"Reasons not to kill myself" ~*~ Because I deserve to live. ~*~ Because my life has value, whether or not I can see it right now. ~*~ Because it was NOT my fault. ~*~ Because I didn't choose to be battered and abused. ~*~ Because life itself is precious. ~*~ Because they were, and are wrong. ~*~ Because I will feel better eventually. ~*~ Because each time I confront my despair, I will get stronger - I can't know what I will be able to do with this new morsel of strength, what future battles I will be able to win. ~*~ Because if I die today, I will never again feel the warmth and love of another human being. ~*~ Because I will never again see kindess and compassion in anothers eyes. ~*~ Because if I die today, I will never again see sunlight pouring through the leaves of trees, or a bird take flight, or feel the warmth of sunlight in winter. ~*~ Because the seconds DO pass, and even if time feels like an unbearable weight, it is not. I only have to endure this second. ~*~ Because I have already won - I have the resiliency, courage and stubborn will to survive thus far, and no one can take that away from me. ~*~ Because the will to live is NOT a cruel punishment, even if it feels it at times. It is a priceless gift. ~*~ Because my inner child needs me. She has no one else, and her need is so great, and she deserves more than anyone to be healed and comforted. ~*~ Because I owe myself. If I die today, I will erase the meaning of my suffering, and incredible endurance- - and that is too great a loss. ~*~ Because I already have the skills to find my healing path. I have proven this over and over again. ~*~ Because I can be a warrior against evil. ~*~ Because I am a testament to this horror - despair. ~*~ Because no one knows better than me, the meaning of suffering, and agony deepens the heart. ~*~ Because I deserve that peace that will come after this battle is won, and it WILL be won, but only minute by minute - I must learn to let go of the unconquerable. ~*~ Because I can come to show in later years, that even though they had all the power and the strength, and the ruthless cunning - even though I was a helpless, innocent child, I will have beaten them at the game they thought they had so strongly mastered. ~*~ Because I am FURIOUS that I have to suffer this pain because of anothers evil and filth. ~*~ Because it is critical that I survive. ~*~ Because my life is a sacred gift from heaven.