I have so many other things to worry about. My friend will tell me that if he really loved me, then things would have worked out. And that he would not have treated me in such a way. Can you really say that about high school kids? I keep thinking of him as the love of my life. I haven't met anyone that has flustered my interest the same as Rory. Sure there are random enfatuations of mine but I don't actually care about them. They were just fantastic whims for me to lose myself momentarily and experience something different. There was the guy in the tight jeans, the redhead, the boy who looked like someone else, and the German which I had initially thought to look like Nathaniel Branden. None of these "relationships" lasted long at all. What can I say? I learned a number of things from them. I've changed the habit that leads to dating these losers. I've significantly improved my love life.
Some day things'll be just fine.
