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| may 19, 2001: this is a picture from my first "date" with jeff. i didn't really think of it as a date.. just hangin' out with a friend. most of my friends were guys, so i didn't think much of it. it was this night that lazslo's was open for the last time. a very sad night, indeed. thought jeff was making a face at the camera so i did too, but i guess he didn't after all. oh well, it's a humerous picture afterall. good ol' Flood and his camera. summer 2000: i was at lazslo's with my pal, doug, enjoying an emo show. i think vinnie's address was playing that night. anyways. we were about to step out for a few minutes for air when i bump into this kid. where do i know you from? wait! weren't you in scagnetti? weren't you the ass? who'd'a thunk? so we chat later that evening about stupid shit.. about danny, who i was dating at the time.. jeff was trying to warn me he was a playa, but did i listen? nahh.. sweet though. he did give me his AIM sn. winter 2000: subcity project was playing at lazslo's. i went with jen, coz i thoguht that she'd dig them.. besides, the bassist was hot. it was a good show. i remember thinking to myself how aerin and i saw them play years before at the crewtown teen center and thinking how they had talent. them and corderoy. man, crewtown teen center was the place to be, man. anyways. the show was fun. jeff and i talked for a few.. got his phone number this time. oh yeah! jen and i ventured to lazslo's once more that winter to see subcity project. a very good band, they were. march 2001: over the past few months, i had started IMing jeff from school. we had a friendship beginning.. even if we just kept it simple and never got too deep into each others lives.. it was nice, and what i needed at that time in my life. i realized that he wasn't an ass. over spring break, i had nothing to do.. i mean, every one of my friends were already busy. i picked up the phone and dialed. i remember thinking how nice of a voice he had. very comforting and boy-next-doorish. i still can't pin-point what it is i like so much. we talked for about 45 minutes while he drove to Unconn to visit a friend. of course, he had plans too. poo! later that week we made plans to go to lazslos to see a show. i had no idea what to expect. who'd know that two years later we'd be together? we had a pretty good first date. he will say i bolted out of the car that night, but i didn't. i dind't know we were on a date, or that he even liked me. how was i suppose to know that he wanted a kiss? i wasn't hip on the date scene. what did i know. i'm just glad i dialed his number. i'm glad i went out with doug that summer's night. i'm glad i talked to him and didn't just walk on pass. there are so many things that i could have done differently for us to never have met. and i'm glad i did what i had done. i couldnt imagine my life any way else. i'm so deeply and madly in love wtih jeff. he is my world. he is my heart. and i'm happy that his face is the one i will be waking up to every morning for the rest of my life. |