| Me, me, me an early morning rant 7/9/2004, 5:54 a.m. my poetry, me, i just am. some things i cant explain. so many things i cant explain. i only want to recognize him when he appears, but thats not possible. i am a lone dreamer, destined to continue that way. no love and happiness in store for me. apparently. so many disappointments. so many problems. sometimes they have me wondering whats happening. and then so many joys that are so short lived...once again, so many questions unanswered. life is the mystery. wondering why i am here, whats the big idea. wondering how a person could possibly not feel this when i write it. the mysteries of the zodiac. the mysteries of life. the mysteries of blahblahblah. so ragged that i couldnt stop it. i couldnt for the life of me. i also couldnt get the android to answer me, which frustrates me more than anything. im an aquarius, tell me what i need to know! wondering if i'll ever eat again. if i'll ever think, or live, breathe, enjoy, get angry, or love again. you know and want this. we all do. but you more than others, only you want to drive a poor young lady crazy for it. you dont even understand the very thing you crave, and you never will. because you are a virgo. yes, thats right folks, a virgo. so frustrate me, go ahead, i intend to teach you a serious lesson. i intend to show you rather than tell you. you'll see, you'll see. this is serious. cant play with this, though you would if you could. you try and try. but you cant get away with it. you cant do this. you cant forget. <----is laughing porque you wont get the satisfaction. and you are cold and indifferent. you are everything wrong. and yet i feel this. i feel this and something like love it is. now my rant means nothing, because the feelings come back to me. now i tell the truth, la verdad absoluta. i feel this and i am afraid of it. it is driving me crazy it is. i want you to know, but i dont know what may happen, so i write this ridiculous rant. celia says "...no me digas no me quieres...yo te quiero y yo te adoro...mirami ahora..." now you know and im sleepy. but you will never see this. so why write. why even put this on this page. but then, why live if i cant be heard? it is possible that one day you'll see this, just dont hold it against me. if anything, ask me about it. understand that i am irrational, impatient, and frankly insane. HOME |
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