Month Long Sabbatical
Oh man, sorry for the month long absence. I think I tend to ignore this blog when I, myself, get caught up in:
a) college life [I suppose that's not a bad excuse...=)]
b) asian dramas [not a good thing..]
c) HARRY POTTER ^^!
Alright, so getting caught up in Harry Potter is not too often an occurence so I must say that my absence has mostly been due to watching various asian dramas. Some of them were good, others were so-so. Now, that I've finished all the series I've been watching, I've got some free time on my hands to blog here before I find another set of interesting ones that I just "have" to watch. =P
By the way, off hand remark, I think the word "please" is totally negated when you follow the command with a threatening note. For example, "please" do this for me otherwise [fill in a threat that you so desire]. It just makes one double obnoxious. Don't you think?
Well, Harry Potter 7th installment was an awesome read. I really enjoyed it personally, but hey, I like anything to do with the fantasy world =D. It sort of had a bit of a sad ending. Idk, I think I might reread it on my long car ride to Canada. =D
So apparently, xanga is fading into oblivion while blogspot, after years of soaring beneath the radar, has taken over. Okay, perhaps not as serious as I make it sound, but I do feel that I am beginning to sense a shift especially among my friends. Kind of like GoogleTalk last summer. First, it was just myself, then it was 2 or 3. Now, I've got a good number of ppl to talk to that I have begun to ignore AIM. It's just sort of there, but I don't IM anyone and they don't IM me =).
Well, that's the list of my monthly observations. I know it is quite short. That's probably what happens when you get lost in the world of asian dramas...=D
The Fickleness of Time
Does time really move too fast? Or is it just me? Am I just incompetent with keeping up with time? Do I take too long to settle into things? Am I just slow in everything I do? I try to get things done quickly. I like to find the fastest way to do things such as finishing a problem set or getting a set of tasks done. However, all these are trivial compared to the bigger picture of life. I also hate waiting around for the small things like the bus to come to my stop in the mornings. I hate waiting on the platform for the train to come. But I can wait a little longer before junior year comes rolling along. I wonder if I'm incapable of seeing past the short term time. Past the right now present to the future that comes too soon. Everyone has such big dreams and plans for the future. But yet when I look at mine, all I see is black, pitch darkness. My plans for the future are synonymous to my social timeline on facebook (ie. I took a social vacation).
Maybe I am a bit too pessimistic. As I sit here sifting through my dreams, dividing them into realistic ones versus non-realistic ones, they seem to all fall under the non. Everything now seems so important. Having the right job. Taking the right classes. Yet, several years later, they mean nothing. Nothing.
As always, I have wandered off topic. Into a deep hole of depression. Or it could be the fact that I am sitting here alone in the Biology library for five hours with nothing to do except an untouched stack of Jess's biology notes. At least this year I have windows. And it's the afternoon, so it's still sunny when I get out. A major improvement from last year's night job that stuck me in a windowless room.
Perhaps, I am running after the wrong things. Wanting things that are so unimportant. Unnecessary. And I know it. Yet I can't find it in my heart to change. It's almost as if I'd prefer to stay here in the dump. But something small inside me is telling me that I don't want to stay here. Yet it's small and weak, overpowered by the unimportant.
Maybe I'm looking for an easy, quick fix. But after years of toil and wonder, can you blame one for looking for an easy fix? Patience has run out the window. Disappeared into the night.
You know what, perhaps it's the song that I'm looping over and over again. It's a bit depressing. The music video is even more depressing. >.<
MTA Subway Speakers
I think the frustration that the MTA announcers have with the people who try to get into the train by holding the doors open has turned them towards the dark side of sarcasm. Just a couple days ago, I heard one announcer say: "Please do not act like a superhero. Do not attempt to hold the doors open. There are many other trains coming right behind this one." LoL, I think I was the only one who was amused. Everyone else was just standing there with blank eyes going whatever. Try as we might, I guess we can't all be Mr. Incredible. =)
Anyways, I just wanted to share this essay that I had read in Times magazine about how the writer would choose which candidate to support for the 2008 election. Haha, I found it soo hysterical =P. The power of MySpace.
So yeah, I'm chilling here at the biology library with not much to do. Anyways, got some stories lined up from the week, just never had time to post them here. So here we go:
So the mighty has fallen
You know how when you drive and there's a bird in the middle of the road, but it just refuses to fly out of harm's way until you're right about to run over it? It always infuriates me because I always slow down, afraid that I'll actually run over it, if I don't. But in the end, those birds fly off just in the nick of time, proving themselves to be invincible. Well, ladies & gents, their invincibility has expired! They can be run over! Lask week, when I was walking back from the bus station, I saw living...or should i say dead?...proof. There on the ground was a bird smeared to the roadside. =( Okay, maybe not as graphic, but it took me a while to figure out what that blob on the ground was. The feathers led me to believe it was a bird, but it's head wasn't very conspicuous. =\ Thus, a lesson to all birds. Don't act so cocky! If you see a car coming towards you, FLY OFF!!!
And another thing I will never understand:
What possessed someone to create that humungous slope from the 7 train to the ACE trains?!!? It's absolutely RIDICULOUS and makes NO SENSE. A couple days ago, I saw an old man practically crawling his way down the slope because if he walked any faster, he'd fall. Seriously, what dumbos. x.X And I remember a couple years back they actually redid that slope to probably worse because now there's less friction to hold on to your feet so you'll have more of a chance of toppling over. *rolls eyes*
Anyways, back to my mundane life monitoring an empty library =). Oh! Wait, I just had one patron ask me where the ...Engineering..library was. I guess that counts as one, right? Up one count!
It's the first day of June! That's crazy. Anyways, I started my web internship this week. It's been quite interesting learning how a website is maintained although sometimes I get a bit bored when they have nothing for me to do beyond tagging keywords to the pages of their website.
Well, in my spare time, I go on cnn.com and read interesting stories. For example, there is a guy named Nathan Sawaya that makes art out of LEGOS. It's amazing. Check it out. There's a gallery link in there. It's amazing! =)
That's all for now.
This is what I do when I'm bored at work and have nothing to do. I go to cnn.com and find the most interesting things ever. For example, today I came across this article. So ladies and gents, if you ever were caught cheating (which I really hope you aren't doing), you can use this excuse: Well, dear, "Infidelities ensure a broader genetic mix of the species." It's just too bad you're not a cheetah (oops...no pun intended ^_~). However, if you read the article thoroughly, you'll see that infidelity comes with a price regardless...=)
I remember my friend saying a while back in response to graduting college how high school was so simple compared to now a days. Now reading back on my old entries way back in 2003, I have to say that I agree with her. Things seemed so simple back then. Poetry project. AP Calc. Even my entries seemed so much more light-hearted than these days. I think I've taken a darker turn starting senior year of high school. *sigh* How I wish I can go back to those light bubbly days. x.X On a brighter note, my agony over my summer plans are over. I got an internship in NYC, thankfully. However, this does mean that I will be commuting into the city 6 times a week at early hours. x.X Haha, oh well, at least this should be a more interesting summer than the last. Got some exciting events lined up. Hopefully they'll come to fruition. =)Well, till more exciting news comes along. Laters ^^
At first, I thought the new "beta" layout for the Yahoo! inbox was amazing, but now, with much afterthought and a bit more use, I have deemed it the most annoying thing that could possibly exist on this Earth. Okay, maybe that's a bit of an exaggeration, but the layout's a bit stupid and annoying. They tried to give it the Microsoft Outlook kind of feel, which I thought was cool, but the problem is that with all the advertisements and other links they have, the actual amount of space allotted to viewing your actual email message is TINY! And they say that if I click this little arrow, I can expand the window and see more, which does the trick, except that everytime I go to a new message the window reshrinks to its former size, and I have to reclick the arrow again, which is a pain. Not to mention, each time I want to delete an email message a stupid pop up window shows asking me if I want to delete the message. That's just extra frustrating. YES, I want to delete this email, if I didn't want to and I accidentally pressed delete, it's not the end of the world, I can just go to the trash folder and retrieve it. Sheesh. Okay, nevermind, after rechecking it, I found a checkbox that says click this to never see this message again. But still, the inbox is a bit too cluttered.
Anyways, this is what I do during my time at the library in the summer when I have no schoolwork. Complain about Yahoo! inbox and read the xanga subscriptions that I get in this inbox along with random Yahoo! junk mail and a sudden reappearance of asianavenue.com. Haha, that's funny. It's been so long since I've been on it. Frankly, I don't see the point in having one. I just got one because a friend kept bugging me to get one so I figured I'd appease her.
Well my shift's about to end, but perhaps another update in two hours where I'm stuck in another library =P
Dang...I just signed onto ssol and saw that under my status I've already been switched to an undergrad 3rd year. So freaking scary. =(
Hmm... I think a clean up is in order. After finals, say goodbye to all my old blog entries. It's getting a bit messy in my file manager. Although, I love unearthing old designs that never went to fruition =)
thoughts going through my mind right now as there are too many to put on gtalk and do them justice:
1) two finals failed..three more to....=(
2) FOCUS DAMN IT FOCUS!
3) it totally does not feel like a friday
4) even tho it's not cumulative, art hum's going to have an infinite amount more years to memorize because rembrandt decided to make a million self-portraits of himself and name them self-portrait of [insert year]... thank you rembrandt. you will always be remembered as the guy who foiled my success in my art hum final... haha jk =]
5) FOCUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
6) one of these days i'm gonna go to the MET and find all these paintings that my art hum teacher claims is there... =)...who wants to join!?
the end
Little black poles have been erected all around campus. This can mean only two things:
1) graduation is upon us. noooo =(
2) more things for me to bump into as I navigate around campus...(yay...)
So, as graduation is upon us that also means that finals are just around the corner or should I say in a day as two days of reading week has already been used up. Although, I have to wonder why everyone chooses to call our sad reading week of 3 days a reading week. It's not even HALF a week. We should redub it to reading days. That would make more sense and not con us poor delinquents, who cannot keep up with the Lit Hum syllabus over the semester, into thinking we can read the entire syllabus during this "week". Of course, here I am complaining instead of opening my book and starting to read. I am such a procrastinator. I don't think I can wing this exam this time. Oh...crap. My inability to do all-nighters until I'm completely desperate is a bit disconcerting. And even sometimes when I am desperate, I still can't manage to pull it off and get screwed over. I'm a bit worried. I need to learn how to focus more. x.X