Following is a Transcript of Lynne's Letter

Received via Fax...

Dear __________,

You are always in our thoughts and prayers. _______, we have not forgotten about you, nor do we intend to forget you. That would be impossible, because you are the person that gave us our beautiful daughter. I want you to know that Kelsey is a very good and healthy baby and we love her more than words can express. She is strong and is already holding her head up for longer and longer periods of time. She has a beautiful smile and one dimple. She is focusing more on faces and objects. She really loves to sleep during the day, and after about five weeks of being a night owl, she has finally gotten use to her crib and sleeps longer during the night.

Our little girl is our world. She has enriched our lives and we cannot imagine life without her. Though this is a happy time for us, we are not forgetting how difficult a time it is for you. Mark and I have been up half the night trying to figure out what I might have done to upset you, and to tell you the truth, I am simply at a loss. Obviously, I am new to this adoption process and totally ignorant when it comes to what I should be doing to ease your concerns. I am really sorry if I have in some way neglected you or have been insensitive to your feelings and needs. When we met for the first time. I felt that you and I really connected and truly understood how we felt and what we each wanted from one another. Because this relationship among us happened so fast we have not really been able to get to know each other. We need to work on building trust between us. I am very sorry to hear that you are having a difficult time letting go and that you are angry with me, but I am confused and feel helpless because I understood at that time that you wanted us to send you a picture of the two of us with Kelsey once a year. We willingly agreed to this request and totally understand it is very important to everyone concerned. IF you have since changed your mind about the amount of contact that you wish to have with Kelsey in the future, you need to tell us so that we can talk about it. It has never entered my mind to keep Kelsey in the dark about you or to deny you contact with her, if that is what you want. How can we help ease your worries and what it will take for you to trust me? I know you are feeling jurt and angry, but I have faith and trust in you that you can give me the chance to be loving parents and give Kelsey a good home.

I won't pretend to know what you are going through or how you're feeling right now, just as I would never be able to express to you how much I have wanted to become a mother and have never been given that opportunity until now. We have grown to love Kelsey with a love that far surpasses any that I could ever have imagined. We are both very grateful to you for giving us the chance to be parents.

We have been crying many tears, since we received our precious daughter, tears of joy and fear, and tears of sadness for you. We know you sacrificed your own feelings for your child's future and are a very special person in our eyes as you will be in hers. I think about you all the time and the incredible gift you have given us. Mark and I want Kelsey to know her birthmother, and believe me, our intentions have always been to make sure she knows you.

I have written this letter to you in my mind so many times since we came home from the hospital, and now wish I would have written it sooner. I have always been better at putting words on paper, then trying to say them. We would like it very much if you would consider writing to us. Also, if you want to, you could share your feelings in a letter to Kelsey for us to give to her when the time is right. If there are other keepsakes or pictures you would like her to have, please send them too.

Mark and I love Kelsey with all our hearts and want to give he a happy life, as I know you do. I hope that when you think of her, you will know that she is in a good home with parents who love her very much.

Please _________, all we ask is that you keep the communication open so that we can talk about our feelings and fears and come up with a solution that has all of our interests at heart. Needless to say, this waiting has us a little freaked out, so if you can find it in your heart to reconsider postponing the relinquishment, or write to us soon to let us know your feelings, we would really appreciate it. It is important to us to have an honest relationship with you , and are not the kind of people who would make promises just to get what we want. We will always keep our promises to you.

You are a special person, _________ and don't ever forget that!!

Love,

(signed)

Lynne

and

Mark