| 10. I GUESS THIS IS GOODBYE |
| I guess this is goodbye. I'm asking myself why did this have to seem so meaningless, so cut and dry? It's so damned cold tonight. I'm so lonely I could die. I'm so terrified of life without you, you and I. I'll keep my jacket close, where I can smell you most. I miss your touch, your smile, your eyes, and how you took me by surprise. I haven't slept in weeks. I can't stand, I am so weak. Another night of crying to sleep. Alone I hug the sheets and weep. Beautiful rejection, love's one addiction. Now I have to bend or break. The simple tones of silence, of how I wish that I was hiding from my world and all my shame. I dropped my own smile, I will miss it for awhile; it's on your face, my past disgrace. When will you come home? I'd like to visit you. Your picture's in my room, right next to the one of you and I at lunch. Incredible attraction, love's one distraction. I haven't ever fallen so far. I turn around to love you, you reach right back, and I touch you, before I realize you're gone. |