses me off !.. he
made so much little noise.. that I couldn't fall asleep ! ... so.. I went to
my office to work instead...
anyway.. my 1/2
day became .. like.. sigh.. left camp @ 1.45pm ? ...
pause
for a latest update *
Pte Ngan
said if his fever did not sibside... I'll be activated tomorrow... *.. and I
said..
whatever...
Nah Beh.. God damn motherfucker ! fucking hell ..want to activate
me.. fuck you.. motherfucker.. fucking faggot.. get a life fucking asshole !
.. don't you one day become my fucking reserve.. I'll make sure I'll fucking
activate you regardless if I'm sick or not.. god damn fucking lame ass..
fuck you.. fuck your own fucking dick ass boy.. fuck head ! ...
FUCK YOU
! god damn motherfucker ! IF I'm activated tomorrow.. I'll fucking kill you
! ...
oh well... I'm
sorry
there.. got a little too
excited
there... sorry...
oh.. Quek and I left in Tanny's dad's car.. It's always so kind of Tanner
always... to give me a lift out..
thanks
man ! ...
reached home..
took a quick bath.. and head off to town.. and.. I'm late.. by 45 minutes...
and lao mei
( Kitty )
was ...well.. she might be cursing and swearing.. * Muahahaaa * ... We got
ourselves a drink and a pizza @ Breeks Ngee Ann City...
Damn.. my hair
sucks !
Our Hawaiian Pizza
!
My fav. Hazelnut
Latte ! nice layers !
I
missed
talking to Kitty a lot.. it's been so so long.. since we've sat down and
have a nice heart to heart chat.. oh man.. missed the good old days... when
we'll hang out after lessons... confide my thoughts to her about my current
sh*ts.. .. * sigh * ... and hear her sh*ts @ work... * haha * ...
gave some goody
advice to my on Langkawi.. and some other beach destinations... * Oh well *
.. Bintan
anyone... ?
* Booooo * ..... and she commented about my a little sissy
bag.. * muahahaa *..
Got my second
installments of my precious from EvOn.. It's just 2 hide posters.. one hide
Museum one.. and a hide album poster.. and.. it's so so sweet of her.. to
bring me back some pamphlets of the upcoming hide film gig event.. 3 pieces
in fact ! ... * wowo hooo * .. so nice of her ....
thanx EvOn
!
Actually..
should be
meeting Kelly @ 6pm... but.. she's feeling lazy cause it's been raining and
she finds it pointless to come out just for dinner... so... *
Bo Liao Loh
* ... ( No
More ) ... ( tanner Must be echoing these 3 words now ) * hee
hee * ...
oh well... I think
coming Saturday... ops... should talk about that... with regards to
Murphy's
law... so..
* ssshhhhiiiiiiii * ... anyway.. hope Saturday doesn't rain lah
... * Muahahaha * ..
then... Lao Mei
and I took the train back.. and we're both.. sleepy... met Wonder Candle on
the way... as we laughed @ our good old days.. or rather.. that cycling
event with Vincent, Wonder Dog ( Ian ) , Wonder Cat ( Kitty ), Wonder Candle
and myself...
wowo.. nostalgia..
it's so fun.. as we recalled where we cycled to in the middle of the night..
and Wonder Candle's bicycle's chain always went off... and how Wonder Dog's
toilet roll came to good use... Missed them so much ... another trip
soon ?... * Muahahhahaa *
Took 99 back..
Walking along Clementi Interchange certainly brings me tons of memories..
cause Aries always took the bus home with me... it's always that particular
stretch.. that makes me.. thinks so much... oh well... *
Bo Liao Loh
*...
enjoyed my bus ride home.. cause it's been quite some time I've taken one
home..
Yeah.. although I
might have nothing... but @ least I still have
fond memories
with me...
On the Bus...
Bright Lights...
Point Block where
that girl used to stay ....
So... Would I be
activate for another dose of guard duty tomorrow ?...
who cares....
* foul words in my mind *...
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dULUGE
eVIDENCE
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9th March 2004
. BBQ On The Feb 14th
.
Listening To
: Oblivion Dust -
Trust
Time On Planet -
21.45
Hey pals.. the
photos of the Feb 14th BBQ are out.. please go to the photographs section
and access them by the drop down bar @ the top
left
hand corner..
Nice day !
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eVIDENCE
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9th March 2004
. Endless Rain
.
Listening To
: FAKE? -
Something About You
Time On Planet
Itchy - 19.11
Yester night was
extremely cooling.. " Man ~ .. I felt as if I'm in Tokyo...
the weather's so cool ! ".. my sister said that to me.. and I was
like... " yeah "... I wish I'm smack in the middle of Shinjuku right now as
I type.. Missed the hospitality of the locals there.. and of course.. my
beloved Japanese Curry Rice and the Ramen ! ...
There has always
been talks of me and my sister returning to Tokyo coming May / June...
and I hasn't really spoken to her about our homecoming... besides..
... I just thought
that it would be
unwise
to save up for the Tokyo trip ... in view of getting ready for a possibility
of an overseas education... well.. we'll see about that ..
and.. yester
night.. I've caught "
Lost In Translation
".. It wasn't a good show as That Girl kind of refused to catch
it.. saying that the ratings aren't too good.. and I thought.. a Bill Murray
movie can't be wrong. ...
and thing that
attracts me about that show is... It's entirely shot in Kyoto and Tokyo !
... oh man !... as I'm mesmerized by the breathtaking aerial views of
Tokyo... and realized how much I missed Tokyo.. The bright lights... the street side
eating houses... road markings.. the ever crowded markets ...
and anyway... My
sister got a copy for me... and man... it's ... not up to my expectations..
it's just another.. semi plot-less movie.. * heh * ... I want
to know the ending .. I want to know the ending ! ...
Sad to say.. I'm
on M.C today.. not that I wanted to.. but.. I'd no choice.. I was waken up @
6am.. just to find my whole body itchy .. and had.. to see the doc... so..
went to my GP.. but.. he's not on shift..
went back home..
popped in 2 Atarax 10mg pills.. and it instantly knocked me straight into my
dreams.. when I woke up.. the rashes are gone.. so are the itchiness... some
are left but.. well.. it's no longer itchy.. and the 2 pills made me sleepy
for the whole damn day ! ...
Tomorrow...
Royston and I duty... * Hurray *.. and I'm so happy... so....
happy... yes.. I am indeed.. very very happy... can you sense
my excitement?.. damn ! ...
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8th March 2004
. Do You Remember ?
.
Listening To
: Sammi Cheung -
Kuai Le Bu Kuai Le
Time On Planet -
17.44
Together forever
again ?
a few years ago..
this very date ....
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6th March 2004
. Fragments Of A Broken
Past
.
Listening To
: Yngwie Malmsteen
Time On Planet
Shitty - 23.57
16.00
- What a Saturday... went off to work.. help SP Lim and Colonel Quek do a bit of the
ah.. RAG shits... oh boy.. there's a lot.. beyond my expectations... so..
anyway... help them for around 45 minutes.. anyway.. it's a good form of
exercising..
and.. went back to
the admin area and went for my
run.
and.. I'm delighted with myself.. it's my first step today of keeping myself
fit.. oh well .. just don't want to waste any time sitting around in the
office staring at the blank air..
Sat @ Boon Lay MRT
while waiting for that stupid Kelly to come.. well..
actually I wanted to go home and change but.. never mind.. she's coming over
anyway ... so I waited for her ...
... while waiting
for her.. I was approached my this girl who wanted to sell me her discount
coupons for the Danish Ice cream.. and 30% of the earnings would be donated
to charity. and.. why not.. 5 dollars.. in the name of charity ..
Recorded her songs
on MD.. and she's lying on my bed reading magazines... *heh* ... so..
I'm bored.. So.. just writing these down.. * heh * ... damn.. my
Migraine's
back to visit me again.. wondered when would be the day.. that I could break
free from it.. bored.. tomorrow's my guard duty again... if only I could be
excused.. but... no point... oh well ..... that's a
beautiful lie
my friend.. fuck the sentry ! ...
23.34
- just finish my
bath..
( afternoon ) so.. so
she still continued to read my magazine and that big head Ella
called me... saying that he's approaching my block inside Charles's car...
and so.. while Kelly went for her second serving of fag.. I went down to
have a short chat with them.. Ok.. " I wasn't doing anything okay....
"
: )
and we went off to
Causeway Point to catch " Big Fish " ... Kelly enjoyed the show very much...
while I suffered throughout.. We were just 4 rows ahead of the giant screen
... and with my Migraine.. I almost couldn't make it...
After the show..
We sat down and have a chat.. It was then I realized her pain.. her
burden... her problems.. and I realized that.. It's totally
impossible
to lead parallel lives with her.. the obligation of me caring for her
is too
great ...
almost an
impossible task of putting her aside and lead my own life.. and even as I
write.. I still smell her presence.. * gee * ..
no lah
.. I'm wearing the t shirt and shorts she wore just now.. * heh * ..
and It seems
that.. we're forever confused on where should we go from here... it's
always an endless question without any logical answers...
And I'm really
glad that she confide in me so many of her worries and thoughts... and she
should feel slightly better after pouring out her misery ... I'll pray for
her... I'm fucking worried about her... sigh~.. ...
So.. it's getting
late.. and I'm tired... tomorrow's my guard duty.. sigh... fuck the sentry !
...
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5th March 2004
. A Deadly Shot Of
Euphoria
.
Listening To
: Hanoi Rocks - A
Day Late, A Dollar Short
Time On Planet
Euphoria -
21.45
She makes me
pain.. whenever she crosses my desert of thoughts.. any explanation would be
futile as my broken heart couldn't contain all the endless sorrows she'd
left behind with me.. Inhaling all the fond memories, I had yet..
found a place to rest my body...
She won't take me
to the place I want to be.. where she used to bring me to nurse my wounds..
So many times I tried to break the concrete walls of illusions... and So
many times I've fallen from grace... would there ever be a day .. when I've
forgotten how to breathe .. forgotten my life... forgotten about...
Staring at the
scars of time you've given me... such a sight.. such a treasure.. that would
follow me wherever I go.. As I put our dead love to rest... another chapter
of my life slowly embraces me... as I broke into another burst of hysterical
laughter filled with sadness..
Sitting in the
evening sunlight.. serene and beautiful... as I tried to shake off the
haunting illusions of everlasting love... too many dreams were broken..
Won't you still want to chase the rainbows with me? ... please abuse my
distorted mind...
I should had
noticed it.. I had longed so much for your smile.. for a moment there... I
felt you crawling underneath my wrinkled skin... My wound had inevitably
started to open up once again.. and everything had frozen..
Fade away... Fade
away...
Dream away
..
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5th March 2004
. The Perils Of Rock N'
Roll Decadence
.
Listening To
: UFO - I'm A
Loser
Time On Planet "
Cheer Up " - 18.40
As every single minute
passed me by.. I'm getting older.. well.. I hate to grow up.. that's just too much
for me to take.. wondered why.. Do we really have to grow old.. ?
Every time I meet
up with my Primary, Secondary and Poly friends.. I would some how let my
thoughts run wild and visualize what would we become in 10 years down the
road..
Yuppies ? ... Job-less ?...
always in a buoyant mood every time we meet?..
or just depressed about our endless problems?.. Struggling to pay off the
bank Loan ? .. Married to the wrong wife?... Endless possibilities ...
And the funny
thing is that.. Time.. in fact.. travels @ different speed. .. When you'\re
having fun.. time files... and.. when you're in shits... time crawls.. and I remember
just yesterday.. I began life in DCC... and now.. almost one freaking
year had passed... and I'm ..still in a dazed..
but that doesn't
implies that I love being in the army.. .. Damn.. and In.. 10 long months..
( or a rather short period you might say.. ) .. I'll be a free man...
But Wait...
I still
have not
even secured the finance for my studies.. and man.. I should be a little
worried.. or rather.. Very worried now.. I better start doing my home
work.. and my portfolio for the URA is ... in a mess... haven't
consulted my lecturer about that ... * damn * ..
What if when I
ORDed and I'm still ... direction - less ... No Money... no Job.. nothing
in my pocket .. maybe I should consider what Isabella told me...
Be A Hermit
... no no no .. My parents were not the CEO of DBS
Bank...
The real world is
often cruel.. do we really meet someone as true as your friends you've made
in your secondary schools out there?... oh well ... maybe the
5
letter word
trust isn't the same word used in the past ...
and now.. it's the
5
words that matters.. "
Welcome To The
Real World
"
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4th March 2004
. Attack Of The Big
Heads!
.
Listening To
: Beyond - Love
Time On Planet
Resort - 16.49
Dear fellow
members of our Genting Jinx Gang...
Inc some
invited new members... As discussed, there would be an
up-coming outing
again ! ..
Some of the exotic locations suggested are being filtered out , such
as The Bali Bombing site... Meeting Indonesia's Megawati.. experiencing
Jakarta's riots.. and even Colonel Quek's live firing of the AK-47 @ some
woooo loooo Island..
So... here're some
references..
Langkawi
-
http://www.oocities.org/sg/headonsticks/travel.htm
Miri Island ? Phuket?
or
Langkawi?
AirAsia
-
http://www.airasia.com/general.php?p=pmain&l=en
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4th March 2004
. Can't Seem To See The
Signs
.
Listening To
: FAKE? - Cut
Time On Planet
Storm - 12.05
For the past few
days.. I've been messaging my dear
old friend,
Isabella.. and I'm a little worried about her. Her Boss has been giving her
tons of problems and.. she's just plain jaded now..
hope
I've managed to cheer her up a little ... * heh * ... Poor soul ..
Yesterdays' was
Xiao Ting
Tang's last
Duty Celebration.. which turns out to be a mini reunion of the ORDed
personals.. so happy to see Thomas, Charles and the same
airy
Alan ... had lotta
fun but.. could have been better if there's a four-some show.. * heh
*.. lots of water activities .. haven't had such fun for ages ! ...
And... sadly
I wasn't spared from being poured even though I was on my guard duty... but
still.. my pants managed to dry before my next shift .. * Phew * ...
Now.. I'm afraid of accumulating some
bad karma
*ahahahha
*.. so.. dudes..
No
Last duty / ORD
celebrations for me ah... anyway.. all of you guys would have left loh
.... * Muahhahaha *
My duty yesterday
seems to be pretty long.. very tired... and was totally drained @ 0410 hrs
.. courtesy of Mr. Du... " Don't be a Du Lah ! " ... haven't ran
this much for ages ...
Damn.. can't seem
to shake off my headache since yesterday... and for today.. I'll refrain
myself from taking another dose of Paracetamol .. hmmmm ... well.. I guess
eating too much of that stuffs isn't too good for my liver... Oh Well ...
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1st March 2004
. ise
.
Listening To
: FAKE? - Larva
Time On Planet -
20.47
Indian Demo Team !
In fact... I
realized that people.. are still very much fascinated by those mean flying
machines.. State of the Art war birds.. Those colourful flying displays
brings so much joy to the audience..
F - 111 In Action
!
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" Life's
like a dream
Sometimes I wonder when I'll be waking up "
29th February 2004
. Donations .. Anyone?
.
Listening To
: FAKE? - Lemon
Tune
Time On Planet
Fake - 20.50
Woke up @ 7.45..
Damn.. I set my alarm to 8.15. and.. *Duh*.. Called Vincent to see if he's
awake.. packed my shits.. in my NEW bag.. and damn.. I seems to had a
fetish
for bags these days.. got dressed and left home.. I was very lucky indeed...
not to get any
hangover
shits...
Reached Vin's void
deck.. and walked towards the bus stop and.. and.. I realized that I had
forgotten to bring something important.. the
tickets to
the Air Show.. *
feeling dumb
* .. so.. had to waste time to get it..
and we.. were
pretty late.. reached there about 11.45.. after all the long jams due to
security checks.. and we watched the first flying display of the 3
helicopters on the bus.. the minute we alighted from the bus.. we crossed
the road to the bay of the SAF ferry terminal.. to catch the flying
display..
It's the same old
moves.. same old planes..
except
for the F-111 which is here for the first time .. * ahhh * .. I'm only
looking forward to that one.. as I've seen all of the rest of the planes a
few years back.. but.. they're flying too far from the crowd.. so..
.. and
anyway..
I loved this
picture the most..
anticipated them to do this move so I got my cam ready and half pressed
my shuttle... and ladies and gentleman.. the India Demo Team .. but.. I
thought that the Read Arrows from the Brit were better.. and Even our very
own Black Knights might.. also.. be better ...
Me with an F-15E
crew...
Overall..
Aerospace 2004 is a
waste of time..
same old exhibits.. same old layout.. same old planes.. Dejavu?..
Definitely.. well.. my 5th show in ten years.. and the notable difference is
the absent of naval aircrafts from the aircraft carries... like the E2C and
the F/A -18.. all missing... and my beloved F-14 had gone missing since the
1994 show * BOOoo *
After the show..
Met EvOn to collect
my precious
and to
treat her the long overdue Fish N' Co. meal..
My Precious
- 1/ 6 hide guitar Model, Lemoned file. X Japan's last Live DVD .. 4 hide
guitar picks.. and FAKE?'s CD... Yeah.. and I still have 2 posters with
her... now.. as I'm
reflecting
upon EvOn's words.. I think.. I would stop.. or rather.. I
MUST
stop collecting hide's stuffs... cause.. It's pretty pointless to increase
my collections.. one day I might just put them up @ Ebay...
Inoran's Fan Club
Card and.. INORAN's PICK !!!!!!
and I'm fucking
broke.. spend too much this month.. and so.. coming March.. I'll be
restricting myself a lot... no more unnecessary spending... !
Donations
anyone
?
and so... My
happening weekend had officially ended.. Wait.. 3 more hours... * heh.. does
it really matters ? * ... back to work tomorrow...
. hIS
iNVINCIBLE
dULUGE
eVIDENCE
.
28th February 2004
. Alcohol In My Blood
again
.
Listening To
: -
Time On Planet -
Written on 29/2/4
"
Angel...
Don't be sorry... Don't worry ... This would happen anyway.. I Guess
... " Inoran - Monsoon Baby
Oh well... Had a
pretty lovely weekend... Went out with my poly gang on Saturday.. but I met
Nicole first @ Wisma 7pm... and I knew that she'll be.. late... and so..
playing smart.. me too.. left home around 15 - 20 minutes late.. and when
I'm on the bus.. she messaged me and said .. " Ops.. I'll be late "...
It's ok.. then she
said she'll be there @ 7.30.. so.. 7.30.. after 2 fags and endless counts of
washroom trips.. she's still nowhere... and she called to let me know that
she's on a cab and would reach in 15 minutes.. but.. till around 7.58.. then
the queen arrives... so.. I loitered for a whole 45 minutes.. *
gee. thought
I was smart enough
* but.. could had been smarter ...
So.. our dinner
was up in smoke cause we'll have to meet up with the rest of them.. Benny,
MingHui, FongMing, ZhiCang... It's been ages since we've met up.. so.. got
my project shop bag and had a quick bite @ the McDonalds.. and headed off to
Clarke Quay..
And.. I thought
that the N.E line was pretty cool.. and Yesterday's my
first ride.. hee hee..
As expected.. the rest of them were already there waiting for Nicole
and myself..
late again..
Sat down and have a couple of drinks @ the Crazy Elephant Bar.. but.. it's
so so diluted.. felt like drinking lime juice... *
sucks
*..
and so.. we move
on for Boat Quay.. and I can't remember that name of the bar... Was it
Chocolate Bar.?.... hmmm... I don't know what we drank but... I tell you..
It just taste so good!.. must find out more about that drink from M.H. ..
played some dice games.. and Dennis later joined us but.. Zhicang and I had
to leave early.. so.. * sob sob * .. I have to wake up early for the air show..
so.. March 27th?.. next outing.. or rather.. drinking...
again ... *
YeaH ! * ...
*
Back To My Drinking Days !
*
.. On the
windows on the bus 179... * Yeah * .. wonder if I'm in his list . ... .. ..
. hIS
iNVINCIBLE
dULUGE
eVIDENCE
.
27th February 2004
. Friday I'm In Love
.
Listening To
: The Cure -
Friday I'm in Love
Time On Planet
Ache - 20.29
Finally brought
back Izabella back from Swee Lee two days ago.. that cool Malay dude
helped me a lot by explaining the chim-mi-logy ( Profound ) terms..
and now .. it sounded so much better ! ... played on the 2003/4 Les Paul (
S$ 3500 ) and The Fender Jaguar as well ...
My comp was
recently infected with a worm spread via ICQ.. * damn * ... the feeling of
the whole shit was just like the victim of that Japanese movie..
The Ring... Been directed to a website.. and... got the worm...
Luckily.. there wasn't any phone calls the minute I entered the worm site
... * Since got it out of my system via the McAfee Scan ... *
*
My
apologies
to all those who had received the worm link from my ICQ.. *
Took 1/2 day as
usual after my duty... was much exhausted... The camp seems to be falling
apart ... had an unshakeable jinx... just couldn't shake it off.. it's been
close to 5
months of
curse.. and.. it's getting nowhere better ... and
today..
there's still some shi*ts happening.. well .. felt a little guilty for not
staying back to help out a bit... but .. ... but ... ..
It's always so
kind of NiCoLas to call @ home to let me know my duty dates.. and so *
Ha Ha
* got to know that I'll be doing on the 3rd March.. and that's
Doremon's last duty.. * Pre-planned with Sgt Lee? * .. don't know.. and
I'm gonna pour water on Doremon ! ... * Muahhaha * ...
Xiao Ting Tang
! ...
It's a Friday once
again... and my weekends should be pretty fun ! ...
. hIS
iNVINCIBLE
dULUGE
eVIDENCE
.
22nd February 2004
. Reason To Be Paranoid?
.
Listening To
:
Jimi Hendrix - Izabella
Time On Planet
Betrayal - 18.30
Woke up @ 9 plus..
a little too early ?...
ya..
maybe.. logged on line to find yahoo's geocities lagging again.. since
yesterday .. * damn * ... early afternoon.. went downstairs to buy myself
fags and a copy of New Paper. On the cover.. It's about underage smoking.. -
SheeSha !
... *
ahhahaha * ... " Teens find new way to puff "...
Personally .. I
find no "
Hoo - Ha "
about SheeSha.. It's nothing special except it's flavours... and I had never
expected SheeSha to make it to the front page... and the owner of Cafe Le
Caire ( the one I think I went there the last time ) said ...
" They've got to
be pretty dumb if they don't think it's smoking. Singaporeans are
well-traveled and many have tried smoking sheesha overseas.. They know what
it is. "
Cock...
does those under 18 years of age had the chance to go that far
overseas to try / discover seesha?.. Here I am.. ripe old 22 years old.. and
just got to know what the F is sheesha
months ago..
Maybe I'm just not knowledgeable enough.. as compared to those brainy 18
year old kids of today.. our Nintendo Generation..
And Dr.Loo from
SGH quoted that youngsters are deluding themselves if they think that
Sheesha is safe to smoke.. and there you go ... SheeSha... but.. I'll
rather stick to my usual fag ... just feels better ...
Next..
Cheating Spouse
... Hot hot topic ( attn LimSP ).. I read this ' a Women's story ' and
holy cow..
this women in her 30's had 3 boyfriends and a husband ! .. and she is just
fucking tactical.. which I won't go into it ... but.. for the top 10
cheating signs * drum roll please ... *
For the
Man
:
1) He talks w/ his
wife about their future together as a family.
2) He pays closer
attention to his wife.
3) He keeps
constant eye contact on his wife in public situations.
4) He has deep,
emotional talks w/ his wife.
5) He gets his
wife pregnant.
6) He spends more
' quality time ' with his wife.
7) He pretend he
is happy with his wife.
8) He spends less
time away from his wife.
9) He tells his
wife that he is satisfied with their relationship .
10) He does not
discuss his mistress with anyone.
and.... For the
ladies
:
1) She maintains
her daily routine..
2) She doesn't
change her physical look.
3) She always
return home @ the same time each day.
4) She wears that
' relationship ring ' all the time.
5) She does not
discuss the new partner all the time .
6) She becomes
more romantic with her husband.
7) She attends
fewer parties as to be seen less.
8) She has more
often with her husband.
9) She rekindles
romance with her husband.
10) She doesn't
act like anything ' different ' ...
and fuck..
I felt Dr
Bradley and
Dr Todd
's studies and research are nothing but a piece of shit.. What the FUCK
they're talking about.. I mean.. I felt that all of the top ten signs
mentioned above seem.. ( isn't some of this what normal loving couples
do?.. ) ..
I mean.. I won't
suspect if my wife's having an affair when she
maintains her
daily routine..
has more
often with her husband...
or becomes
more romantic with her husband..
so.. I should be suspecting when she wanted to make out with me more often
?... * Gosh * ...
and.. for my
wife... When I
got my wife pregnant..
should she be suspecting that I'm having some extra activates outside.. if
so.. The Private investigators must be making
BIG money..
and I should just ditch my plans for architecture and be a P.I instead...
and I suggest that you might also as well join me ... you see... just
make a trip down KK hospital and you should be able to clinch lotta deals..
.. maintain
eye contact might be suspicious too.. so .I should be making less eye
contact with her and she ended up saying that I'm being non attentive to her
talks...
ok ... picture
this.. one
day.. after a long day's work.. you go home to your wife.. stared into her
starry eyes.. " dear I loved you so much .. ".. and she slaps you in
the face... " you' must be having an affair.. ! " ...
and If I showed
less attention to my wife and she'll say I'm not
sensitive
enough to her needs... and If one day I've made enough money and decides
that I should shower her with a romantic getaway @ Barcelona.. and there ...
would she accuse me of fooling around?...
and relationship
isn't that
simple
anymore ( as compared to the older generation's concept of love ) ...
tactical methods of cheating.. having an friend as a
24 hr alibi
... is love nowadays all about cheating behind one another's back ?..
where's the love where everything seems so pure?... gone ... with the
wind...
and ... gone were
that days where man are usually the one who cheats.. Welcome to 2004..and
the ladies are catching up ... should I be paranoid ?.. beats me ...
In conclusion...
Don't get
married.. *
Muahahha * .. kidding.. in fact.. If you don't trust your significant
other.. simply get a fucking divorce .. get separated !.. what's love
w/ trust ?
and I believe that
Dr Bradley and Dr Todd are 2 losers... who might be still single @ the age
of 68 and a half ... * damn * .. demoralizing articles everyday ...
* damn.. how come
these day's I'm getting more long-winded?.. *
. hIS
iNVINCIBLE
dULUGE
eVIDENCE
.
21st February 2004
. I Missed My
Izabella
.
Listening To
:
nothing
Time On Planet -
23.55
Went to work on a
fine Saturday... or rather.. a LAZY one.. and boss was also not around...
only left Ah Hoong and myself.. " Mah Dun Go " took urgent leave... *
yeah * ... It's been so so many Saturdays that I've either on Off or duty
off... * heh * ... Late morning.. Lee Ec came in and... styled SP Lim and
Meow's hair using the Wax.. tried a little and it seems not bad.. smells
great too ! ...
Mr. Tea
a.k.a Ah Wu Drew this on my wrist.. and it's still on my hand now !
Took a short nap..
before heading down to city hall to get my guitar's parts.. I had to go to
Davis Guitar shop to get my pots and that chio daughter spoke to me
with a
HEAVY accent..
which makes my proper English sounds like some ah beng singish.. damn..
anyway.. bought the pots and walked all the away to Bras Brasah...
Passed the tone
pots to that dude and I examined my Izabella.. the knobs were out..
re-wired... the plastic covers were also out.. string- less.. seldom get to
see her clean look... touched her neck before I dashed off to meet Antonio
...
I tell you.. I
might just had my best dinner just now.. It's @ the cafe on the fifth floor
of Herren... ok.. there's this set meal promotion..
17.90 dollars...
so.. it consist of a main course.. soup.. a drink.. and a scoop of ice
cream..
so.. glancing
through the menu.. I saw the main course of different.. the cheapest was
around 8 ++ and the most expensive was like
14 ++
.. and ...
who in the right
frame of mind would choose the cheapest one knowing that he'll be paying a
flat rate for a set dinner..
and so.. We ordered that steak.. ( the most expensive one ).. plus.. the
most expensive soup.. ( 5++ ).. and a drink..
and mine was steak
- 14 - 15 ++ , Cafe Latte - 4 ++ , and the seafood soup 5 ++ plus ice cream
.. total up... 15+4+5 = 24 dollars.. which was ... * you know... * paying
17.90 for a 24 dollars worth of food... I giggled uncontrollably while
ordering.. which pretty much affected the waitress taking our order..
*
ai Yah
* ....
I think.. the set meal's serving was
less than
the full blast one lah ... lame... but.. the meal was great anyway
...
As usual.. aimless
walking.. I hate to shop during weekends.. damn.. and around evening... he
did something that.. made me ashamed of myself..
There's this old
man... who had difficulties walking to the washroom @ MacDonald Clementi..
he's carrying tons of load.. and he approached the lady sitting .. asked her
to keep an eye on his stuffs while he's away in the Gents... and that lady
just mumbled a bit and walked off to get her food...
and.. Antonio
offered to help.. walked a few steps and carried his two red plastic bags
and put them next to me.. I was laughing silently.. laughing of what?.. I'm
clueless... I thought he's so brave as he offered his help.. and he asked
me.. " You'll do the same right ?... " ... and I gave him an un convincing
" yes "... I'm too " pai seh " ( embarrassed ) to do that...
and fuck myself... I should be so ashamed of myself...
fuck me
! ... I'm such an ass. ..
. hIS
iNVINCIBLE
dULUGE
eVIDENCE
.
20th February 2004
. A Fag A Day.. Doesn't
Keeps Trouble Away
.
Listening To
:
Depeche Mode -Somebody
Time On Planet
Rest - 19.55
Just an ordinary
day.. got pretty high on fag early this morning @ camp... * Wonder Why *...
hasn't got so good for ages.. plus the Grass Jelly drink ... wowo.. walked
into r2 as I enjoyed the breeze... did a fast one and... * Thanks for the
ride man * ... super busy @ work..
. hIS
iNVINCIBLE
dULUGE
eVIDENCE
.
19th February 2004
. The Science Of Things
.
Listening To
:
Culture Club - time
Time On Planet
Love - 21.45
Falling in Love...
swallowed by sadness... Do We truly feel what our heart tells us to feel ..
or .. it's just
our brain
who's the true devil?.. beats me... Love could easily lift us up.. and could
destroy us in a flash ... It seems pretty obvious that someone's "
Wei Qin Shou Kun " ... ( troubled by the matters of the heart ) ...
. hIS
iNVINCIBLE
dULUGE
eVIDENCE
.
18th February 2004
. To KILL a DEAD Man
.
Listening To
:
Portishead - Numb
Time On Earth -
20.43
I was really
reflecting what Mah had told me yesterday... that I was one of the weird
species... not in a way that I stinks too much nor having a skill of GPMG.
... I think he's very true ... I'm a freaking
depressed
person.. always being tortured by my fabricated worries ( as Mah
Claims ) ...
Maybe I'm born
with it or maybe not... but I'm truly
sick of myself..
but.. I've always thought that when I left the army... My mood won't be as
distorted as now.. I don't know...
He says my life
right now... doesn't seems have any major concerns for me to worry about...
I have my own room.. decent level of education.. 3 meals a day... decent
guitar... internet.. bla bla bla...
And I'm not trying
to say I'm discontent with that level of luxury .. but .... ... how about my
finances for my studies?... relationship woe about Kelly?... but I think
I'll have to give it all up about the latter... and I totally felt kind of
frustrated and a little lost...
I've already been
worn down by Kelly for the past 2 months.. and today.. is the
day I should give it all up... I've said this too many times over the
years... but.. it all happens to be recurring... It's really affecting me a
lot these days...
well...
when
the shit hit the fan ... I guess I really needed some form of soul
searching... What do I really want in life?.. to be the shit that hits the
fan?... not really ... What.. can really give me a shot in the arm?...
and today I'm not
going to say ... "
Life Sucks !
" -
although it really IS ! ... and I really needed some time.. to get myself
back again.. How?.. I Don't know.. oh well ....
Mah asked me this
question... " If You were being able to choose who you'll be
reborn
as? " ... Initially.. I mentioned someone like slash.. but on second
thought... My answer would be the same as his... I.e " To be an improved
version of oneself " ... I would not want to be the same fucked up Zhengping
as I am today...
I want to be the
improved version of myself.. "
right here.. right
now "
Attitude?...
And In fact.. I
had so many things to do on my list.. but... I never seems to get it
started..
Fuck Myself
! Muahahahaa !
"And when I start
my new life I won't touch the ground,
I'm gonna try hard this time not to touch the ground." By The Sea - Suede
On another
different note altogether. ..
Going for the free
education @ Germany seems to be distant once again.. and after today's
report.. it's even .. more distant.. I think.. the one and only road to my
studies is... to get a loan.. and be a slave to the wage in future ( to re
pay the loan ) ... Get a decent job... chill out after work ... life of a
yuppie
... cool ! get married and maybe a child or two.. but HEY ... Isn't that
most of us wanted ?
I think... I've
spoken too much ...
Suddenly.. I felt
so fucking enlighten ...
. hIS
iNVINCIBLE
dULUGE
eVIDENCE
.
18th February 2004
. How Long Can U Live?
.
Listening To
:
Rage Against The Machines - Ppl of the Sun
Time On Planet
Sleep - 13.41
Check this out..
Robbie Williams Dying age @ 71 ..
wanna test yours ?
Check out this (
Click Me )
.. and I'll be gone @ 70 ... * heh *
. hIS
iNVINCIBLE
dULUGE
eVIDENCE
.
17th February 2004
. Repair Works
.
Listening To
:
Rage Against The Machines - testify
Time On Earth -
nil
took 1/2 day off
from work .. yeah.. just felt that I needed some kind of break from work..
although I still had some sh*ts @ work to clear..
damn ! .. Met Mah to send in my
guitar for service... my gui's aged a little.. it's a '96 piece.. the neck's
a little out of shape.. the tone pots rusted ... it's about time..
I was amazed..
cause that shop assistant could even tell me .. the exact day and year my
guitar was made.. and.. wow... and asked me a few questions like.. " Do you play
guitar everyday... "..
no... and that stupid Mah suan me.. KNN ...
and the funny thing is that dude even attempt to buy this guitar from me...
what for?.. He's like working in a shop full of gibby Les Paul lor. . *
?? *
walked around..
fag fag fag ... ate Burger King.. AGaiN ! * W.T.S * ... all because there's
this Burger King Staff giving out these discount coupons..
Mah
:
It's a Gift !
... and pretty much decides my dinner.. That girl that served me.. kind of gave me a very
warm feeling.. it's like.. some how felt like a long lost friend kind of
feel.. but anyway...
the counter girls
are .. putting up a " slave for the wage " face.. leading a mono
life... talked sh*ts about guitar gear and playing on the train and Mr..
Cheong smsed me if I wanted to meet @ the park underneath my block to chat
with my Primary school friends..
and " why not..
" it's been 1-2 months since I've last met them.. chatted about planes and
their engines and stuffs and the upcoming
AA'04
...
Now.. I missed
Izabella ( my guitar ) ... so much ! * aarrggg * ...
. hIS
iNVINCIBLE
dULUGE
eVIDENCE
.
15th February 2004
. Back To The Start
.
Listening To
:
James Brown - Funky Good Time
Time On Planet
Restart - 19.44
Mondays always
come too soon...
. hIS
iNVINCIBLE
dULUGE
eVIDENCE
.
15th February 2004
. Losers Club?
.
Listening To
:
David Tao - Fei Ji Chang De 10.30
Time On planet
sadness - 8.51 am
After sending the
girl off @ the MRT station @ 6 plus.. I went home to catch another 1.5 hours
of nap. When I reached the BBQ site.. all of the folks were.. already
there... I'm the last one...
overall... the BBQ
sh*t's quite fun.. but.. I don't know but till the end.. 4-5 dudes were
sitting in a row along the parapet wall and sang their hearts out.. and I
felt a little sad for a while.. just kind of bought my morale down.. It
seems that we're just a bunch of losers who had no where to go on
Valentine's Day .. and.. ended up having a BBQ...
The 3/4 of the BBQ
gang
Tasty !
eavesdropping on
SP Lim's Private conversation...
In Action !
This can of coke
exploded ... kept in the freezer compartment for too long..
. hIS
iNVINCIBLE
dULUGE
eVIDENCE
.
14th February 2004
. Season Of Love
.
Listening To
:
Gn'R - Don't Cry
Time On Planet
sadness - 19.31
February is always
associated with the
season of love..
and for those who're not attached.. it's always the season of
shitty loneliness..
and for yours truly; me.. ... I'm in the middle..
Woke up by the
unusual early sms by that fat boy.. asking me the 351st time if I'm
coming down to the BBQ later on.. and I said yes 352 times... went to
central to send my stuffs to Evon.. got the 2 packets of chocolates .. had a
fag.. and went home to pack the girl's present..
Met up with the
girl @ 1.30 JP after her work before she came over.. shopped around ..
bought some tidbits.. planned to catch Finding Nemo.. but in the end.. we
didn't.. but.. watched Gareth Gate's VCD instead.. and helped her transfer
her songs to her MD.
Today.. I kind of
felt a wall between the girl and myself.. don't know why... not meant to be
... so near yet so far ...
. hIS
iNVINCIBLE
dULUGE
eVIDENCE
.
13th February 2004
. Black Friday
.
Listening To
:
FAKE? - Someday
Time On Earth -
22.04
The girl called
and ask if I'm free to accompany her to catch the singer's showcase down
town yesterday evening.. but.. I had guard duty.. It's been so long since
I've heard her voice that was filled with enthusiasm and happiness... but..
still.. I'll be stuck in camp for duty...
Her request was
absurd and sigh... * Muahhaha * .. But.. she's feeling disappointed as the
shots she took with my camera did not turn out well.. I'm surprised.. she
used to own a Canon V2 last time.. maybe tomorrow...
time passed like
lightning yesterday.. and today... It was almost supersonic.. that Navy dude
came and did his voucher sh*ts early in the morning and I couldn't even
squeeze time to send in my riffle... and while entertaining that Navy
fellow.. I had to print Millions of sealing certs... well.. not really
millions... maybe thousands?... well...
Once I started
printing... I knew that my 1/2 day was instantly gone.. while the gang were
all stuck inside the explosive area.. I and ah Hoong stayed behind.. and.. I
print my labels non stop... Lunch was lousy... skipped it.. ate noodles
instead...
Around evening
Chee came into DCC inviting me for a fag which I just took minutes ago.. and
talked about how he made that coca colo loving alien do a " water parade "
... After drinking his can of... coke...
and while I was
fagging outside DCC .. sitting on that cheap plastic chair facing the parade
square.. and Finally I felt tranquility for the first time in 9 - 10 hours..
the view.. was almost lovely.. the clouds sliding across the dim skies..
birds chipping... enjoying my one and only fag courtesy of the SP
Lim.. peace...
printed a few more
hundred plus for the duty team.. and packed my sh*ts and call it a day...
almost dead...
. hIS
iNVINCIBLE
dULUGE
eVIDENCE
.
11th February 2004
. Nil
.
Listening To
:
Nil
Time On Earth -
Nil
took 1/2 day.. but
left camp pretty late.. met up with Mah and I've had some sh*ts to do in
town.. Got my hair cut @ my favourite salon but.. I was exactly happy about
the result.. I preferred a comb down.. but apparently... my hair these days
could... not stay down.. and.. Couldn't dye my hair and so.. the
layers looked...
flat...
damn !
but.. when I was
styling my hair @ the gents.. and thought... " ya.. pretty alright ... not
too bad.. "... and I told Mah that... " Ken Lloyd's Hair Style.. "... and he
said that he was more Ken Lloyd than me.. the hip shoes and that dropping
below waist line jeans that could just... drop any second...
Changed some
Japanese Yen for EvOn for the stuffs.. and shocked to know that... 1000 yen
= 16 Sing.. and... 1.5 years ago.. it's like 1000 Yen = 14 Sing.. sigh...
shopped around and bought the Rage Against The Machine's CD. Shopped
around.. got myself 2 books.. @ Times Suntec... and got her gift @ Top Shop
too...
. hIS
iNVINCIBLE
dULUGE
eVIDENCE
.
10th February 2004
. I'm Sorry Mah Mah ...
.
Listening To
:
FAKE? - Cut
Was it today?...
Ya.. I think it's today that Mah, SP Lim and Quek tagged team and laugh at
me about the plan of " Putting my face into hide's body "... hahaha..
very funny.. yeah.. maybe to satisfy you all..
I might do one that's making a fool of myself tomorrow..
* laugh @ myself * ... well.. if it turns you on * Muhahahah * ... but for
now..
It's our Mah !
Yeah.. horsie horsie horse horse... * Meeahheeaahhaa.... * so.. who's my
next victim ?.. Quek Quek ?...
" Sorry Mah Mah..
I never meant to hurt you ... I never meant to make you cry but tonight..
I'm cleaning up my closet.. "
Your
ORD gift
from me... You won't get offended right ?... In the name of fun...
. hIS
iNVINCIBLE
dULUGE
eVIDENCE
.
9th February 2004
. Another Idol In The
Making
.
Listening To
:
FAKE? - Static
Maybe... One day @
our very own Singapore Idol... ? Sp Lim would make it to the world stage ...
* Go Sp Go * .. !
* Muahahaa... *
No offense to anyone...
but.. SP LIm should represent PLAD or maybe Singapore.... ! Yeah !
Yeah... and my
stupid ulcer's still under my tongue.. and.. having a headache too ! ...
sucks !
. hIS
iNVINCIBLE
dULUGE
eVIDENCE
.
7th February 2004
. Sick Sick Sick
.
Listening To
:
KISS - Hard Luck Women
Arrgg ! ! !...
had a
terrible
ulcer since yesterday morning... and today.. it's nowhere better.. damn !
your fuck.
What swear word are you?
brought to you by
Quizilla
. hIS
iNVINCIBLE
dULUGE
eVIDENCE
.
6th February 2004
. Confession Of A
Fake? Star?
.
a holiday... Yes..
a holiday is exactly what I needed the most ... I needed to get out of this
mess.. and put my soul to rest.. and I'm thinking of having a short getaway
via the newly established budget airlines... $ 70++ dollars to Bangkok..
?... why not?.. but.. maybe not Bangkok... had been there twice...
and... yesterday..
while I'm surfing around... I found.. Inoran's Live Journal... and.. I
thought I was a prank... or some punk trying to
fake his identity..
but as I read on.. I think that... it might be his after all...
well.. I saw.. ken
Lloyd's.. Sugizo's.. Shinya's.. J's... and what they wrote down and their
content... pretty much convinced me that... they're themselves...
their first entry was like around 2002 June.. and they had not updated their
journal for a while... Inoran's latest was in December.. so.. are they real
?... anyone?...
http://www.livejournal.com/users/inoran/
http://www.livejournal.com/users/sugizo/
http://www.livejournal.com/users/j_onose/
http://www.livejournal.com/users/kenlloyd/
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5th February 2004
. She Bangs She Bangs
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Today.. I thought
I heard someone mentioned that American Idols audition.. yes..
that dude who did that Ricky Martin She Bangs. Personally.. I
think Ricky Martin is a gay.. oh.. back to topic.. anyway.. read from the
papers that .. that dude's called William Hung.. and he's got
fan site ( Click Me )
! ... gotta have a look ..
" She Bangs... she
bangs.. ".. and.. he banged out of American Idols Audition ...
have u seen his
vid yet?... well.. It's quite funny as that chap's hopeless.. BUT...
he took criticism
so well...
If I'm the
one who'd been told off by the forgotten and failed female singer.. and one
fat ass who badly needed liposuction.. and a foul mouthed shithead.. I would
surely lose my cool and curse them all to eternal hell ...
and I also thought
that William Hung's very ... very
brave..
I'm not sure
if
he's a distant relative of Ivan Chan but.. what he did during the auditions
was... very.. brave.. I won't do that for sure... and what he said what ...
truly commendable..
"I already gave my
best. I have no regrets at all."
wow.. what a
dude.. ! .. but but but... he still... resembles Ivan Chan ...
what a dude...
... !
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4th February 2004
. End Of Era
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Yes...
Finally...
the occupation is ( soon to be ) over.. finally... I can look forward
to better days... days of living in fear can now be written in the history
books... I need not fear of those weird shitty forecast now... just
keeping my fingers crossed that ... the news would be concrete soon ... I
thought that this victorious day might never come... the world.. might just
be a little better now...
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3rd February 2004
. Rest In Peace & Fly
Away
.
Do you still
remember those walks we took?... Do you still remember how the waves of the
oceans whispers their secrets to us?.. Do you still remember how we cheated
ourselves into believing love?... Do you still remember how we pushed back
the hands of the rusty clocks in my room?... Do you still remember the day
we watched the sun climb up the milky orange skies?.. Do you still remember
the moment we vowed never to lose our faith?... Do you still remember the
day?... Do you still remember the day when I first held your hand?.. Do you
still remember the day the flowers died?.. come and ... join the
massacre....
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1st February 2004
. So Ah ... ...
.
Well.. Just hope
that the things she said would come true...
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31st January 2004
. in The Spur Of The
Moment?
.
last day of the
month.. and I was bored to tears on a typical Saturday Afternoon... and the
gathering of my friends was cancelled ... so.. called up Antonio and asked
if he'd any program.. so ..caught Scary Movie 3 on VCD and left home to meet
him @ Holland Village...
Walked around and
settled on the famous Katong Laksa... Delicious.. even for someone like me
who don't take hot food... and ate two very very
ordinary
Roti Prata.. was was pretty much of a disappointment...
Had a fag session
with Yaohui later on and talked about some of our classmates... some
Married.. and some.. bla bla bla... It's weird that friends around my age
got married... and in fact... most of them kind of regret it...
Husband who're too
stoned or stingy... not enough communication between them... Husbands who
got married and had a child.. who had no sense of responsibility.. who could
even go missing for several nights without any shit...
and.. it's weird..
how did the girl agreed to get married while the couple was so un-compatible
in the 1st place?... Love's Blind... and now.. regrets...
Look @ the
Stars... Look how they shine for you ...
Click Me !
Isn't it amazing that this picture was actually taken underneath my
block?... isn't the stars all so clear ? ...
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30th January 2004
. Living Under The
Forlorn Skies
.
As I'm listening
to David Tao's "
Fei Ji Chang de
10.30 "..
I'm also overwhelmed by David Tao's kind of approach in his musical
styles... very...
sincere
in his lyrics... I wasn't even sure if the word sincere was appropriate..
it's just.. almost magical ..
I could almost
very well being able relate this particular song to myself.. and while
listening... those endless bittersweet memories virtually
swallowed
me ... It takes someone to be happy.. to write a cheerful song.. and It
also.. takes someone to feel heartbroken ... to have written a song like "
Fei Ji Chang de 10.30 "... I wondered.. how does David Tao
had felt @ that time ...
I've seen the MTV
a million times and the
mood
was there...
showed a couple in their happier times.. and towards the ending.. the lady
walked in one direction.. with a piece of chalk drawing a straight line
across the wall.. while the man.. walked in her direction.. with a white
chalk.. also.. drawing a
line
across the wall..
and although
they're both walking in the same path... but.. the lines they drew.. (
the parallel lines or rather...
parallel lives...
) would never ever be attached to one another... Maybe that's just a
beautiful illustration of ... "
You Yuan Wu Fen
" ... -
Not Fated.
some things.. are not just meant to be...
and surrendering
to fate.. isn't as simply as ABCs ... and if was as simple as that.. I
won't be in the shitty state I'm in now. .. and as discussed earlier on with Tann... a lady's mind.. are far more complicated than men's...
It seems that..
understanding them.. could be almost... impossible .. or it's just "
it isn't easy..
but It wasn't meant to be hard
"... but to
understand what's going on in her mind... ... ... it seems to be like
an experiment of stealing the bird's wing and attach them onto the
pigs... sounds illogical.. but.. it might just happen one day
..
and just today.. I
was a
little
frustrated with her.. and I just don't know what had went wrong... totally
clue-less... and the first thing on my mind was getting anesthetized
... just.. the next best thing ...
" Maybe baby
baby oh baby baby oh baby ... Is it that.. When we start to possess ( our
Love )... and we're going to start losing them soon ? ... The more I wanted
to give you ( Love ) .. The more you wanted to hide... Even true Love..
couldn't answer all the questions and all the doubt... " " Fei
Ji Chang de 10.30 ".
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30th January 2004
. So Long.. & Farewell
.
Yesterday did my
last guard duty of the month.. *gee*.. I wish I could say my
last duty of my National Service.. oh.. It rained the whole afternoon and
luckily the rain stopped when my shift started..
And I knew that my
duty would be extraordinary .. * heh * .. was super busy entertaining units
all over Singapore and many other dudes stayed back as well.. and
Brok - ko
lost it again .. came as no surprise ...
and how funny his
comments were when Spiderman, Brok - ko and Col. Quek and myself was discussing
the arrangements and the plans with OC. He's just making un constructive
suggestions... sigh.. " B.B.S.B
" ... * huh * ?? ... = Big Body Small
Brain ...
and I wouldn't
even survive my first shift w/o YingLin.. * gee * RPs are the King of
Sentry ... and the units came rushing ( like a typical ORCs rushing scene of
L.O.T.R. ) ... and those units were always scolding us..
till OC came to
" defend " us... In the
army ... rank shouts... silently...
anyway.. during my second shift.. had a mini discussion with OC.. it's just
some shit issues that I couldn't stomach it.. so ah .....
Morning was bad..
had to rush back home despite 2 person 'd ( in my dept ) reported sick in the morning.. I
couldn't stay to help the lads.. as I had to meet LiZhi And Jeff.. LiZhi was here for
a day's
stopover to NanJing.. and Jeff had specially traveled back to Singapore from
Johore. It's a rare meeting for all of us....
Had our lunch @
the Japanese restaurant @ CityLink ( the waitress was Fucked Up ... lousy
service ! ) ... and later on.. sat @ the Coffee Express @ Wisma...
and that cafe was
just
footsteps
away from my dear
Shinji Matsuo salon.. quite tempted to go.. moreover I was in a pretty upset
and foul mood.. so a haircut might
do me good..
and and and... my cock hair was out of shape already... but.. I've decided
to cut my hair the week after next ...
Asked a lot about
studying in Australia from LiZhi.. kind of got myself prepared a little bit
there...
and our
next meeting.. should be around ah ....
November
2004 ?.. by that time.... * hee hee hee * ...
and by 01.30 tomorrow.. LiZhi would be on a plane home ...
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27th January 2004
. The Tale Of The
Thousand Bullets
.
I was Jenson's
V-Com early on and... he's taking the detail one guards over to the
sentry... Tanner and GPMG.. and mid way into the journey... GPMG was firing
his unlimited rounds... which really... sort of irritated me a little...
and.. yeah.. certainly hope that Tanner would enjoy his day with the GPMG
... * Muahahhaaa * ..
Got this from
Kel's mail ..
" Ya... Oh Shit !
"
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26th January 2004
. It Doesn't Matter?
Damn Me
.
I hate raining
days... Only when I'm performing my guard duties... When It rains..
Mosquitoes will come... temperature will drop... so does my morale... and
yesterday... I killed like.. twenty something mosquitoes within .. err... 4
hours... and I dare not close my eyes to snatch a rest... and I kept my eyes
on the " Master Q " comic.. and feast my eyes on the absolutely beautiful
Step Song.. both publications are borrowed from Eric...
and... CNY was a
very much
ordinary
affair for me... nothing special... My soul's still feeling empty.. except
for the paranoid-ness of unable to finish the work @ PL... and that..
really freaked me out a little... I've been slacking for far too long... too
long ...
oh.. When you're
free... check out this page
www.windnwater88.com
and on
the left.. there's this KUA calculator for this Ba Zhai Feng Shui Reading..
It tell you the direction that I should be facing.. and some general tips...
( Atten - Charles ) and the Favorable Colours they calculated
for me was.. pretty accurate.. as those were my favourate colours ... * Gee
* ...
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24th January 2004
. Disposable Love
.
Yester night was a
little tough.. kept on having.. not really nightmares... but.. kept on
having dreams.. bad ones.. I think my dreams are kind of related to her..
I'm not too sure.. some things are just hard to let go.. especially
recurring dreams.. not as easy as one think ... and when I put on my
black " Twenty - Five " T-shirt when I'm off to work today.. smelled my
shirt for a while.. and.. the smell .. kind of reminds me of her again
... ( yes.. haven't washed my shirt for errr.... 2 weeks? - Last time I've
met her.. ) * Muhahahhaaa * ... well... male species....
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22nd January 2004
. In Time To Come
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Yeah ! ... Chinese
New Year ! ... Wonder what's in store for me ...
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21st January 2004
. Life's Like A Box Of
....
.
SHITS....
well.. kidding there... Actually.. after some soul searching... and the lame
conclusion is... Life.. is full of choices... like the legendary Tom Hanks
said in his Forest Gump Movie.. " Life.. is like a box of
chocolates...
" ... and in my very own context... I can choose to be happy.. and.. I can
also ... choose to remain sad... I can choose to be very contented with my
dear old life... and I.. can also grumble of my shits...
Ok.. re write..
Life's just like the 3 stuffs above... One hot.. one sour .. one bla bla bla..
and.. I don't know which one to take.. as simple as that .. muahhahaha... *
thanx Evon , Chris ... *
And.. I
sometimes.. just couldn't really figure which choice I should be making..
and I blame
it on my horoscope... Libra. I believe... Librans are famous for
their indecisiveness.. and.. I am a terrible victim of it.. and I wish I
could just make a decision and
get on with life...
but... easier said than done... Oh well...
Chinese New Year's
Eve... Gonna sleep late.. " Shou Shui " tonight.. Really hope that the
coming year would be better.. My " chapter "
back to normal
W/ problems resolved.. . Finances for studies... No more shits @ PL.
"
Happy Chinese New Year
"
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19th January 2004
. Isabella
.
Went down to
orchard to get my Project Shop bag with Mah and some other stuffs... Talked
crap a lot.. mostly about the tension between Chee Xiang, Jeremy and
himself.. and.. I was thinking about it.. It already very hard.. just to
find that special someone with the common attitude.. common dreams.. and a
common perspective of life and how things should be done..
Pretty tough isn't
it?... let alone finding another 4-5 such identical persons to play in
a band.. It\s very hard maintain a rock band.. each and each with different
commitments.. it's very hard.. and wondered how bands in the states did just
that ... the only reason I could think of is... they're pretty rich.. just
get themselves a house by the sea and stay together.. get their girlfriends
to stay in... a completely Full Time Job.. and TA TA... and look at us?
Jeremy, always
with his girlfriend.. Chee Xiang, Always thinking about the extremes and
spending time with girlfriend.. and ME?.. always not available to jam... I'm
just the passive part time player there.. if I were to jam in the near
future.. I also don't know what songs to play.. hmmm... a bit guilty... and
the stupid drum set ,.. I also did not fork out a single cent.. heh...
and the only good
thing that happened to me in the wake of all those shitty shits ... is
coincidently meeting Isabella. Mah and I was walking @ the second level of
Ngee Anm city.. and I seldom go the the second floor.. We're like walking in
one direction and mail was pretty empty @ that time..
So.. wasn't really
hard to miss each other.. and gee.. she looked so mature with her office
clothes... and me?.. some stupid kid with a stupid t shirt hanging around
the shopping complex looking for food.. had a minute's worth of catching up
and promised to meet up in the near future.. Mah's shocked that Isabella's 1
year my junior.. so ah~....
Gee.. I've been
talking so much today...
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19th January 2004
. Send Me Up The Milky
Way
.
Just that
day...16th Jan. Mah and I took the train back home.. and We're @ City Hall
Station.. We walked past this young lady.. It seems that she's just went
shopping after her work. Think she's about 25 plus ?. I accidentally
overheard.. " please don't do this to me " . and I instinctively knew
that... something's wrong with her relationship .. and tears rolled down
....
While the both of
us were standing @ the middle of the train cabin, I noticed that she's
sitting down there... the corner seat.. trying her best to hide her tears
but it's her red and teary eyes gave her away..
It kind of started
me thinking... poor girl she was.. and the same thing.. almost happened to
me last Sunday.. and
just how many
millions of hearts are broken everyday?... and maybe right now... someone's
hearts is already shattered... so.. " why start when you know it's going
to end "... is in fact ... a stupid question... and one sentence I
believe is.. " Love is blind "... there's no reason for
anything... and in the end.. we ended up hurt. Despite all the stupid
outcome it all might end... we would still give it our best shot... just why
? ...
so.. What's is
Love?
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18th January 2004
. Seeing Stars Yet?
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Beautiful hor
?...
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16th January 2004
. Another Day.
1/2 day work. Last
Minute Arrow. Damn.. left camp without me. Took my lunch. Took Tanner's
dad's ride out. Cab. Home. Rest. Slept. Train. Bugis. Walk. Fag. Talk.
Walked. Melvin. Walked. Arab Street. Ate. Mutabak. Full. Tired. Walked.
Cross Road. See Sha Cafe. Smoked. Drank. Smoke. Drank. Gossiped.
Laughed. Talked. Day dream. Tired. Smoked. Laugh. 2IC. Motorbike. Laugh.
Smoked. Gossiped. " ha ha ". Photographs. Hesitating. Confusion. Tired. Taxi
- Less. Walked. Walked. Tired. Ran. Bus-stop. Sat. Seats. Alighted. Fast
Walk. Walk. Endless Walking. Crossed road. Reached. Walked up the stairs.
Shouts. Smoky Room. Songs. TV. Egg White. Smoked. Songs. Red Eyes. SMS.
French Fries. Ate. Drank. " Bye Bye.. Happy Birthday ! " . Walked down the
stairs. Tired. " Lu Lu " sat. Next to road. Taxi - Less. Decided. Took Bus.
Tired. FAKE?. Alighted. Stopped. Cab. Home. Walked. Photograph. Stars.
Elevator. Bath. Good Night.
A Happy Man. Full
Of Drinks.
Cute Cat.
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15th January 2004
. Without You.. I'm
Nothing
.
Stuck in that
certain frame of time.. as her smoke slowly dances across the thin air above me.
Shivering in the cold as endless emotions overwhelmed me.. and I realized
that... this might just be the end. In fact.. the end had came too late..
too late ... warm tears carefully rolled down my cheeks whenever I tried to
swallow my grey past down my throat...
I played down on
optimism when the slightest ray of light shone through the holes in the
walls of hope.. I should have known better.. Things are just... not meant to be.. I've
broken my heart shaped box once too many till there's no room for any more cracks..
just another dose of heartache ... I wish... I wished ... I wished
for...
I've still got the
blues... so long.. for so long.. When would I ever find peace within my
soul...Still running away from the distorted truth.. ... Insecurity..
she never fail to find a friend in me as she accompanied me through all
those lonely nights without you by my side... it just seems to be endless...
As I lay in the
arms of the deepest night... I could almost feel you once again.. but It
seems that.. everything surrounding me seems to be so bleak.. I'm so
scared... I had to lie to myself all over again.. just .. to make me .. feel
better... Maybe.. it's just time to say good bye...
I had to chose the
path full of uncertainties.. hoping to find another me in left in me ... The
image of hope hanging loosely by the spider's web started to appear..
almost vivid.. almost un-real.. Maybe.. it's just the illusions making fun
of me... or maybe.. I'm just lying to myself again.. until the truth finally
dawn...
I'm all broken
into pieces... stab right into my heart and free my misery for once...
losing my sanity to the beautiful darkness... drenched in my very own salty
tears... will you still love me days before ... I had to live with the
ghost our our buried love...
and It would be so
so wonderful for me to runaway for my dreams ... but.. without you... I'm
nothing .. Just why can't you be me just for a minute and you'll know that
... I've never wanted the stars.. and all I've wanted is ....
I guessed...
nothing would be able to repair my jaded faith .. It all seems to be a joke
too hard for me to take.. I cry silently all alone.. whispering all my
secret prayers to the angels above... maybe hoping for an answer or
two... It's just the way... Just the way we are... queer . ... For a day..
just hold my hand and take me to the world of dreams...
...and dear
life... show me what I could have experienced... and maybe tomorrow... we'll
find our way back home ... but now... I feel like a bug.. No time machine
could ever bring me close to your heart... I'm twisted.. I'm broken... any
Sunday morning aren't gonna make me feel better... not any better...
Please sing me
lullaby like you used to sing me... Whisper all the fantasies that you've
been hiding from the view of the world.. and for a while.. I thought that
love might be a burden too heavy for me.. fighting against all those
lukewarm responds from you... I might be right... I had to lose... you again
...
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14th January 2004
. You're My Everglow
.
"
Say you'll be my own
my everglow that shines like stolen bits of glitter
You're shining out into deeper blue moments
Shining out and dissolving me until I break apart
Shining out and
make me break apart
Shining out until I break apart
I'm breaking...
" FAKE ?
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11th January 2004
. Do I Love You ?...
.
Falling asleep
seems to be an uphill task.. drenched by my very own tears.. soon.. all my
hopes will fade together with the dusk .. sometimes... I just felt that it's
all an illusion.. " This thing called love can't be trusted. " ... you've
left me.. high and dry yet again ..
I wanted to lost
in my dreams.. just to escape from reality for a while.. but I can't.. I
wish I could fall into the eternal sleep ... and I could never worry about a
thing again...
" This thing
called love can't be trusted. " ... " This thing called love can't be
trusted. " ..."
This thing called
love can't be trusted.
" ..." This thing called love can't be trusted. " ..." This thing called
love can't be trusted. " ..." This thing called love can't be trusted. "
..." This thing called love can't be trusted. " .." This thing called love
can't be trusted. " ..." This thing called love can't be trusted. " ......
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8th January 2004
. Sad Movie
.
and... Good
Boy ... might just be the worst films I've ever seen.. What's it about?
.. okay.. There's this
alien
dog.. yes.. alien
dog .. he's sent to earth on a
mission...
that's to see how earth dogs are being treated and had to report them to the
queen of planet dogs... so... the rest... you could just imagine... after
all... * heh *.. It makes me wonder how many stars would those people @ 8
Days would give for the show?.. 2 / 5 stars?... for me?... I'll give
-1 / 5
stars.. they owned me a
star ...
but.. if you're a dog lover... it should be a 3 stars for you ...
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7th January 2004
. Whisper Broken
Symphonies
.
Received a heart
warming call form Li Zhi who is in Brisbane right now... life's not too good
for him too.. he told me the big jump from Polytechnic to University ...
sigh.. and was pretty much a " culture shock " for him ... really glad that
I'll be able to see him soon for his stop-over in Singapore...
and my Shinji
Matsuo hair was officially gone...
anyway.. Yaohui
came and used my comp for a while before that chap gave up and we went down
to do lung exercise instead.. and we started to instruct each other what to
do.. upon our deaths.. who to call.. what music to play ... bla bla bla...
imminent .. Sometimes.. I just couldn't help it but to think that
death might just be the best option to free my misery ...
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6th January 2004
. Into The Sun
.
My days in camp
are not getting anywhere better.. with pals like Doremon and Mah
ORD-ing.. My
respected
Sgt Roberts ending his tour of duty.. and TSM leaving soon too and I'll be
even more insecure when TSM leaves.. ... plus.. a
mad man
in camp.. life's definitely not anywhere good.... I hate changes..
especially.. into Uncertainties ... into the
dark
...
Did my Sentry Duty
with Mr. Eric.. he's one cool dude... When I was sleeping at the guard rest
room this morning.. and Meow told me.. " Eh.. long time never see you
duty rest liaoz.. "... and.. ya.. it's about time I take a decent
break from
work ...
Actually I should
be meeting up with her now.. but.. she's had a bad bad sore throat.. and
changed it to tomorrow...which is not a bad thing after all... When I
reached home.. did my usual stuffs...
played guitar...
and then... " Ring ring... "..
No.. Not the L.O.T.
Ring.. it's my hand phone.. and she's sitting in the middle of the fence
on whether if she should meet me after her work.. but firstly.. since I've
already
bathed and
settled down to enjoy my evening and secondly.. she's feeling sick.. and
politely suggested that we should go only tomorrow...
and now.. I'm
enjoying my time all alone.. ( my parents are out ).. so.. my speakers are
blasting
FAKE? 's Everglow ! .. real LOUD ! .. * Yeah * ...
And Yes ! .. I
think I had the Shinji Matsuo haircut jinx.. whenever I go for my cut.. and
two - three weeks later... Kanna caught... makes no sense @ all..
but.. I still love my hair cut.. * muahahha * .. today just pure unlucky
that I met into him... sigh...
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4th January 2004
. @ Last A Decent Amp
.
Yesterday.. Mah
and Chee Xiang accompanied me to the guitar shop @ Peninsula Malaysia
shopping complex... I've hated the shop owner from the very first time I
entered the shop.. a very.. Fucked up owner.. he just thought that he's the
King.. but whatever...
And finally.. my
dream set up is finally completed.. Gibby Les Paul W/ Seymour Duncan Alnico
pro 2 pickups - Jim Dunlop 95q Wah Pedal - Marshall Drive Master Pedal - and
lastly.. my latest gear.. the 15 Watts Marshall Amp. and.. this dream set up
took me...
8 years ?
... and this little 15 Watts 's sound.. totally blew me away ! ...
And here I
predict..
that this week won't be a
smooth
flowing one.. although I do not foresee addition "
arrows
" but my
own Documentation side is in a total mess... I'm just too occupied with
doping those additional arrows and... left with no time to do mine...
Doomed....
and.. my
expenses
had shot up this month.. starting with my all time high Taxi fare of
$39.10
( something which I still can't stomach ).. and my Amp @ $199.. and cab fare
at $13.. cab fare from camp to my house today $3 ... and.. those hide
stuffs EvOn bought for me...
hide Museum poster...
Mini guitar model.. and.. the last live DVD... and if only I had additional
funds... I would had bought that FAKE? 's CD ... it's cheap !
All I hope for...
is for the coming week to be as fast as lightning... so that I could enjoy my
precious weekend again.. and have to get past 2 guard duties again... so
meaningless...
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2nd January 2004
. The Road.. Is Still
Long
.
Long Way To Go ...
...
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31/1st
Dec/Jan
2003/4
. Feeling FAKE?..
Nah ...
.
31st Dec ... New
Year's Eve.. Well..
actually
I could had gone for work today... cause .. hmmm... I thought that.. I'm
wasting my 1/2 day's OFF for this morning.. cause.. I've did
nothing
actually.. slept till 11am.. downloaded MORE songs... Played my one and only
X-Box game.. read the papers... and downloaded
more...
songs... and waited for Kelly's call...
And today.. I've
downloaded more
FAKE? 's
song.. and I thought that... they rocks ! ... especially on their someday
PV. and oh my...
Inoran's
still looking so cool... He's the Japanese Version of
Izzy Stradlin'
of Gn'R... same attitude.. same... class ...
It's like.. If..
there's a day when the sky came falling upon them.. and.. They.. still won't
give the
slightest damn...
and... I thought that's really cool ... real cool ..
FAKE? -
Inoran and Ken Lloyd
My precious time
was
elegantly wasted
till around.. hmm... 5? and I took the train down to Toa Payoh.. I don't
know why.. walking along the streets of Toa Payoh..
saddens me..
It's just full of memories there.. and It's been a year since I've been
there...
Kelly ordered some
kind of Icy thingy... Mango flavored.. and it tastes pretty good... $2.80
per bowl.. and actually while the lady was preparing for this thing... I was
only expecting a
cup..
and when she place the bowl @ the counter.. I was a ... little shocked..
*heh*
"
Yellow
Man Beside The
Yellow
Tiles "
Later on.. we went
over to City Hall.. just to do some shopping cause she said that she
would like to get some new clothes.. and went to Suntec... and I was
actually quite shock.. not to find any
hide
/ X-Japan
CDs... inside Tower Records.. how can that be ! ... but @ least .. I've
found Inoran's and Sugizo's CD... but.. how can they miss out
hide's
CD ?...
we did not really
stayed @ Suntec for long cause we had to rush to East Coast... Kelly's
company had a small chalet over.. well .. felt a little
awkward..
cause.. 1) I don't know anyone of them 2) we were late and they had already
finished eating.. 3) I felt like a small kid over there.. cause most of them
are working adults... and me? .. just some late comer who's Very Hungry and
started... BBQ-ing...
Lucky shot of the
kids throwing those sparkling sticks into the sea..
Oh man..
they were a wild bunch !.. kept blowing the whistle and what so ever
stuffs... so loud.. that I almost went deaf... and I spend
the very first
minute of
2004 biting on my 3/4 done beef steak ... and.. * Smile * ... " Happy New
Year to you too ! " ... but I'm totally grateful for her manager's
hospitality..
she's a really nice person ... and she asked Kelly .. " Your Boyfriend ah ?
" ....
Towards the end...
as they're playing ..well.. not exactly playing lah.. just everyone
take turns to say their N.Y wishes and thoughts.. and.. it's totally eerr....
boring... and I said.. " I wish everyone to be happy ... " and that's
.. ... .... ..
And in a moment of
pure stupidity... I suggested to Play " Zhong Ji Mee Mah.. ".. and I
thought the punishment was only drinking liquor... but.. someone suggest
something like.. kissing on someone's cheek... and.. I smell a conspiracy...
but.. lucky... I .. did not kanna.. and after they played 2 - 3
rounds.. we had to leave... *
the great escape
* .. one of the punishment I saw was... to
dance
on the chair for 5
seconds.. and Hell.. No way I'm going to do
that in
front of a crowd...
and we took an
endless stroll along East Coast and...walked some distance before reaching
the main road.. sat down for a while and took a cab to her place.. and back
to mine...
East Coast area -
Tampines - Jurong West ... totally cost + midnight charge ... $39.10 .. I
could have brought myself 2 CDS ... well ... well ..... Well. ... ...
..
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31st December 2003
. The Final Act.. Time
For Curtain Call ...
.
Curtain Call
Oh man ! ..
how time files..
and just to contradict myself a little bit.. and.. here's another
Flashback
from a copy of 8
Days Magazine..
again...
Come this time of the year, a common refrain you'll hear us, " Ahhh..
how time files... " Well, Whoever said that is an idiot.
Birds
fly,
Superman
flies. Some white guy's pretty fly. But Time - like pigs - does not fly.
Time is Time.
It's here all the time. It's not going anywhere..
" ...
Fragments Of My Past
so.. what does
that imply.. I'm a
50% idiot..
anyway... this has been a pretty bad year.. There's the sinking our our Navy
Ship,
Sars,
Another war against Iraq, endless jinx @ work, Maids being abused, fellow
citizens arguing about if
that milk powder increases their kid's IQ, increasing employment,
endless terrorism threats, my Mum's fallen sick... ..
Into a Car crash, ... I've been
looking back @ my past year's entries for a while and then.. stopped .. maybe
some things are just too painful for me to recall..
in a nutshell..
It's been a rollercoaster ride this year... so & so... what's good in
store for me next year ?...
Simple...
my ORD ! and that's when I'll be a free man once again.. Oh ya right...
that'll be when I've seen all of my friends ORD... before I do.. *heh* .. so
ah..
Long
way still ..
This year, 2003,
I went on my first trip with my friends.. 8 of them ! .. actually.. the
first trip I went
without
a family member was to Bangkok with Yaohui...one year ago.. * Hee * ..
suffered during those endless guard duties with various personals.. had my
first ever expensive haircut.. bought a brand new specs *
specs * ...
hee hee...
Having to assemble @ the parade square with those thermometer
sticking out of our mouths... re-united with Chee Xiang for those
jamming sessions...
catching the movie " city of god " with Shiyun.. A new Handphone from
Dad.. Bid
farewell to
LiZhi who's since left for Australia for his studies.. Being posted into
another department... bought my first digital camera.. and some stuffs that
I would
never
want to remember
again...
Blue Skies Ahead? ( Not Really )
So.. what's my new
year's
resolution
?... well .. hope I'm not too greedy.. just the 7 wishes above... yeah...
I'll be a happy man ... and well.. thinking back.. I've realized that.. I've
spend a lot of money this year.. hmmm.. not something good actually... I
should be saving up for my studies... sigh.. well.. there's always next
year ... I guess ...
so.. how long must
all this shits continue.. I'm already
sick
of getting
disillusioned... I'm starting ..
no..
correction.. I should be saying " I'm hating the Army since Day one " ..
and...
it seems that
there's
nothing else
left to be complained about.. it's simply meaning-less now... Oh
Well.... life goes on... with or without serving National Service.. so .. I
shall just resign to the hands of reality...
Suffer In Silence...
I still remember what Warrent Seah told us.. ." In the Army... No one can
make you happy.. " .. how true that is... ..
Silent Prayers
Next year.. I
planned to sell my soul to Rock And Roll..
Indulge in Music.. and
hopefully.. I'm able to play in next year's Yamaha Band Alert junk with Chee
Xiangz , Jerm and Mah.. and they're going to ORD soon.. and would have more
time experimenting different music arrangements.. and me.. would have to
force myself
"
to feel contented to listen to my music on my way to work everyday " ...
sounds sad?... you bet ...
and next year.. I
hope I'll be able to settle my
finances for my studies as well.. and I'm..
actually prepared to stay in Singapore and be a slave to the wage if.. I say
IF.. my finances couldn't make it.. sounds sad?...
you bet...
so.. it's really
make it or break
it..
simple... and I .. don't really believing leaving for Australia
@
an ripe old age of 29 1/4 to study after saving those tuition fees.. I'll be
too old when I come back to Singapore.. .. and till then..
Pigs
might be able to fly loh...
Let me think..
So.. what's in for me next year... my
ORD
date.. Ok ok.. I'm stopping it... Ok..
Japan Trip..
I'm keeping my fingers... and Toes ! crossed that Sis would be making a trip
to Japan again.. and I could just tag along.. and the estimated month for
that wish to happen ? ... April - May.. that's when the flowers bloom...
and so many hide
fans out there would be wishing that they're able to visit
hide
Museum... hee hee... all the best !
Stolen Colours
I think.. I've..
like.. lost the colours in my life.. couldn't really help it.. WAIT... it's
a new year ahead.. I must be feeling very happy... Yes.. I'm
brainwashing
myself now... yes.. Mr. LZP is freaking happy now.. just like the way
Gollum dances at the edge after biting Frodo's Finger.. * Yeah *.. *
yeah *... and that's going to be my last lie I've told for this year... 2003
... And maybe I'll let you know when I've made my first lie for 2004 ...
Peace Feeling Numb
Won't it be
absolutely wonderful to be
numb..
indifference to the surroundings.. You won't even feel the joy... the
sorrow.. everything.. and yes.. pain.. disappointment.. all.. would be
gone... all gone ...
BUT
WAIT...
it's a new
year ahead..
I must be feeling very happy... Yes.. I'm brainwashing myself again now...
yes.. Mr. LZP is freaking happy now.. *
my
preciouszzzzzzzzz
*... * Waaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! *...
One % more
one percent
more...
Goods and Service tax..
one percent.. and I was getting myself an Guitar amp.. well.. next year..
hmm... actually.. a few days away.. and it'll cost me another one percent...
maybe I'm influenced by Kelly.. cause she's getting her contact lenses
before the year ends..
and I actually
kind of persuaded her to get them next year because of some reasons... and
now.. I'm thinking.. about my amp.. so... one percent of a 150 ++ = $1.50 ?
... so.. is 5% considered to be a lot ... or it's
just
a small
percentage.. ? hmmm.... well.. let's consider.. one percent... is also
money... so ah ... ... ..
Akan Datang
( Coming soon )
So ah.. New Year
Day.. once again.. What would
you be doing later?..
once again in the arms of your loved ones.. or just prefer a chat and coffee
session with your close buddies?.. party for the whole night @ the Centro
party?... Performing
guard duty
? ... Chill out and get high ?... or.. stuck in front of your monitor..
surfing around... whatever may be... Merry New Year to anyone reading all my
junk... so.. what would I be doing later ?.... .... *
Wwwhhheeeeeee
* .. make a guess... .... .... ......
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29th December 2003
. The Truth About
The Missing Spoon
.
Suddenly... I
realized that my Mojo for guitar playing is... suddenly back again...
I haven't been touching Izabella ( the beauty below ) .. for
around.. 1 month plus ?... and gee... I think it's really because my guitar
amp's screwed up now.. gotta get a new one ! ....
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28th December 2003
. Aftermath.. Hell..
Destroy...
.
Hmm.. tomorrow
would be ... the last week of this year and the first week of next.. woke up
super late this morning.. and.. played games and downloaded songs.. It's
been so wonderful having an faster Internet connection ( my StarHub / SCV )
.. and better still .. a brand new X- Box that comes with the promotion..
and *wowoooo *... that's life...
A faster Internet
connection means that I would be able to sample songs that I would have
never want to buy their CDs.. band like.. Velvet Underground, The Strokes..
Primal Scream... bla bla bla.. and more sings from Inoran and
Sugizo.. and
more Placebo's vidz !.. and *wowoooo *... that's life...
Now.. I just hope
that my X Box would be " modified " to play those cheaper game titles.. so
that I could play the LOTR - R.O.T.K game..
Just yesterday
night.. Kelly rang me up and told me that her specs was .. Still over @
Nanyang .. and.. I've decided to ring the shop up.. and I ask ... " did
anyone there seen my friends' brown coloured rectangle specs?.. "... and she
replied yes.. and I said.. " Can you pass that pair of specs over to CaiYing..
If she's still working there... "...
"..Ya
she's still working there and ... I'm CaiYing...
" she replied.. .... * ahahaa *... and I broke into laughter.. she must be
puzzled..
That day @ work..
MSG George walked into DCC and asked.. " whose cars are that? ".. and I do
not have the slightest clue... and he was definitely not pleased with my answer
obviously.. and he said.. " don't know.. don't know.. I think one day if the
aliens
come.. you all also don't know...
".. how right he was..
There's one
hiding
in his department
and.. he's still in the dark..
And yes.. you were
right.. Ken was also featured in the Movie poster... see him?.. Yes?..
no?... just look closer...
See.... *
heh *... wondered how much he got for that copyright thingy ... He's..
EVERYWHERE ! .... aarrggg .... !
Hey.. look what
I've found ! ... That's a shot taken from Quentin Tarantino's Kill Bill
Volume 2.. and that's someone by the name of Gordon Liu ... some kong fu
star?... can't wait for Volume 2 ! ... and next week should be pretty
enjoyable for me.. * woohhhhooo..... * ... !
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27th December 2003
. Runaway For My Dreams
.
and and And.. I
still have not recovered from the " hang-over " from X'Mas eve's partying
and yesterday's guard duty.. and I.. am indeed.. totally exhausted.. My eyes
are feeling sore.. and tired legs.. and.. I actually took cab home from my
camp.. and my sentry partner also " cannot take it " already.. *
muhahhaa * .. so .. we just shared cab home..
So..I reached home
around 10 plus. Met Kelly @ JP. 1.30.. and when we reached there for lunch..
we had to walk past Nanyang Optics.. and Kelly was stopped by the contact
lens promoter.. and listen to the lady promoting the contact lens.. and..
just in case you're wondering.. it's not CaiYing.. and I've got a feeling
she's no longer working @ that outlet any more.. cause I've seen more new
faces..
Shopped around..
well actually.. there's nothing much at JP. hee hee.. bought her drink and
her Spring Roll... and.. actually we planned to catch a show @ town area..
but.. those title playing isn't that... interesting... so we headed home
instead...
This was what she
did to my Lego Figure which was originally just sitting on top of my guitar
Amp. So we just downloaded a few songs or... actually a lot.. some 40 odd
songs ?!.. and then chilled out a bit.. talked about some stuffs...
and... and .....
Yes.. and that's
Kelly's unfinished Spring Roll.. hahaha.. actually.. wanted to send
her back till JP.. but.. I had that migraine attack again... sigh ... so..
she insist that the furthest I could go.. is the bus stop downstairs..
so.. my day had pretty much ended.. not a bad day in fact.. just that I'm
too tired.... ...
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25th December 2003
. Merry X'Mas.. The War
Is Over
.
Yes.. It's finally
X'mas again.. and.. Yes Yes.. one more year and my Army stint would be
over.. * yeah... * .... just woke up.. well not really.. Slept and
woke up.. and slept just now..
Yesterday..
Scheduled to meet the boys @ 6pm.. and I met Mr. Charles @ 5.30 Jurong East.
I left home pretty late.. anticipating that.. Mr. Charles.. would also be
late.. ( he's really late.. ) ... When I reached JP, - as my transit - Link
Card is with SP Lim- I had to get myself a Single Trip Ticket .. and what..
I gave up after 2 attempts.. and I felt stupid.. so ... had to spend
$6 plus to take a cab to J.E. ...
The Freaking tix
Machine
Figuring how to
buy that ticket with Charles.. and we moved on.. and.. Saw Ka Wai Ge ! ... *
Muhahaha * .. he's also late ah ... So.. We.. the trio late comers
reached Town @ 6.45.. Dining @ Hans was something - Ordinary... so.. I
suggest.. yes.. suggest... that we should dine @ N.Y.D.C ... and the sissy
waiter was pretty pissed at us.. cause we wanted to sit together ( 7 of us
).. and ... hmm... anyway.. we " surrendered " and hunt for food else
where.. It's not as easy as it sounds.. There were people everywhere..
sickening !
So.. the jinx gang
ended up @ the Japanese Restaurant.. So.. Mah and I got our silent wish
granted.. we got to eat .. Japaness Curry rice.. It was my first time
drinking Sake too.. it's... not too good actually... * hee hee * .
I've tried the
Japanese Curry rice with Shiyun before and thought wasn't that up to
standard.. so.. I prepared myself for the.. worse... but.. when the food
came.. Took a little .. and ... WOWOW.. it's tasty.. hmmm... maybe ... (
when you're hungry... the worst food would be super tasty... )
Marcus later
joined us. loitered around for a few minutes and we.. already at Orchard
Train station.. or rather.. within a few steps.. chose to walk down one
stop.. the Sommerset Station.. and..
I question his
logic..
cause.. there's really.. a sea of crowd..
Walking to the
next station.. was practically a.. torture.. so.. we ended being " pushed "
to our destination.. Took a train down to City Hall.. and collected our
ticket for the show.. " The Lord Of The Ring - Return Of the King "..
Great... Finally.. It's going to be over.. The Ring can finally be destroyed
.. so.. I've been waited 3 years.. Our show time was 23.40.. so.. the Show
started exactly @ 12 midnight.. and some twits shouted in the theater... "
Merry Christmas ! "... Class A twit ..
So.. " Merry
Christmas.. The War is over.. ".. The war is finally ending
tonight .. Yeah ! It.. was.. really really a very good show !.. loved every
minute of it !
And and ... Marcus
was.. Still around after the show.. ( he did not join us - he'd caught the
R.O.T.K before.. ).. took the cab down to Lau Pa Sat.. ate a little..
Chicken Rice and Satay..
and.. walked down
to the water sculpture area underneath Capital Tower.. Finally found
peace as there's no one there except a security guard who chatted
with us... talked about shits.. and.. it's about him.. again.. the
talk of PLAD.. as always..
It was there..
when I finally got a chance to discover the " shutter Speed " on my camera..
a year after I've bought my camera.. * muahahah * .. I'm pleased of my
camera's new found capability.. Sitting under the giant
skyscrapers.. ( well.. not exactly tall to be called a skyscraper anyway...
).. was.. just like hobbits.. under those giant mutant-ed elephants.. Ops..
The R.O.T.K syndrome..
" Let it snow..
Let it snow... Let it snow.. ."
Oh.. It's snowing
outside... Okay.. it's raining.. hmm... Guard Duty again.. tomorrow..
sigh... I'm so tired ! tomorrow..
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24th December 2003
. Are Dreams Meant To Be
Sweet ?
.
11.33 Am
Had a very very
good sleep yesterday.. cause the headache pills made me sleepy a little...
and .. Welcome to 2003 X Mas eve !.. Normally.. When I've woke up, I
would have erased all my dreams naturally...
but today.. or
rather just now.. I've dreamt of Aries.. It was so
vivid
and ... so freaking real. I could
almost
feel her touch. She came to my house.. gave me something and spoke a
little.. but.. I fell asleep when she left.. and couldn't manage to get her
contacts..
Take care Aries..
May the best of all the things come your way ...
Meeting the dudes
later.. watching the R.O.T.K later.. I hope to chill out @ Centro 360..
but.. I think they're not into the idea... sigh.. I wanted to dine @ N.Y.D.C
.. and... they're not.. into the idea also.. hmmm... but first.. would
be meeting Vincent later @ 2 .. going to JP for his Bday ...
Anyway.. had Some
choco cake from McCafe... and saw CaiYing while walking past... and just
gave her a smile... oh.. The choco cake was not that bad.. but for the
latte.. hmmm... not very good lah ...
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22nd December 2003
. Ordinary Day
.
Oh my god.. I'm
going to work tomorrow !.. felt so so good after that long break.. and
tomorrow.. It's all going back to square one ... again.. but but but..
it's ok.. let's see... 23 - back to work.. 24 - Xmas eve.. so.. would be
taking 1/2 day... and and.. 26.. guard duty ! ...
aaarrrggg
!
Woke up late
morning.. and Colonel Quek messaged me.. " I'm discharging today.. " ..
and.. wow... that was close... I almost made an fruit-less trip to the NUH
... so.. I stayed @ home playing games.. and updating my hide Museum Web
page...
Late afternoon..
went to JP with Yaohui.. Almost bought another red loop.. heh.. but I think
it's only a matter of time ... cause I really liked that.. I've
forgotten
to get Kelly's Xmas gift.. sigh... Walked past the new McCafe.. hmm... I did
not even notice it.. it seems like another Delifrance.. .. CaiYing was not
there today... I think we both De-synchronize to each other.. *
muahahah *. ... I bought the Kill Bill Soundtrack and David Tao's live... I
tell you.. The soundtrack
ROCKS !
Later on.. Yaohui
went to pick up his cousin.. He's only 4 - 5 years old.. I think he's so
pitiful .. staying at the childcare centre.. When I walked in the Child Care
center.. There's so many other young toddlers.. So of them smile @ me and
maybe thought I was here to play with them.. * wowow *.. so Cute ! ..
* ZzzZzzZzzzzzzz *
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21st December 2003
. Who The F*ck Is King
Khan ?
.
" huh ?... What
King Khan? "... You might ask.. well..
Please
allow me to explain.. Mr. Shah Rukh Khan... our Bollywood god which recently
appeared in our copy of 8 days, ladies and gentlemen...and do..
also allow me do a
flash back ... this's something extracted from a copy of 8 days weeks
ago ( City Guide section ) it says.. "
Shah Rukh Khan
Live in Singapore!
Be bowled over by the Bollywood extravaganza, Featuring Shah Rukh Khan and
other
well known celebrities
such as Rani Mukerjee, Saif Ali Lhan and Priyanka Chopra ( Miss World ) ...
Tix : $ 31 - $ 501.
"
ohhh ... let me
know if you knew any one of the
well known celebrities
mentioned
above and who's Priyanka Chopra ( Miss World ).. miss world?... year 1946??
... anyway....
First of all.. my
two cents worth of thoughts... I feel that that Bollywood chap must have
cast a
spell on
the organizers. Why?.. look at the ticket price.. $
501
dollars?...
I would
rather get myself a " Rolling Stones " ticket rather than to see some Indian
chap dancing around
like a
monkey like no
tomorrow... or.. maybe that's a pretty
unfair statement..
I am no Indian.. I'm not into Bollywood !.. I am not into clowns that like
to chase one another around the trunks of the tress...
Or Maybe .. Indian
exports nowadays are ..doing much better than those in the states.. Look at
Duran Duran..
Which I felt that They ( Duran Duran ) certainly had
much
credibility over
that Indian chap.. and the ticket price for the Duran Duran concert is like
$ 70 - $151.. $151
and $ 501
... $151 for
Legends...
way back from the early 80's... as compared to $ 501 for a clown...
My mum told me
that she read in the papers that those Indian nationals workers working in
Singapore had threw in all their monthly pay.,. just to catch that clown in
action... so.. Mr. Shah Rukh Khan also cast spells on those poor workers?...
Or Mr.Shah Rukh Khan remind them of their father back in India?
And If ... You're
a fan of Mr. Shah Rukh Khan...
Get a life..
I
did not mean to be rude or disrespectful there..
but.. after reading that article in the recent issue of 8 days.. certainly
makes me want to lose all respect of that Bollywood chap.
Mr.Shah Rukh Khan
claims that he wore Tag Heuer watches.. ok. after reading it.. I suspect if
Mr. Shah Rukh Khan had bought over the
stall
of that pasa
malam imitation watch stall.. but.. after some thoughts... I think..
no..
I'm sure I'm
absolutely
WRONG ! ...
I am talking about some Bollywood legend.. a "
world famous
"
legend .. who command up to $501 a ticket for his clown tricks ! .. and
further more... the 8 days article also reported that he went for that "
face to face " interview in that Ngee Ann City Tag heuer boutique.. ( he 's
the spokesman for that brand ).. and so... his watch isn't from
any stupid imitation pasa malam stall after all...
So now.. I'm sure
consumers all over had lost it faith in Tag Heuer.. fancy getting some
international well known Bollywood stars to be a spokesman for their
label.. where's Tiger Woods?.. Or some famous Formula 1 drivers?.. all
quitted
Tag Heuer as a spokesman in disbelieved that they'd appointed someone of
that calibre ? ...
Next.. I carried
on reading the arrogant Bollywood star's interview.. and.. I felt like
giving him one tight slap !
8 Days
: What do you
think of people calling you one of Asia's top 10 sexist man ?
Shah Rukh Khan
: There should only be one sexy man in Asia, and that should be me...
PUKE !!!
...
8 Days
: Who's' the
biggest Stud: you, or Tom Cruise ?
Shah Rukh Khan
: Honestly,
you shouldn't mention my name in the same breath as theirs, They still have
a lot to learn. They're very good @ acting, but I'm better looking !
ZP
: ... oh god... get a life.. You doesn't make anyone horny ! ... I'm sure
you make all the girls puke ! ... maybe you only attracts someone of
your own race.. but look at Tom Cruise.. he definitely attracts girls of all
race..... heh...
Take a look @ him
! clown
...
8 Days
: Indian girls are
gorgeous. What do you think of Singaporean Girls?
Shah Rukh Khan
: Equally
gorgeous. Especially their nose. I love their noses - I think they're very
pretty, lovely. I think I look a little Singaporean...
ZP
: Well... Mr. Bollywood.. get a life... Indian girls with un flattering
waist line ... you call sexy !? duh !.. So what.. You're only here in
Singapore for a
few
days and you look say like a Singaporean?.. more like a Singapore Bangalashi
worker..
8 Days
: Who's your
successor to your throne?
Shah Rukh Khan
:
Nobody. There's nobody...
ZP
: Wait.. you mean you have a throne?!
burger king
throne ah?..
8 Days
: No one can fill
your shoes?
Shah Rukh Khan
: My 6 year
old son can !... but that's 20 years from now..
ZP
: .. I pity your son..
And what
Shah Rukh Khan's
view of
moving to Hollywood .. and he said... " better to rule in India than to
serve in Hollywood "... and I said..
Finally..
you're getting wise...you won't make it big in Hollywood... maybe the
best you can fare in Hollywood is to appear in a
20 seconds cameo...
or.. an extra in a porn movie who couldn't even get into any action
because of his increasing
pot belly
? " please lah deh ! " ....
... and good...
good.. stay
put in India
or rather.. contain in India.. and accompany your leggy beauties
there and run around those stupid trees....
hmmm... isn't
you the one
who spoke bad about Tom Cruise ? ..who's the stud now ?.. ...
one look I can
tell that he's faking it with the guitar... with some stupid fire works ...
" Pui ! "... Poser ! If you don't know anything about guitar and act as if
you're Jimi Hendrix's reborn... I take that as an insult to the
instrument....
so... $501 a
ticket ... anyone ?... I'll rather pay $50 for the
Moscow Circus...
P.S. At the bottom
of the 8 days article, there's this note : "
Shah Rukh Khan's
latest
movie Kal Ho Naa is screening at Bedok cinema. " ... so... so ...
Bedok cinema...
not orchard .. what an international superstar ! .....
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19th December 2003
. Death Is The Next Best
Option
.
I am breaking down
again... I've ran out of tears... Let me know the meaning of my life...
please... I beg you ... I beg you .. please...
" A Chemist who
can extract from his heart's element, compassion, respect, longing,
patience, regret, surprise and forgiveness and compound them into one can
create that atom which is called love ... " Kablil Gibram.
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18th December 2003
. Knocking On Heaven's
Door
.
I missed work
today.. caught a slight flu last night I guess.. so.. ended up taking a good
rest @ home ... I was SMSing YeowHeng while waiting in the queue to see the
doctor.. and.. he'd
ORDed
now.. and chatted about our paths to take... he's feeling lost .. well..
it's all about the
money
..
I don't know
what.. that I suddenly thought of
Breeks Restaurant
@ Wisma..
well.. it's no longer there no more.. the last time when I went with Kelly..
It's already being sealed up for renovations.. and the "old"
Breeks are being relocated to Ngee Ann City.. I loved the decor of the old
restaurant.. it's hip and cool..
And moreover.. hee
hee.. I was a waiter @ Breeks Wisma years ago.. straight after my O Levels..
Xiu Qing and I went for our.. " walk In interview " and.. hee hee.. got the
job !.. XiuQing chose to work @ the Marina outlet while I preferred the one
@ Wisma.
I
missed
my 2 managers,
Joel
mdm and
Jenn
mdm. They really had patience with me and basically.. there were nice
people.. Joel mdm was usually the fierce one.. while Jenn mdm was the
kind one.. there's also a mdm Lin, whom guided me through my first day. she
still drop me an email some time.. there was also a girl.. I couldn't
remember her name.. which .. surprising ended up as my course mate @ SP..
small world ?.. hee..
Breeks Wisma held
tons
of memories for
me.. I would always like to have my meals there now and then... even though
my mentors, Joel and Jenn, had long resigned.. Of all of the meals sessions
held there.. the most memorable one is.. of course.. my
first meal
there as a
customer
and.. not a waiter.. that's when I got my first pay.
It was a
dinner..
with YeowHeng, HuiTing, Isabella and myself.. I still have that receipt with
me.. ( wait.. I'll check out the date.. ) .. oh... it's oh.. 07/05/99.
ages ago.. we were seated @ table B13 which is directly outside the
kitchen's window... then the chefs saw me.. they seems kind of surprised...
and .. of course... gave me
extra
servings.. * hee
hee * ..
I was surfing the
net for a picture of Breeks Wisma but.. it's
futile..
sigh ... I should have taken tons of it should I know It would be
relocated...
and..
Tokyo
is another place I missed a lot.. *
Boooooo ! !
... *.. ok ok.. I know I've said that a million times but.. I
was at
Jeff's site... it's like a PhotoBlog site
and It was fabulous ! He's staying at
Yokosuka
( same town as hide Musuem and the town hide was born ) and wowow ! ..
he had those very very interesting pictures I'll share just
3
with you...
Oh.. anyway.. just
to share his
quote
first.. " Every life has a story. That is what I love so much about
photography.
Each time I photograph a person I am freezing a moment in time. Each
photo can speak so much to me. The old saying that a picture is worth a
thousand words really is true.
Often I end up
looking at a photo and many obtuse thoughts can flow through my mind. "
...
and now.. his
pictures with his own words..
Cheerleaders - Kurihama - Young friends having a good time. Will they
still be in contact with each other 30 years from now?
Jump in, the water is fine - Kurihama - 50 or 60 years from now, will
this guy remember doing this...maybe, maybe not. Will I remember it ?..Yes.
Girl in yukata on beach - Kurihama - What is going through her mind? Is
she thinking of a boyfriend, school, friends...?
"Almost like
the smell of an old love letter. The perfume has faded. The scent is faint,
but all it takes is one with and a flood of memories come rushing back to
bury
me in an
avalanche
of nostalgia.
" Jeff
I think those
pictures and his comments there should be able to
boast the sales
of digital cameras around.. * Muahahahhaaa * ...
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17th December 2003
. Getting... Hysteria ! .
Tanner
ah... you and Alien got.. "
moa(4) qi(4)
- minds thinking alike " ah?... Can strike the same pose behind us also....
* muahahhahaaaa *... I suddenly saw this picture and I almost instantly
broke into hysteria laughter ! .. maybe... some things really fated
ah... if you notice.. from the left.. Ah nan, Charles,
Tanner, Me, Alien.. all kanna charged.. suay picture ! ...
hmmm... did Charles kanna charged in his BMT days too...? or just kanna
something bad... can't remember.. * muahahaaa * ... doesn't matter.. he ORD
loh.... heh ...
Oh... the Genting
Pictures / Plad Chalet Pictures are out on my page now.. click on the small
box above to view...
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16th December 2003
. Sayonara Old Boss
.
Saddam Hussein was
finally
caught. @
least something to" justify " for the war .. @ least he's caught.. Osama's
next... My opinion, Mr. Hussein should NOT be executed.. he should be
tortured
slowly day
by day.. and.. just let him suffer and then.. die in PAIN ! hmmm... why am I
saying all these?.. * muahahahaa * ...
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13th December 2003
. Forever hide
.
Happy Birthday
Hideto Matsumoto. You may had gone to a far away place.. but.. we'll
never
forget what you've did for us. If only you're still with us...
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13th December 2003
. All That Seems Full..
Is Actually Empty
.
I was really
thinking pretty hard just now... and just realized that.. How time files...
I've realized that my camp's had been in shit for the last 3 months or so...
3 long
months..
day after day.. week after week.. and month after month.. so many things had
changed.. heard friends making plans for their
future...
friends scouting and scouting for a digital camera. People going for BMT
re-course. People.. ORD - ing... and me?..
still
a twit in DCC.
I know that
there're going to be more changes in my camp and I must admit I'm too
indifference
for any major revolutions. I think I simply don't really want to care much..
sometimes... I think it just doesn't really matter... and I seriously
doubt
that DCC's gonna change much..
Maybe I'm too
depressed after working
long
hours till late evenings at work ( Wed, Thurs )..and I reach home.. take my
bath.. and then... sleep.. next morning... the cycle repeats... Seriously
speaking... I wonder what's wrong... either we're not competent enough or...
it's plain
bad luck...
I don't know..
Egg White and Wan
had ORDed.. so had Charles, Mito and Thomas.. and soon... Mah, Tanner, Nick,
CQ and so and so.. would ORD too.. who's left?.. only a handful of us ... I
really felt that the atmosphere in camp.. had became real cold.. Gone were
the days where I walked into the guard room and say.. "
Eh.. Dan Bai
"...
Remember the
question I asked so long ago.. " when's the last time you did something for
the first time? " ... Well.. I did something for the
first time
yesterday... I was simply exhausted from my work and I was terribly looking
forward very much to my 1/2 day off yesterday fight after my duty and the
sad part is that...
only Eric's
present. I felt obligated to to cancel my Off to stay back with him. Feeling
so so so tired and
frustrated..
I asked who's not doing anything and
still
stayed inside DCC... I
chased
my colleagues ( who's not doing anything ) out of DCC for the very first
time...
Early morning..
and I saw so many people
all over the place..
Reading their newspaper, chatting with others.. making a hell of noise...
and that really irritated Eric and myself.. here we are..
trying
to concentrate on
our work and find the missing stuffs and people and crowding around me doing
nothing but polluting the fucking office with their noise..
No choice.. had to
chase them out.. and within
seconds..
there're only 5 person including me in the office as compared to almost 10 -
13 person moments ago.. and suddenly.. I
thought of
Teo Chee Tat... I am afraid of " becoming " more like him... I felt a little
bad as I might have
offended Nick..
I don't mean it...
Afternoon.. I
overheard
that
person
saying to his new team members.. " Next time.. If you key ( the Smis System
) wrongly.. you all would have to take 2 " ( 2 duty offs burn ).. that made
me laugh.. the pot calling the kettle black? ...
heh.. If that's
the case.. I would strongly recommend him to burn 10 duty offs next time ..
for all the
stupid
mistakes in keying
he'd made. I hated him a lot.. always creates things for me to do.. all due
to his own error and all he really need to do is.. say.. " sorry leh..
sorry leh Zp.. " .. and.. " oh.. Thank you thank you.. ".. shake
his ass... and all is solved ... and me .. I feel like giving him one tight
slap... have to solve all his stuffs while he's
scot free.
... that's life?... Maybe..
I've mentioned
ages ago that
I would refrain
from talking anything from my Camp.. but.. maybe I'm too worked up. ... I
just can't stomach it..
I'm really
wondering if next year would be better... seriously.. I think.. It might
just become worse.. as I would foresee much more changes... Sgt Lee
yesterday was telling me about the plan he was coming up with that'll change
the system in running the camp totally..
He asked for my
opinion but my reply to him was totally un - constructive.. and said I was
too disillusioned at work..
I think that pissed him off a little and I apologized.. but.. I'm serious...
I think it might be futile .. No doubting his Sgt Lee's idea but.. maybe I'm
just too pessimistic.. ... okay.. enough of camp.
Actually .. I'm
very glad that I took off today... break from all the shits in camp. Slept
till 10 am and felt I could have slept more.. felt real relaxed and happy..
watched
Kill Bill
on DVD for the second time and still find it so interesting.. can't wait for
volume 2! and played CM ( Championship Manager ) season 03 - 04 for the
whole afternoon and watched Down With Love on VCD. Not a bad show after
all.. but I felt that the plot's just too typical... overall.. not a bad
show.. and returned to play the CM till late evening...
Now.. I feel like
killing anyone with a Katana and see his blood "spraying" out all over
the place... with the ' ppphhheeesssssssss " shound.. WOWOOO .... sounds so
sadistic and fun!
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12th December 2003
. Dead
.
I'm blind. I'm
sad. I'm broken. I'm exhausted. I'm disillusioned. I'm a
pig.
I'm tired. I'm numb. I'm closing my ears. I feel pain. I'm lame. I'm weak. I
bleed. I shed tears. I hate hate. I'm gone. I'm here. I'm a twit. I said "
thank you ". I hated him. I adore her. I hated her. I respect him. I'm
having an headache. I want to be free. I want to be
free.
I'm among the broken clouds. I'm the fallen leaf. I'm a broken dream. I do
not make sense. I'm lazy. I'm jaded. I'm saying " Good Bye ". I'm full of
empty faith. I'm fading away into the dusk. I'm ...
dead...
I'm... Me ...
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6th December 2003
. Into My Jaded Heart
.
I've lost my
interest in everything...
I've been Blog -
hopping and I've seen people ( Singaporeans ) studying abroad writing as far as
U.S.A. I don't know but... right now... I would want to throw everything
away.. and jet off to Down Under.. and study the things I like instead of
leading such a regimental life in the army. Maybe one day... You might just
see me writing... " hey... It's snowing in Australia... " ... ok... ok... I
know Australia
don't...
snow... or can see me bitching about life in Australia... or how the people
are getting more racist ...
Anyway.. saw
Caiying @ her shop.. but didn't went in... While taking the train to City
Hall... the thought of getting my motorbike license and a second hand Vespa
resurfaced
again..
Let's see... the lessons would cost me around 300 plus ??.. the the bike
itself?.. errr... 3000 plus?... COE?... hmmm....
I think... I'm
contradicting myself again... think should just forget about the whole
idea... I think... It's just a little too
expensive
considering that I might leave Singapore January 2005... and ... I'll be
only riding the bike for
less than a year...
so ah ....
It depends... I
might delay my departure date for a year... we'll see what happens...
If the thought of
getting a motorbike crossed my mind a year ago.. I might be zipping around
in my red hot Vespa
now..
regrets.. speaking of regrets... I'm totally upset about this
regret
is that ... I could have joined that URA competition regarding public spaces
months ago... now... the results are already out... sigh.. if only I knew
about the competition earlier... regrets regrets... .. suan le ...
just too bad...
Going to stay up
late again today... going online to research on the cost and stuffs about my
university and the accommodations and the... study loans...
Going in to J.B
tomorrow.. hope to get some DVDs and some decent X Box games.. and maybe get
a haircut... * Wwwheeeeeeeeeeeee * ....
" The name of God
in vain.. You pushed me I'm insane.. "
X- Japan's Drain
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5th December 2003
. Everything's That's
Broken Made Sense
.
There's this quote
by Mah MH that seems to stick inside my head and I really felt that it made
tons of sense... "
Ai Yah... what she
/ he say is just like smelly farts ... smell smell a bit and suan le ..(forget
about what he / she just said )... " ... meaning ... like an empty promises
or someone's talking rubbish again.. and not take it to heart.... cool..
here you go.. words of wisdom again ...
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4th December 2003
. Gentlemen.. Please
Start Laughing
.
I've just watched
my first episode of Achar , the channel 5 sitcom. I had to gather all
my courage to catch it cause I know that sitcoms produced by Media Corp
does... sucked most of the time (
Except
the early seasons of P.C.K and Under One Roof ) .... and .... as
expected Achar was... lame... and totally
unfunny
!
Personally.. I do
not find it funny at all... and I wondered why are those canned laughter
being played on and on... must the audience be
prompt
when they
should be
laughing?... or they knew that their jokes wasn't even funny that.... they
had to do the Canned Laughter thing to
make it
look funny when it obviously wasn't so..
ok.. picture
this.. " son.. I'm getting old... I might just die with out hugging my
own grandchildren.... * Canned Laughter * ".... hahahahahhaa......
And Yes... what's so funny?.... go on~ ... go... and die.. so be it ! .. by
all means ! ....
Or maybe the next
episode might just show Steph walking along the road... *
Canned laughter
* ... ha ha ha... The audience at home laughs after hearing the canned
laughter... ha ha
ha...
and Ok..." what's so funny? " I Asked.... he might just reply...
" Well.. I
thought it's
supposed
to be
funny.. cause they
did
rolled out those
canned laughter ... So I just laughed along..
" And... I would just laugh.. " hahahaha.... you're a
twit
... and I think.. You should be acting in Achar too ! ".....
Am I losing my
sense of humor or what? ... Watching such sitcoms definitely makes me sick
... and the absolutely beautiful ( Maybe she should just stick to modeling..
) Steph Song's Stony acting skills made the show no better.... By the
way.. I switched off my Television set just
20
minutes into the show.. or rather.. a sitcom if you would call it
one... with actors reciting their funny lines...
Just why can't we
have show's like Sex and the City ?... I'm sure... that their jokes
are far far much more better... hmmm... I think I'm getting myself a copy of
season one... Just imagine this... Achar was
aired
in the
States... and just imagine... what would happen?... well... that might
probably be the end of the world...
So...what's the
best 3 excuses when you're caught watching Achar on TV?...
1) I really loved
watching Steph Song On TV.
2) I really loved
watching Steph Song On TV.
3) I really
loved watching Steph Song On TV.
So.. to
conclude... Arhar... is just really about .....
Steph Song.(
If You asked me ).. And.. If you're wondering.. I'm
not...
a Fan of Steph Song.. well ... I just thought she looked great.. that's all
...
Oh well... had a
Busy / Slack day in the office... I realized that works often pours in
.. during the late afternoon... that seems to be the trend these days...
Actually I'm going to the
Escape
theme park ( I missed the Viking !!! ) tomorrow with Kelly.. but but but..
her colleague had
already
taken leave for the Hari Raya celebrations.. so... had to postpone to next
week ... should be on a week day.. just to avoid the crowd... Then maybe
just meet her tomorrow for a dinner or something after my visit to the URA
centre ...
Gonna sleep late !
... cause I plan to wake up late tomorrow... Wwhhheeeeeeeee ! Hope I'll have
sweet dreams later.. and in case you're wondering... If I'm hoping for
Steph Song
to appear in my dreams... Well.. NO ! ... I'll rather dream of someone /
something else... hee hee.... Sweet Dreams to you too ! " Huat cai Ah
' ...
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3rd December 2003
. An Empty Vase Makes
The Most Noise
.
Quek flipped
thought the pages of the brand new issue of 8 days magazine.. and.. maybe he
felt kind of disbelief... Which I pretty much felt the same... Ladies And
Gentlemen ... what I'm talking about.. Is this picture... It show our
beloved Fiona Xie... during a photo shoot in Australia.
" Sorry Guys, Your
dream job's taken by artist Dexter Ng. Who's applying suntan lotion on
Fiona... "
If I'm a girl.. I
certainly dis-allow some horny man to apply some freaking sun tan lotion
near my bosom buddies... I mean.. I could had applied it myself.. my arms
aren't that short... Or she's just being lazy?... what if that Dexter
fellow lost balance and accidentally shifts his palms down south? god
knows.. and I'm totally not interested at all... maybe SP Lim
would be interested... ( he's gonna kill me ) ....
Anyway... the
Moral of the story...
Sex Sells
! ... no doubt. Proven by SP Lim.. As I sought his help to buy a copy
of 8 days for me this morning.. and when I reached the bus
interchange.. he told me that he's keeping the copy after I've finished
reading... And.. why?.. it's because of the cover...
Just like a
hormone driven young boy... His desperation drove him to ask Tanner to get a
copy for him as I've expressed my intention or keeping it... high sex
drive...
If you ask
me.. I wasn't a very big fan of Miss Fiona.. In fact.. I feel that she's a
pure bitch. Just look at the flunked " My Genie " show.. she..
sucked! .. obvious to the blind that she's trying very hard.. to act cute..
which pretty much made her a pain in the ass... and to all Fiona Xie's Fans
out there... : get a life ! ....
ok.. would this
advertisement caught your attention if the picture was an old hag instead of
this lovely looking girl?... I doubt so... sex sells... If you're good and
pretty.. people would come to you.. and what I'm trying to say is... from my
point of view.. Fiona's just an empty vase.. full of air inside.. no
substance... whatever! .. she earns more than me.. so...ah ...... ...
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1st December 2003 (2)
. Until I Can Forget
Your Love
.
Staying up late
just to watch the stars of me and you in the dark clear skies at the stroke
of the peaceful midnight time together by the sea.. and never would I
thought that you would place back the clouds like a jigsaw puzzle...
piece by piece... You made me lose my ecstasy. Shivering in the cold.. the
merciless clouds stabbed right into my faded heart... . It was not a dream.
It was not a fantasy. It's... all over... soon .. I was greeted by the
sharp rays of the dawn... You .. were walking away from me... you were..
just gone...
Reality makes me
go weak in my knees. I don't feel like a Friday.. Euphoria seemed out of
reach again.. and even every seconds felt like eternity .. I had to escape
from the devil's rage. Now... I've ran out of illusions. I can't buy them no
more.. As I question the silence conversations we've always had... I
realized that sadness is something I had to adore.. It's time.. that I
should fall from grace.
Anticipating my
99th nervous breakdown.. The silence is breaking me.. My ear can't hear a
single whisper from you any more.. but my heart is yearning for one ....
Fighting back the army of tears... I know that... Someday... I'll be fine..
Someday.. I'll be free.... and one day.. I'll have to walk the modest
winding road... without you... until we meet again...
Until...
I can
forget your love....
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1st December 2003
. Alive Within Your
Beat-less Heart
.
@ Jurong Point
coffee Bean Joint
Lau Beh's Adopted
Part Time Pet
The Legend
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30th November 2003
. I've Lost My Virginity
.
@01.36am
Just finished my
bath and checked my E-Mails.. and... yesterday.. 291103..was definitely
a day .. to remember...
I was totally
bored to tears yesterday afternoon... and I called Yaohui and he's
sleeping~! ... and he said he'll call back later at night as I asked him if
he's free to go out... and so.. he did called around 8.30 plus... and I was
really feeling... lazy @ that point of time... cool weather... just feel
like rotting @ home... and he said... " hey.. wanna go Changi Airport?... "
... and I was like... " wow.... " ... cause last week... we actually planned
to go but there's some time constrains... so ah~... off we go~...
Well... everything
was actually okay till.. somewhere near the ah... Payar Lebar road exit on
the PIE. there's this traffic jam... quite a long one.. then... Yaohui got
an sms... actually I wanted to read for him but.. ai yah... and
then...
holy shit... we
crashed
into the red car ahead of us... holy cow.... holy shit... I was instantly
stoned... we're in the middle of the expressway... got off the car and
talked some shits... that Malay dude wanted it to be settled by insurance..
err... anyway... after much shock... My
Virgin
Accident ...
Yaohui was pretty calm entertaining
those Malay dudes.. if I'm in his shoes... I would be in a total loss...
Somehow.. I felt that I had my share of blame... if only I pulled the
fucking handbrake... things might not be so bad... but the lucky thing is
that... no one got hurt... and the damage on both vehicles... were pretty
minor.. just some dents... I supposed ?...
We exit via Payar
Lebar Road and ended up around Circuit Road... ( I found out from a ma ma
shop's certificate on the wall ) .. I was still pretty much in a
shock... good thing I had my seatbelt on... although the car wasn't
traveling at an high speed when the collision happened... I felt an
impact... good thing I'm still alive and kicking recording all this down...
The Cat inspecting
the damage...
We sat around the
car park and Yaohui started making all the necessary calls... After all
these shit happened... we then thought that we should be heading home...
but... we're already here.. 3/4 of the journey.. and... pretty lame to turn
back.. and... just decided to proceed after all ... and.. I thought that's
the most expensive journey to Changi Airport ...
I love Changi
Airport... I don't really know why.. Maybe It gives me a feeling of
traveling... hee... Stared @ the Departure board... and... TOKYO - NARITA
... ohhhhh.... I really wished that... I could just get one ticket and just
fly off to Tokyo... We then went over to the viewing gallery... there's this
sculpture ... a globe actually.. made up of coins... I've tried to find
Singapore on the globe and realized that... some itchy hands had
pulled them out...
"huh?... So easy
to pull out meh ?... " ... then I also stared to pull slightly and ... Opps...
I really pulled one out... I had became an member of the itchy hand club....
instantly... sigh ...
We drove home
around 12 plus midnight... Long way home... when I was walking back ... I
saw something on the floor.. " City Harvest Church " Certificate of
attendance for the basic sign language course... unwanted?..
muahhahaaaa.......
Next I witnessed
something so
beautiful...
I saw a bunch of kids with their dad... squatting down and I don't know what
they're doing ... then...
I saw this sparkle
sticks.. wow.. it's lovely.. children running around having fun.. not
worrying of the slightest problem. I think their concern was only... getting
more sparkle sticks.. heehee... they're really having the time of their
lives...
@11.33am
On Songs :
It takes a person
to be sad to write a sad song... You must be feeling happy... to write a
happy song... and Now.. I wondered.. how Yoshiki felt while writing his
masterpiece... tears ... It was actually written for his father who
had died at the age of around 30 something.. close to 33 years old... He
must had felt devastated.. every single line of his lyrics in tears...
held a significant meaning... especially ... "
Someday...
I'm gonna be older than you.. " .. how true.. someday... Yoshiki would
be older.. than his father.... such simple statement held such a heavy
meaning... When hide left us, He too... dedicated this song to hide on the
radio ...
@03.18pm
What a small
world.. I met the Malay family who's uncle car had been knocked by ours...
heh... exchanged some greetings and his wife told me .. " take care " ..and
we parted with a smile.... well... I really need to take care now....
Those CHC people
are playing games under my block... and they're making noise like no one's
business.... I'm not complaining ... I'm in for Peace and Love ...
@05.18pm
Well.. even
Kelly had " put my plane " again.... I'm still feeling happy today... heehee..
also like that...
@06.34pm
&^%$... I'm
still hearing those kids from CHC making Hooo Haaaa noises underneath
my block's basketball / soccer court .... it's ok .. it's ok... I'm still
in for Peace and Love ....
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29th November 2003
. Another Perfect
Day
.
From an issue of "
New Man " Magazine.
@12.11am
- Coca Cola... was
originally
green...
- 111,111,111 X
111,111,111 = 12,345,678,987,654,321
- This is the only
food that doesn't spoil... What is this? Honey.
- A Snail can
sleep for three years ! !
- Women blink
twice as much as men.
- The cigarette
lighter was invented before the match.
- It's impossible
to lick your elbows.
- And Finally.99%
of people who read this would try to lick their elbows...
@10.28am
Early morning... I
think I must had caught a cold last night... Had a slight headache too..
Here I am.. All alone in my house all over again.. Went to town central to
the ATM machine to transfer the money to Mah but... the queue was just...
too long.. worse still... I only had 4 dollars which is insufficient to get
myself a pack of fags... hmmm... so... Had to walk back home just to get 10
dollars more... and my lighter... I went to the Ma Ma shop below
and... gee... There are still small packs available... With the $14 dollars
I had.. I bought 3 packets! ..
This morning...
The wind was chilling.. which I thought was pretty rare in Singapore... Fag-ging
in the chilling wind was definitely more enjoyable than under the hot
afternoon sun... which explains I rarely fag in the afternoon...
really felt the boredom now...
@02.37pm
Well.. I guessed
I'm just too bored... hee hee... oh.. this actually took my an hour... Oh
my....... ....
A-
Architecture
I wish ... to be
an architect...
B-
Blue
Blue's my
favourate colour... unfortunately.. I'm always feeling.... blue...
C-
Curry Rice
( Japanese Curry Rice )
My favourate
Japanese dish... The curry just taste different from those in Indian ones..
not hot.. but.. the spice made it Oh so good !
D-
Dreams
I would hope that
my simple dream would come true one day... It's not a dream about being the
richest.... nor the most famous... it's only about.... being truly happy...
E-
Episodes
I believe that...
One's life is being divided into different chapter or rather episodes...
so.. I'm in the most boring episode now... hang on... it's going to be over
soon!
F-
Female
I wished that I
was born a female... P.S. I'm not gay!
G-
Guitars
I Loved playing
guitar... but that's in the past now.. but whenever I see my Les Paul... the
flame rekindled... but ... not for long... maybe the lack of practice and
the diminished passion for playing just died 2 years ago.... there's not
much drive in me anymore to play it... but.. I still love my Les Paul..
H-
hide
Well.. I bet this
one comes as no surprise... it's got to be hide-san. His music brings Joy
and sometimes Hope to the people... Inspirations..
I-
Isabella
I think.. I'll
always remember her as that cheerful and chatty girl from my secondary
school... I still missed her every now and then... I've even got my Les Paul
Guitar named after her... Izabella.
J-
Japan
You should go
there someday... It's such a beautiful and polite country ..
K-
Kid
I always wished to
be one right now.... a worry free one... No need to worry about Human
Relationships, no need to play mind games..
L-
Liow
Yap... that's my
surname... I pretty much hated it... cause it really sounds like.. " Gone "
or an expression of " gone case " in Mandarin.. hmmm... I really really hate
people calling me by my surname...
M-
Music
Music... it's
something very important to me... without any music.. I might as well die...
N-
Nostalgia
O-
Ocean
I loved to be by
the sea... listening to the waves...
P-
Photographs
I loved to take
photographs... Keeping them as a memory... happy moments... funny moments...
Q-
Quitter
I can be... a
quitter sometimes... it's just that... " Okay Okay.. I'm not going to be in
this shit anymore .... "....
R-
Rock Stars
Sometimes... I
would really want to step into the shoes of a rock Star... They got the best
job on earth... Write songs.. Booze... well... It's really... about.. Sex,
Drugs...and Rock N' Roll... nothing else really matters...
S-
Shopping?
I loved to shop...
only when I had the cash... * LOL*.. well... window shopping is alright
but... I'm also tempted to get some stuffs that I don't really need in life
..
T-
Time
Time was really
everything... you can look back @ those pages of memory... You can also
think about the route you want to take in your future... My friend once told
me something.... Someone told him " why do you keep on thinking about you (
sad ) past?..." You know what he replied?... " Then why do we study History?
" ...
U-
Unfinished
One of my
favourate X Japan song.....
V-
Vulnerable
I think I'm just
too Vulnerable right now... wake up... it's time to die...
W-
Whatever
life... had to go
on ....
X-
X Japan
One of my
favourate Japanese band... kicks ass!
Y-
Youth
Wasted Youth... I
wished I could had spend better time during my youth.
Z-
Zilch
I'm always feeling
so empty and...so full of nothing... maybe it's not time yet....
@05.11pm
Very nice right?
This is the LEMONed T Shirt.. hide's created brand in another words.. ...
How much?... 4500 Yen... and 1000 Yen is around 14 Sing Dollars... so
ah~.... not worth it... just too expensive...
@07.38pm
My new
Home for
this WebLoG..
http://www.oocities.org/sg/zpliow/whatzup.html
please update your
links...
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28th November 2003
. HI - HO
.
hide
( 131264 - 020598 )
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27th November 2003
. Till The Desert Rose
Blooms Again
.
As I ran faster
and faster away from the illusions and lies of a beautiful fabricated love.
I had met a lie. Something just seems too beautiful, Something so strange.
Soon We'll all have to part. As much am I afraid pf the truth, I'm afraid of
you. Holding to the roots of the flower, holding to every bit of the fallen
sand... for once... I thought you were so real. Even though I had to follow
the directions of my blinded faith.. I had to remember the pages of the
distorted broken truth. It's just not meant to be... you had to go ...
Until the flowers ever learn to bloom again ...
But when I closed
my eyes, the lights of the future was too bright for me to take. I had a
vision of you... along with me broken in the gutter. Never can I ... stay
with you ...
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26th November 2003
. I Keep My Love For You
To Myself
.
Yeah... I'm On OFF
till .... till...... Monday ! just came from from my duty off @ 12.30 plus..
and It was very very kind of Mark Lee to drive me home. Jenson was also very
helpful, helping me to brain storm for my 2 usms..
Life's fair...
If you help me before.. I'll
remember
and would replay you back like those advance clearances I did for tm2
... but.. hmmm : "
When walking in an open territory, bother no one. If someone bothers you,
ask him to stop. If he doesn't stop, Destroy him.
"
The Attack of the
Alien
!
Guards
of 251103, Yours truly, Ken, Nick, Tanner... By default... Tanner and I
would not stand with Mr. Ken.. so... Nick told me there
wasn't any
mosquitoes yesterday... and I beg to differ... cannot be... I personally
killed 3 to 4 of them... hmmm... Is Nick trying to say that
body odour
...is better than those insecticide out there ?.... hmmm ....
whatever
....
No More Specs....
No More Specs bending.... No More...
Dear All... I
Would Not Be Posting Any More Thoughts Anymore For The Next 4-5 Days... I Am
Searching For A New Me... Another Life... Another Life ...
No Need To Be.. Hurt anymore
...
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24th November 2003
. I'll Like To Go Down
Today But ...
.
Hail The Big Heads
! I'm the normal one ! muahaha!
Today.. was pretty funny... why?... I was looking at my " things to buy "
column and I stared hard into my ' X Japan DVD '... @ HMV... It cost 158
plus plus... then.... afternoon.. I settled for the VCD version that I've
bought around a year ago... It was pretty clear... I could almost see hide's
pimples... Ouch... no lah.. I think hide don't have any
pimples ....
heee.... then in the afternoon... Evon left me her message in
the Tag Board above.. and I was like... "
... " ... 3
dots again.... * Laughs * ... like this also can ah~?.... Talked to her on
ICQ later on... Really envy her a bit... study In Japan... I think I'll only
take her less than 3 hours to get to hide Museum which she visited .. errr......
Last Saturday ! ! ..... Envy... envy... Ai Yah... @ least I've been
there before liao... so.. .not so bad lah ~... Evon...
80 dollars lah... muahhahaaa...
@ 0026 251103
I was on the phone
with Kelly when Yaohui called... " Hey.. come down leh.. .I got car ... "...
and... heh... Went to that Taman Jurong food center... and I suddenly
realized that... That food center was the one that Kelly and I visited some
years back... hmmm.. touch of nostalgia... and when we sit down and took a
fag.. My handphone rang... some unfamiliar number... I picked it up...
The other party hung up... &*$#@! .... and what... Ben Au walked over... And
I was shocked...
I almost couldn't recognize him in his long hair... and
gee... he was pretty updated about the happenings in our camp... thanks to GPMG. He's doing fine with his studies... well.. I'm really happy to see
him.... hee hee.... and guess what... Ben was actually Yaohui's Neighbour...and
they used to play computer games together when they were young... hmmmm....
what a small world.....
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23rd November 2003
. Flirting With Sadness
.
Well... If you
asked me how am I feeling today... I'll say... It Sucks! I don't know...
Maybe it's just like some kind of
hang - over shits...
Was getting pretty good yesterday but.. today's just plain emptiness and
loneliness... I just felt so so empty.. empty house.. empty soul.. just...
nothing.. I'm so bored...
It's been so long
since I've went down to fag...
all alone.. without any rhyme and reason.. I
just wanted a fag badly.. good thing that the Ma Ma shop below was
still selling those Small Packets. Actually today, I planned to meet up with
Kelly.. either town or she's coming over to do her MD stuffs.. but.. She
overslept..
I really hated
staying at home... all alone.. with nothing to do... Well .. I could
actually work on my URA portfolio but... I'm just being lame and lazy...
so.. I surfed that horoscope again.. " Librarians... hates loneliness... "
How true... sigh ...
And later on... I
was just thinking.... I'll transport today's scenario.. Plain boredom and
loneliness and sadness and emptiness.... and. .oh so whatever..... yes..
transport today to a typical day in Australia... Down there studying... no
family member beside... No nagging from Mum... no nothing ! ... and.. I
think I might be more suicidal over there... unless... .. .......
Suddenly.. there's
just so many full of nothing thoughts running through my mind.. I
think I'm going to explode... What do I want?... what I really want?... why
am I feeling like this?...
tomorrow... I'll
be on OFF. but... so what ! ? ... I might be rotting at home with nothing...
and .... another day wasted... I'm just living life just like those fucking
junkies... get
high
one day and let my life down to rot on another..
I want the meaning
of my life
! ... and I bet no one really holds the answer to it except myself... but..
I still can't really unlock all this shits in me ! I'm think I'm just like a
fucking junkie !
I couldn't help it
but I felt like what hide sang in his
Pink Spider...
I felt just like a spider.. who longed to fly freely.. .. Borrowed wings from
his captured butterfly... and tried to raced towards the sky... but...
zilch
! ... I'm also.. trying to break free of my self inflicted misery ... I want
to fly ! ....
Free My Misery
... ... some day ... some day.. I would see the light ....
I am totally
envious of people that always stayed positive.. no matter what shit
happens... they're always ready to *
Smile *... You know.. I really
wondered how they managed to do that.. .genes imparted from their parents...
or they simply gave up on all these shits happening and... *
smile....
tomorrow would be worse... * heh... I have absolutely no idea...
but.. I truly envy those people that are trouble free... does those lucky
freaks really exist ? ? .... hmmm.. ...
I know my day
would come.... maybe that's that day I leave this world... on the other
hand... ( I'm
contradicting
myself here... ) .... I might also feel say to leave this world... what
would happen to my loved ones... I certainly would not be over the moon
seeing their tears overflow.... oh bull shit... why am I saying all these
shits... you're
wasting time
reading all my shits ! I'm
sorry
about that ...
" Tell Me
why... I Want The Meaning Of My Life ... "
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22nd November 2003
. Stroll Down Memory
Lane
.
halleluiah,
la
miserable, do you wanna show me how low and low?
<
say halleluiah >
@ 00.52 23.11.03
Yesterday was
Spring, to be exact, I was walking along
Memory Lane
during Spring time... I felt that I was transported back to my Poly school
days... Morning... I was in Jurong West (where Kelly used to stay ) for my
dental shits... I thought of those days... and in the afternoon... she
messaged if I'm free...
We met @ Clementi
around 4.30 pm. Took Bus number 105 to Orchard Road... On the bus.... guess who I saw..
Colonel Quek! He's just sitting behind Kelly. Quek tried to get my attention
by taking out his camera and attempt to take a picture of me ( I was
standing beside Kelly ) ... It's really weird that I did not even notice
Quek. As always... I'm the sort of person who walked blindly...
@ Orchard... after
10 - 20 minutes plus of shopping.. we began to shop for food.. the both of
us were... very very hungry.. to the extend of getting hallucination from
hunger... I wanted to eat Japanese Curry Rice... but.. couldn't find any
restaurants offered that.. on and on we walked .. I thought we were in the
Army 1/2 Marathon shit.... oh well.. we finally got to Paragon's Basement
... walking among the crowd.. I felt a push in my arms... and I looked
back... It's Weiliang ! ... one of my poly school buddy! muahaha... oh
anyway... settled on the noodle shop... ( forgot the name ) ... I ate Char
Kway Tiao while she ate some Tom Yam noodle...
As we walked
towards Takashimaya... I saw Kitty! My dear old lao mei ! she like... walking
towards us with that stupid smile of hers... Kelly later told me that... "
Why was that girl giving us that kind of smile..... " ... hee hee.... It's
been so so long since I've seen Kitty... so long...
We just walked on
and on and got to Cineleisure... Wanted to catch Kill Bill but.... sigh..
not showing... and it's getting late... our day shall end...
To sum it all... I
really felt like going back to the poly days... taking 105 with her... get
down to Orchard Road... walk here... walk there... Met old friends ...
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