EReadings: Teens Confess

~ Teens Confess ~

Why I Ran Away

By Jenny Colton

For as long as I can remember I have been depressed. Mind you, I never once thought I was. I realized I was depressed when I began to see a phsycoanalyst. I felt like I was all alone in the world, when all I needed to do was look up and open my eyes. So many people would have been there for me. I didn't see it then, but I do now. It is never to late to ask for help.

Running away was always an option for me. I hated how my life was going. I thought, well maybe if I started over, everything would work out fine. I had all these crazy plans. I once thought I could live at a ranch, and make a living off of that. It all sounded awesome. Only problem was I didn't know how to ride a horse. But hey, I once heard it only takes like two minutes to learn.

To tell you the truth the only thing I ever ran away from was my problems. When I was kicked out of school I didn't want to face my parents so I ended up running all over my home city. Finally when my money started to run out, I contacted my brother Toby. He was five years younger than I. When I told him about my plans of leaving, he immediately wanted to come with me.

I, of course, told him no. But he was headstrong about it and wouldn't let it up. Finally he flustered out and just turned his back to me. That's what changed me. This was my little brother. The only person who I felt I could talk to. I know he didn't mean for me to think this way, but it was like he was deserting me. I didn't like the feeling at all.

Toby was the one who saved me. I ended up going home. My parents found out, and instead of being angry, they helped me by getting help. It was a scenario I would have never pictured.

What I learned? Running away doesn't solve your problems. It doesn't even help it. You end up feeling guilty. And why do I bother telling you this? To help save you from part of life's misery... Or to warn you from it.