| MY LIFE IN A NUTSHELL |
| BORN MAY 25,1974 TO RALPH AND EVA HOLSEY THE FIRST BORN OF MY PARENTS, (WE HAVE AN OLDER BROTHER FROM A DIFFERENT FATHER, I DID NOT OPEN MY MOTHERS WOMB) WHICH HAD FOUR TOGETHER AND FIVE ALL TOTAL.. WE LIVED A VARY HARD LIFE BETWEEN BOTH MY PARENTS "MENTAL ILLNESSES" BETWEEN MY MOTHERS DIFFERENT PERONALITIES ''MULTIPLE PERONALITIES' AND MY FATHERS VIOLENCE "PARANOID SCHIZOPHRENIA" IT WAS QUITE DIFFICULT TO LIVE A NORMAL LIFE.... THEIR WAS ONE TIME I SAW MY MOM HOVERING OVER MY DAD WITH A KNIFE.... THE ONLY THING I SAID WAS OH, G-D PLEASE DON'T LET MY MOMMY KILL MY DADDY, I WAS ABOUT TWELVE. WE LIVED IN MOTEL AFTER MOTEL UNTIL THE AGE OF 14. TIMES OF EXTREME ABUSE CAUSED ME TO ESCAPE A LOT IN MY MIND AND DURING THIS TIME SOME HOW THE G-D OF ISRAEL WAS IN THE PICTURE. THERE WERE OFF AND ON SEASONS WITH BOTH PARENTS........ DURING THE LATER YEARS OF MY MOTHERS LIFE, WE STARTED "HAVING BIBLE STUDY" AT HOME AND IT STUCK TO ME. THE L-RD WAS MERCIFUL. I ENJOYED THE TIMES MY FATHER WOULD PLAY THE PIANO AND WE WOULD SING AS A FAMILY. I ENJOYED THE STORIES OF THE CHILDREN OF ISRAEL, THEIR STURGGLES AND VICTORIES. I WOULD OFTEN ANALIZE THINGS AND ONE DAY I WAS WATCHING "KING OF KINGS" AND I THOUGHT TO MYSELF JESUS IS A JEW, WHY DO THEY HAVE THIS SURFER DUDE ACTING LIKE JESUS.... LATER I STARTED HAVIND A DESIRE TO WALK WHERE JESUS WALKED (AS A CHILD).......... WHEN I WAS FIVE YEARS OLD I EXCEPTED JESUS INTO MY HEART.......WHEN I WAS ABOUT ELEVEN IS WHEN I STARTED WANTING TO GET MARRIED TO A "JEWISH MAN' AND I WOULD ALWAYS SEEK OUT KIDS I THOUGHT LOOKED JEWISH TO HANGOUT WITH, SOME OF THEM WERE SPANISH-SPEAKING, I KNEW NOTHING ABOUT SAPHARDIC JEWERY, THEY JUST "LOOKED" JEWISH TO ME. |
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