"love is painful and it helps you grow"

I gave you my heart and this is what you do

I gave you my soul, and that too you abuse

You say your sorry, but what your sorry for

is something you just don't do

Things cant, wont, be the same

and your the only one to blame

live with the shame 

you took my life 

and treated it as a game 

and 

Tonight I will make art because of what you did to me

to reflect how things couldn't be 

the way I wanted

the way we wanted

Tonight I will make art because I need to pour out my soul

in shapes of 

words and tears 

to account for all of my fears

about myself and the world

and try to make things clear

You say you miss me

you act like I don't miss you

But things have changed

and we're not the same

My heart cant take no more

I will never run back to you

no more making mistakes 

cause I'm glad I'm through with you

and

Tonight I will make art because I need to celebrate

a new beginning

a new life

a new destiny

a new and more smarter me that knows 

when something isn't meant to be

Thinking I had something that you couldn't compare

Now seeing there's something better out there

Now I can see through the smoke

and see that you were nothing but a joke

While some say love is blind

I finally got it through my mind

I used to say we clicked together so naturally

Hmm.. I guess it was stupidity actually

I used to say I'll put no one before you, cause you'll always be my boo

Now there's a million people ahead of you

and our magic you can never renew

and 

Tonight I will make art because of everything I heard 

and everything I believe

out of what's the truth

and out of what's make believe

All these things people told me kept messing with my head

and even though I treated you good

you made different choices instead

Tonight I will make art

because you haunt me in my dreams

and I know deep inside

that I need you baby

Everything I just said isn't the truth

but I pretend it is maybe

cause I pray at night that my feelings will fade

but I know I just couldn't of stayed

and tonight I will make art because its the only way I can express my anger and feelings about someone who hurt me so bad, and taught me so much, someone who looked so fragile to the lightest touch, but on the inside your heart was so rough.. 

and I just couldn't see through.

Tonight I will make art

because I loved you