Saturday, June 30, 2001

9:05a
     I've been putting this off for a month now. It's an indicater of my mood, no Journal entries mean I'm in a depressed mood. There's just no time in the mornings to write. I'm too tired and un-interested in the evenings and just want to go on to bed. That's still my escape, those few hours in the front bedroom, laying on the floor. It's turned hot and going stay hot till September now. It's the same routine week after week. And I've concluded no one likes to be around depressed people.
     I've got the clothes washed and hanging on the back porch. I'm at my house this morning by the way, that's a little different. So now I'm making time to write some. But of course all the things I've thought of writing won't come to mind now.
     At least I've got the Journal files on the home computer updated. I'm going to mess up one time when moving them around from the website or portable computer to this one and loose some entries. The browser on the portable computer is still slow and stalls out. I had thought of trying to re-load it but things will just get worst. That's my luck you know. Besides, it's what I get for going to those websites that keep opening new browsers ever time you try to click off their site or close the extra browsers.
     There were wasp nests on the ladder and under the work table on the porch this morning. I went out to sweep and disturbed them. I sprayed some furniture polish on them to get their wings sticky but that didn't work well. Anyway, the nest are gone now, and I did get stung on the cheek but it doesn't hurt much, yet.
     The Gravely man has been down in Liberty for a few weeks. I got a package from him last week and thought I'd get down to talk with him about genealogy. But he leaves this weekend.
     Last weekend, Leander stopped by on Sunday. Jackie and Judy stopped by too that afternoono. It was odd how I was laying on the floor in the bedroom to get some more rest and was thinking how no one ever calls or visits and I just wished they would all just stay away and not have to think about them not visiting. Then they all showed up that day. It's that Jerry negation factor, if Jerry thinks or says one thing make sure it gets negated and not happen. But I should be happy some others got to visit with Mom anyway.
     I've been working on a heat transfer problem at work, a flashlight is getting too hot for fabrics when it's left on and laying on top of something. But that's because they're 16 and 18 volt flashlights with battery tool batteries. I still don't know how to do the problem, that is how much heat is going into the material.
     The other problem at work is trying to measure the clamping force on a router bit. Joe made up a strain gage test pin but we haven't been able to calibrate it with know loads and measured strain. The data varys too much from test to test. About the only thing going at work is haveing something to work on, not that it will lead to anything useful.
     So that's it for now. I'm going to spend some time uploading the new files and call it quits for another few weeks. Bye.

Thursday, July 12, 2001

4:55a
     Saturday I cut grass early so it would get done before the heat of the day came. I finished the riding mower part and then started the push mower part. I was on the east end of the greenhouse when I ran over a yellowjacket nest. It took me a few seconds to realize what had happened before I ran. One of those things followed me all away around to the front of the carport. I got hit 5 times. The two worst places were on the thumb and ankle. The thumb swelled up till it throbbed and the ankle felt like the bone was throbbing. That lasted all the rest of the day and night. The thumb stayed swollen some on into Monday. I ran around town trying to find a small bottle of amonia but I guess they done make them anymore. I got some bryendal and a small tube of amonia, that was expensive for such a small amount. So the rest of the weekend was spent feeling bad. I didn't even done the Saturday grocery shopping till Sunday afternoon. It all just messed up the my mood even worst than normal.
     The computer and MSIE is messing up more and more. I'm loosing interest in maintaining this online Journal. Sometimes I get to thinking what I write is just a waste of time. Who's out there that paying this any regular attention anyway?
     It really doesn't matter what I think and write. What diff does it make if I think everyone just needs to be nice to each other? No one's listening or heeding.
     There's only one principle for the States' and the world. It's a capitalistic society, the motivation is profit and the primer mover of motivation is greed. There's not a single thing that happens in that kind of society that can not be traced back to profit motivation.
     Ben Franklin, a fool and his money are soon parted. PT Barnum, there's a sucker born every minute. JP Morgan, railroad freight rates, whatever the market will bear. Old Joe Kennedy, stockmarket manipulation, we need to make all the money we can before this is made illegal.
     But then, where can greed exist except for the naevity of the simple folk to prey upon?

Wednesday, July 18, 2001

5:15a
     There's really not much to write about. I've been spraying stuff onto the yellowjacket nest. It finally occurred to me last Saturday that where they were coming up out of the ground wasn't really where the nest was. It's about 4 feet away where there's a stump of a tree underground. I did put a piece of fine mesh wire screen down over the hole. They just started using another one over the stump. But anyway, I've been spraying water to try and flood them out and some canned stuff to poison them. I don't know if it's doiong any good even though they're fewer of the flying around now.
     It's noticably darker now in the mornings when I get up. Summer is moving right along, the year too, and I've not got much of anything done.
     So that's it. Bye.

Tuesday, July 24, 2001

4:55a
     Last night as I was waiting for sleep to arrive, I thought about if ... when I woke up early I would get most of my morning ritiual done and then just sit here and write. But now that time has arrived and I really don't remember most of the things I was going to write about.
     A couple or three days ago I got an email from someone I met in yahoo's religion chat 4 years ago. We had corresponded off and on but it had been October when I last wrote. That was about the time more of my life faded away into other concerns. But anyway, it was good to know someone out there still thought of me. Maybe this time I can do better at keeping up my end of the emailing.
     One evening last week we were watching some show, I thought it was on ETV but I couldn't find it in the listings when I went back to see what it was called. I must have been one of the news-magazines talk shows. It was about the Bilderberg group, one of them rich and powerful people clubs. My first thought was that it was significant. But after I thought more about and found a few websites, it turned out to be just the same old thing that's been around for centuries. The rich and powerful oppressing and abusing the poor and helpless. So there's nothing new on that front of the Great Game.
     It's kind of like the Globalization buzz word. Like since when has the human race not been working toward globalization?
     And then there's that hate thing with humans. It all reduces to the simple hate, it's only the reasons one group or another uses to justify their hate toward another that are different. Thing about it, a couple or three million years of evolution and most humans still can't comprehend the, "Just be nice to each other," rule.
     Well, time's up, gotta finish my morning routine and go on to work. Bye.

Friday, July 27, 2001

4:36a
     I've been awake since 1:30 est (2:30 edt). It's been like that most of this week, wake up, mind starts and won't shut back down. I might as well start taking a sleeping pill every night till I loose the natural ability to drift off to sleep for the rest of my life. It's been found that lack of sleep leads to insanity but I'm already there so that's no big deal.
     I laid on the sleeping mat on the floor in the front bedroom till about 2:20. Listened to a short rain pass by, I had the windows down like normal but got back up and closed them till they were just barely open. Then I went ahead and turned the light on and read some in the SA mag. About 3:00 I got up and started the usual morning routines. Get dressed, fold up the sheet and mat and put them away, get my carry around bag, walk through the livingroom, get the coffee and cereal out of the box behind the chair in the living room, start coffee, start the computer, ectera ectera ectera.
     But anyway. So it's going to be another 19 hour day.
     There's not any new insights into the world problems, or spirit world either for that matter. There's going to be a Castrophic Civilization Collaspe and there's nothing us nobodys can do except wait and watch it happen. And then there's always that doubt about whether or not I've got all my religious beliefs and practices lined up right. Sometimes I feel like I've never done anything right, always having the wrong way of thinking. It's just not enough to believe everyone should just be nice to each other.
     And then there's all those bad things I've done and thought. Only the perfect get in ... and I've never been perfect.
     So anyway. It's 4:50 now. Been awake 3 hours more or less. All I've got accomplished is this Journal entry. It's another 2 hours and 40 minutes till I have to take Mom up to the hospital for some tests, normal blood sample time. And then it'll be go on to the job. I have thought of being sick this afternoon and just go to my house and lay on my couch and maybe I'll drift off to sleep there. I've been on the go for 17 months now, 22 months if I count the anxiety of the 1999-2000 winter.
     But who cares? It's my problems so I'll just have to deal with them.

Wednesday, August 1, 2001

4:55a
     There was a pleasant surprise in the email this morning. A fur-real message instead of one of those junk mail types. A lady had "stumbled upon my writings" while searching for "Dee's" a resturant in Santa Monica. She took time to let me know she had read some of my journal. I think there's only been 2 or 3 others to do that. But anyway she was planning a trip out there and that's how she landed in my small part of cyber-space-time.
     It all got me to thinking about that kid who scammed a breakfast out of Dee's. He must have been a late teen or so then. He's probably a thirty-something now. Wonder how his life has been?
     I happened upon a news article at one of the local news sites. It was what about a group of black ministers around the state who want an end to the boycott over that flag issue. They think it's doing more harm than good now and think their national leaders should change their policy about it. But that's a positive sign of change and I know that'll never happen. Peace offerings are usually ignored, just like the news media assigned this bit of positive news to the ignore file. But you can be assured that if it's negative, promotes the hate they would have on the front page. I read some of the postings at news.bbc.co.uk their talking point section. One of them called it the "racism industry" and that's exactly what it is in the capitalistic States, everything for profit.
     But anyway I really don't want to get back on that topic. There's nothing wrong with my analysis of the events. The prime principles and logic are all in order, even after months of constant review. But I'm just another nobody in the world. Nobody ever pays a nobody any attention. Especially when they're saying, "Just be nice to each other."
     Gotta go. Oh yeah, "Hey KG."

Monday, August 6, 2001

5:15a
     On or about July 26 or June 26, activity at the website picked up. There's been more vists to some of the pages in July than ever before. I wonder what it means?

Tuesday, August 7, 2001

5:50a
     the Troubles will be in Pickens before much longer, a few weeks, a month or two. the Opportunity to put Pickens down will be too great for the upstate media retards pass it up. Might as well close the storm shutters, batton down the hatches, and get ready to ride out the approaching storm.

Wednesday, August 8, 2001

4:45a
     Let me see if I understand the question right, my young friend.
     I'm about 21 or 22 again, which would have been 1971 in Virginia Beach Va. with lots of night clubs and night life. I've got the looks and physique that attracts the young ladies' attention like particle accelerator magnets. I've got a dancing talent and with the looks and physique I could make the Chippendale or Peter Adonis dance troup. I'm on the stage doing strip tease for a house full of women. They're stuffing $20 bills in my bikini briefs. I'm making $500 a night, twice the money in one night than I'm making in a month from the navy. By the time I'm 26 and out of the navy will have saved and invested enough to retire for the rest of life. And I've probably picked up a real girl friend along the way.
     So you want to know if I'd get up in front of the public, dance and take my clothes off?
     Excuse my rip off of one of your generation's put down phrases, "Like, DUH!?!?

Thursday, August 9, 2001

4:25a
     Summer's half over. It was 85 degrees at 8:30 last evening. It's now 75 degrees on the back porch. There's no breeze. Woke up at 3:00. Got up at 3:45. I've already ate my bowl of cereal, smoked 3 cigs. Now I gotta wait till 6:30 to finish my morning grooming ritual.
     This Greed Factor thing I've wrote about before, and now it's the Greed and Naievity Factor thing. In the theoretical physics world the objective is to reduce everything down to a simple theory of everything. I'm thinking more and more that in the theoretical social world everything reduces down to the Greed and Naievity Factor. The hunters are the greedy and the prey are the people who they believe are simpletons.
     The news media hunters, it's in their special interest to keep the hate, violence and controversies active. They are still sold on the idea that such sells the newspapers and increase the ratings. That leads to more profit from ads and commercials. Their prey are those who they think can be easily swayed by endless repetition of egotistical references to their own media's name, station, channel and now it's websites too.
     That economic summit in Genoa Italy recently and that WTO thing in Seattle a while back, who's the hunter and who's the prey? Who got the profit from the protest violence? More attention was given to the violence than the issues of summits. That's profit for the summits since it made the protest and their counter issues appear bad. From the other side though it was the establishment's reaction that was the violence. That's profit for them, proves their point that the summits, WTO and the like are the oppressors.
     But, in the end, it was only two hunters fighting over a single prey, the minds of the simpleton masses.

Monday, August 13, 2001

4:20a
     I think I've concluded that a person can stand on a busy street corner or public square, lecture, preach, shout all day long, "Be nice to each other!" They would just be ignored into oblivion, no one would pay any attention, just another lunatic. Then that same person could walk to another corner, wear some symbol of perceived hate, make a half loud put down of some group of people and it would develope into a national media event.
     Everyone sees what they want to see, they hear what they want to hear. .... Or maybe it's all just what they've been conditioned to see and hear.
     The Isreali and Palistinian conflict is still flaming, more than ever in recent years. I fear it's not going to let up this time, it's going to have to burn itself out in another full scale war. But I suppose it's already been a war for years anyway.
     The Isreali government could proclaim a unilateral non-retilatory policy for a few weeks. Just take the hits from the Palistinian extremists, and there would be a continuation of hits from them. Then the Isrealii could tell the rest of the world, "Look. We stopped the escalation on our side. We've taken x number of deaths of our people. They've done nothing but continue their suicide bombings, they want no peaceful coexistence. We have no choice but to defend ourselves from such attacks. And we will do just that now, till the job is completely done."
     But ... I am just another nobody, lecturing, preaching, shouting on a street corner. Nobody ever listens to a nobody, especially a lunatic.

Wednesday, August 15, 2001

3:55a
     Schools are opening, the students are gathering back in. All you kids be careful out there among yourselves. Will There ...
     All you dumb adults out there in adult world work places too. Don't go doing anything stupid to set a bad example for youth world to follow.
     ....
     On one of the network news shows last evening there was a re-visiting of the Three Mile Island event from 20 year ago. The anti-nuclear energy enities are building up steam against the recent talk of re-visiting the nuclear energy resources. Ho hum, yawn .... No change in the States national energy policy, it's still burn up the last penny's profit out of the ground first.
     ....
     Several years ago, again from the news, there was a story about how some individuals get their kicks by manipulating other people's lives. It was one of them student assistants in a college somewhere who had access to student records. He would change grades, make others take a class over, loose their tuiton aid records, or cause them to flunk out. It may not have seemed like much, but then it doesn't take much to change the course of a person's life either. It gave him a sense of power.
     Those types are still out there too.
     ....
     Data drips and drops like photons on photographic plates, bit by bit, byte by byte, puzzle pieces placed together truth triumphs.

Friday, August 17, 2001

5:05a
     Submitted at BBC Talking Point, Isreali - Palistine conflict topic. But it didn't pass their review and was never posted.

Wars are fought by governments, political entities, and the influencially powerful for economic, territorial and political power gains. Virtually all wars and conflicts have always been a "rich man's war but a poor man's fight." They use the differences among the people to antigonize one population against another. They always look backward to point at what one group has done to another while racing blindly forward teaching their children and grand children to do the same.

But it will end. That'll be about the time the Creator decides the so-called "self thinking, intelligent creature" experiment is a failure and starts all over again. Only it won't be with one good family, it'll be further back in time, somewhere about the ameobea stage of intelligence developement.

Saturday, August 18, 2001

5:20a
     Why bother offering what I think? It's not the usual retoric of the Palestinians did this or the Isreali did that. So why bother?
     The Ides of August passed by on Wednesday this week, that was when both TK and Tommy died 20 year ago. I remember thinking back then that in the time that has passed by I would have been wealthy by now. I would have arranged "the chase" of the sports car by heliocopter on highway #11. But guess what? I'm not wealthy and the mental state of my personal life is no where near what I had imagined, way back then, it would by now.
     Oh well, it's already past time to get on with the Saturday routines. Bye.

Monday, August 20, 2001

5:00a
     Since some people have been checking out the LeftSide of my mind, I thought it smart to update the resume there.

Friday, August 24, 2001

4:00a
     Humans have been fighting over a place to live since ... a little before the time villages came into being ... 20,000 years, more or less.
     That's supposedly what the current Troubles are about in Isreal and Palestine, a fight over a place for two peoples to live. But it's not.
     There's that extreme, militant, violent group who claim to be fighting for the old Palestine homeland, the one that existed before 1948. But that's just their cover story. They're just another political entity whose leaders are fighting for their own personal motivations, greed for power and influence. Although at times it seems like they're only interested in death and destruction. They don't represent the general population, if they did the Troubles would have turned into really BIG TROUBLES a decade or two or three ago.
     And then there's the other side. A people who had no homeland since 70 or so. That's one thousand eight hundred seventy eight years, more or less, with no place to call home. It seems like they've pretty much fought for the past 53 years just to hold onto what they went so long without. Matching each violent attack with a violent counter-attack, that's the nature of fighting over a place to live.
     And then again they have their own political entities, with their own cover story of self-defense, with their own leadership and their personal motivations. Though probably they're more typical of other nation's leaderships, political power and influence.
     So, what's to be done? Remove the cover storys from both sides and recognize the fighting for what it is, violence for violence sake alone, cloked by principle rationals. Violent leaderships, political and parental, point back in time at who's ancestors did what to some other's ancestors, be it one decade ago or 2,000 decades ago.
     The end of the Troubles will begin when they look at the children of violence following the adults of violence and wondering if they're also pointing forward in time to the next 2,000 decades.

Tuesday, August 28, 2001

4:45a
     Where are the Peace protesters? Where are the anti-war protesters? Where are the anti-violence protesters? Where are the 21st Century Gandha's? Where are the street riots against the bombings? Where's the news media's coverage for these events? Where's the religious leadership for peace and brotherhood? Where have all the Peacemakers gone?

Wednesday, September 5, 2001

5:05a
     It's really just another club one group picks up and and uses to beat another about the head. Humans are always looking into the past to find some reason to propagate their hate. That brings up another point, it's all just hate, only the reasons vary.
     This past Friday afternoon I started getting that irritated throat feeling. It developed into a head cold. So that's how I spent the holiday weekend, feeling bad. The weather was overcast and wet, so I couldn't get out to work the head cold off. Missed getting the grass cut or the weeds around my house whacked down. Ho-humm, such is my life, one miserable head cold after another.
     The Pickens Sentinel, the local, weekly newspaper, has a column where they reprint some of the social items from 20 and 40 years ago. It use to be longer and every week, now it's short and every now and then. When I was doing the genealogy work, I saw in the old Sentinels when that tradition got started. It was about the early 1930's and it was a 30 years ago column. That was reprinting tidbits of local news from 1903 or so.
     But anyway .... Ten year ago was when I started my so-called temporary retirement. Twenty year ago was when I wrecked my baja and my brother died. Thirty year ago I was spending my first Summer in Virginia Beach during the military times, living off base in an apartment with Chuck, Ken and Bob. Forty year ago was our first Summer here at the new house on the Ridge. Fifty year ago was the beginnings of the 1950s at the old house. Sixty year ago Dad and Mom had been married about a year. Seventy year ago was the year before grandfather Dean Hughes died in Georgia. Eighty year ago Mom was born. Ninety year ago grandparents Hughes were chorting. Hundred year ago main street Pickens was dirt and mud and granduncle Luther Hughes had his blacksmith shop up there. Hundred and ten year ago was about when Jeremiah Hughes, the town marshal in Easley, was killed. Some other relative, Walter, son of Sally Hughes, was killed too. Hundred and twenty year ago the talk in Pickens was still about the Amos Ladd killing in Rocky Bottom. Hundred and thirty year ago we were just dealing with post war syndrome. Hundred and forty year ago the war years were just beginning.

Friday, September 7, 2001

5:05a
     Hundred and fifty year ago Benjamin and Elizabeth Hayes were raising their children. Hundred and sixty year ago Toliver and Matildia Hughes were starting their family. Hundred and seventy year ago the Cherokee were living their last years in this area before the "Trail of Tears." Hundred and eighty year ago .... Hundred and ninety year ago .... Two hundred year ago .... Two hundred and ten year ago .... Two hundred and twenty year ago .... Two hundred and thirty year ago ....

Friday, September 14, 2001
8:05a
     From the Thoughtsmithing 1999 page there's a link to Show No Mercy. It has new meaning now. Never forget! Never, Never, Never, Never, Never. September 11, 2001

Saturday, September 15, 2001
8:40a

1. Every problem contains, suggests its own solution.

2.0 The enemy should be allowed to use a new-found weapon only once. Take back that weapon from them.

2.1 Put a squad of military personnel in the first class or section nearest the pilots. Seperate the cockpit area from the passenger area. They should be armed with light weapons, pistols, knives, stun-guns; they should be trained in close quarters, hand-to-hand fighting.

2.2 Put fighter jets on scramble status at all military bases. They should be ready to intercept airliners that deviate from standard flight corridors. They can shoot down airliners at the last possible moment before reaching the apparent target.

2.3 Considering the apparent nothing to loose response of the passengers to the current events at other targets on one of the flights, the Pennsylvania crash site, provide a news coverage systems or news alert systems on the airliners so that the passengers can be prepared and perhaps deter hijackers.

2.4 Improve and develope better methods of detecting hijackings in progress. Remote detection of deviations from standard flight corridors, real-time trianglation of passive radar signals, ....

3.0 Defuse and isolate false idealogical causes.
3.1 If an extreme/militant/violent sect of some general idealogical or religious group developes, that same general group is responsible for putting down the extremist sects. Attacks on the extemist sect from outside the general group can and will be made to appear as attacks on the general group.
3.2 Conversely, an enemy attack on any one member of a greater general group should be made into an enemy attack on all of the greater general group.

4.0 Keep in mind there are three ways to kill an organism. Cut off the head and let the body die, cut off body parts and let the head die, cut off its food and oxygen supply and let both the head and body die. If the head is difficult to get at with a machette, do the other two ways which may be more easily struck.

5.0 They are only co-leaders against a common enemy, there is no single leader. Any reference by one as the leader opens a crack that divides the group against the common foe.

Sunday, September 16, 2001
2:45p
     What do you want? You went to that page 5 times on August 25, then the day after the event you came to this page 11 times looking for a response. What do you want of me?

Tuesday, September 18, 2001
5:10a
     Typical I suppose, all this flag waving patroitism, God Bless America singing.
     Though I really think the States should probably drop to its knees, confess its sins, prayerfully plead and beg for forgiveness and mercy from Almighty God. He might have whacked US across the head with a 2 x 4 to get our attention so He can tell US something. After all, New York and Washington DC could just have easily been another Sodom and Gommiah (sp?).
     After three days of all the news media, tv, radio coverage, it started to feel like being brainwashed. There were signs of it, constant, repeative images and sounds. Political propanganda, psyching up and conditioning the masses for what is to come, which may have been in the plans all along.
     Was it really terrorism by the usual suspects? Or could it have been from some other worldly source with the usual suspects as fall guys? Follow the greed for profit and power, it's still a capitalistic world.
     I suppose one just should make a list of absolutely ALL the possiblites, no matter how remote, and assign some probablity factor to each. It's that "You always find exactly what you look for" principle. If you don't include all possiblities, you will leave out what you look for.

Wednesday, September 19, 2001
5:00a
     That thing about some millionaires pooling some of their money for a million dollar reward for that terrorist leader caused be to think a bit. It's always the same about going after the recogonizable names. But wait and think again ....
     There's enough wealth among the rich and powerful in the world, private, business and government, to make a really huge pool of reward money. It would be like turning the terrorists and their organizations against themselves as well as having a billion spys looking out for them.
     These are the going rates, a price list of sorts.

Item                                  Reward
Leads on terroist activity       $   100,000
Low level terrorist              $   250,000
Local terrorist leader           $   500,000
Upper lever level terrorist      $ 1 million
Terrorist cell group             $ 2 million plus value of each item in group
Destruction of training camps    $ 5 million
Terrorism plans:
   Low level                     $   100,000
   Mid level                     $   250,000
   Top level                     $   500,000
Orginization information         $ 1 million
Information that prevents
   immeninet hit on a target     $ 100 million
Source of terrorism funding        50% of funds seized, other 50% goes to
                                   reward fund
Top level terrorist leaders      $ Zero, they're worthless without any of the
                                   above items

Thursday, September 20, 2001
5:00a
     There was a night or two recently when I actually slept till 5:30 or 6:00, 7 or 8 hours. But it's back to the old habits now, waking up at 3:00 or 3:30 and never going back to sleep.
     Part of it is the thinking about the terrorism and its repercussions. Or maybe it's just how I see things differently than most others. I'm expecting the worst outcomes of any reactions to the tragedy. It's almost like a lose-lose, damned if this damned if that situation. I see manipulations by all sides trying to win the hearts and minds of their respective followers.
     But then again, I'm just another marginnally insane loner, seeing things that probably arent really there.
     Hi BC, thanks for the link, I shall consider it.