Thursday, May 27- A pretty cool day I guess. Nick Cannon came to our skewl during lunch, but he didn't come out until the last 10-15 mins, and he only did 5 songs, 4 that weren't even his. He threw his wife-beater into the crowd, and I caught it with my pinky, but some other guy got a good grip on it, and we started going at it. More peeps came over and everyone was all trying to get it. I let go cuz my pinky was getting all twisted, and everybody fukking looked all pissy and shit. Then I saw it start ripping, so I took advantage of that and got myself a piece. Juss cuz I was mad cuz of my pinky. I don't even care bout Nick Cannon. Anyway, after skewl me, Luis, Arshad, and DJ all practiced the "Weekends" routine for the rally tomorrow. We did that for lyk 2 hrs till we got it right. Tonight ima get some good rest, sorry Mel.. haha. But yea.. ya'll best be ready for Talent Show '04 Part 2!!

Tuesday, May 25- Bad start, good future? Fuckin lyfe, can it get worse..

Monday, May 24- A sad day in my lyfe..

When you thynk everything is perfect, lyfe juss slaps you in the face and gives ya a reality check. I really wish this didn't happen. I hate you.

Why tha fuck did I listen when u said you loved me.. stupid.

Song of the day- "Cry Me A River" Justin Timberlake

Friday, May 21- Wud up people, how ya'll doing? Wow, I just came baq from the THS KIWIN'S Banquet. Wow. This has really been a crazy year. KIWIN'S has totally changed me for the better. When I first entered, I was a KIWIN'S junkie. It was the greatest ride ever, and I just couldn't get enough of making a difference in this world. This made me decide to run for Projects Coordinator on executive board. I ran, and won. I dont know if it was just bad timing or what, but thats when my KIWIN'S life went down hill. I loved making new friends with the KIWIN'S crew, but I saw that I was missing out on memories with my other friends. Tha boyz. I saw everything just ending so fast. I was confused, and I slowly drifted away from KIWIN'S, with countless attempts to get my spirit back. Tonight changed my perspective on everything again. It was like a re-awakening. I saw down and tried to make the most out of the last few moments that I had on being executive board ever again. I saw and heard the faces I have grown to love in the past year. I listened to everyone's (emotional) speeches. I saw the love and passion they have for the club, the fire I used to have. Then I started feeling at home again. I don't kno.. I think wut im feeling is the feeling I had from when I first entered KIWIN'S.I would like to say that I have the up most respect and love for the past board, and the strength they had to get through everything, while I saw how really weak I was. I am sorry. But ey, lyfe goes on. Lets see wut the next year holds for us, aight? 

Ryte now I'm waiting for someone special to call.. and they aint calling. so.. yea.. catch ya'll later. Much love. 

Friday, May 14- ey peeps, well I haven't been writing in this thing here for a min. a lot of things have been happenin, but ya'll could use your imagination on that. well anyway, im so tired. I went to the mall with nick and jon, then we had the smart idea of taking the bus to the beach when it was 9:00 p.m. we got there, got some hot dogs and went to the sand to watch the waves. we talked about movies, girls, ya kno, all the guy talk. but while I was talkin to them, I noticed sumthin sticking out from the sea weed on the shore. after we were done with our hot dogs, we went over to it and checked it out. in my mind I knew wut it was, I juss wanted to make sure tho. and it was wut I thought... a dead sea lion. after lookin at it fo a min, we decided to call home and get a ride. we called a jons dad and nicks ma, but they didn't want to pick us up. by then it was 10:40 already, and i needed to get home. so I did sumthin I never did before.. and took a taxi. fuckin 10 bucks. oh well, I got home, and my ma wasn't mad. nice. well im very tired so ima knock out ryte now people. I might go visit my friend yesie tomorrow in the mornin, and my homie frank might come over, we gots to do sum top secret stuff. haha.. ya'll take care, peacE.