ELL, it's been awhile since I've wrote any thing worth reading, but as I've experienced things that are life altering, and have taught me well, I hope. (Remember, I am rather young, when you take into account my Awakening was but 2 years ago.)

Apparently, not all elves have elf bodies. Now before I get a chorus of "no duh!" remember, I have only my experience to draw from. To me it is a surprise that a majority of elves out there have human bodies. See, those of my Kin that I'm closest to are elf-bodied. I consider myself lucky, and cursed for this gift, as many things that will barely phase many of my human bodied kin will bring me close to death. For instance, my emotional state affects me on a physical level that is terrifying. I at time envy my kin in that for me, even before I Awoke, it has been difficult to pass for "normal", not that I currently care about such much. It does make getting a job in a non-creative industry a bitch though.

I've learned much about the idea of being soul-bound to someone and am tied to few that I loved before, though now I can barely stand them. I've also learned that such a bond can happen totally spontaneously, without ever have known there person in a previous incarnation. Such is the case with my current soul-mate, though at the time it happened I was extremely confused. (Hell, I still am confused.)

Elves seem to, at least amongst my current circle, have an incredible ability to summon one another, basically, Elven Paging. Now let me tell ya' it's a real bitch when you find yourself going somewhere you had no intention of going to. (Certain individuals know exactly what I'm talking about, and no it isn't what I get for only calling when you're in the shower.)

Now, as everyone probably knows, the time of many changes is but over the horizon. It is a time for those of kin to gather, but we've got to get a coupla thing straight first. Item numero uno, this ain't the Otherwhen or Otherplace. As such we gotta stop using old ways to judge now. It is a new time and we have changed. Many of our traditions are gone, and it's high time that that when stop pining for that which is lost. Secondly, We gotta be more accepting of Otherkin, for when you come down to it, they'll be the best allies we've got.

Though many elves would like to think that humans'll accept us when faced with the truth of our existence, it just ain't so. We're talking about a people who in general, dislike each other because of trivial things like skin color. Can you say elf hunt? I mean most the decent people I know aren't people.

Do I believe humans are inferior? No. But I wouldn't date one, and I can't love one. Only another Fae can truly understand what the world I live in is like. For me, there is only reality, and it is a wondrous and dangerous place. I couldn't be with some one who discounted my existence as a delusion. I know what elves are capable of. We can be more savage than any human - but usually with a reason behind it. (Though not necessarily a good reason.)

The most interesting thing about being an elf I've discovered is that we're archetypal. Whereas no elf fits the Elven stereotype, we do seem to fit into archetypes that are legendary. Perhaps it's our link to the collective unconsciousness, or just that we have a strong tie to creativity that causes us to have particularly dynamic personalities and presences, glamour aside.

In any case I hope this all helps anyone out there for whom this rings true, and wondered if anyone else had the same idea. As it were, any responses to this and my previous tome may be e-mailed to Rialian, who will make certain I read them, despite my other wishes.

Live fast, stay young, and keep 'em guessing about your corpse.

-Kyrin, The Toxic Elf, 7/29/97