Dear friends,
    Hey. How are you? Better than me I hope. I know it’s a little hard to believe that I, of all the people, could have problems, even worse than yours. Of course it’s hard to let your egoistical side aside and wear another’s shoes and just see how easy your life really is. Now, don’t get me wrong. I’m not saying your life is easy, but it’s easier than mine because you know how to deal with your own problems. Me? Well, right now I’m just trying to keep from dying.
    Call me ungrateful, but I can’t help that I’m only human. I have everything you could ask for these days. A loving family, that sometimes gets on my nerves, but loving and loved may I say myself. A place to call home, where I have everything I need and even everything I want! Lots of friends, good education. But that doesn’t mean that I don’t have my days of sadness. And lately these days have only increased. I don’t know why though, maybe it’s because the things are becoming so real, maybe I’m afraid to grow up, or maybe I’m afraid to admit that I’m becoming the type of person I despise, but can’t help it. I try to act according to what I’ve been taught but that isn’t working very well. It’s like my feelings are overcoming me and I hate it when I don’t have power over myself.
    I hate to hurt other people, but nowadays I think that’s what I’m doing the most. Growing up is so hard to do. I say things without thinking, in good fun, but people don’t seem to understand my wicked humor. If you are one of the people I’ve hurt, please understand that my intention was never that. And I’m terribly sorry, because I actually feel more of my actions than anyone. I guess that saying sorry isn’t good enough but it’s a start, and unfortunately the only one I know. If I could undo what it’s done I would, but my power limits me to only say I’m sorry. Learn from mistakes isn’t easy but certainly the best way to do it.
    I’m trying so hard to be what people expect me to, but I really can’t do that and be myself at the same time. I have to make a choice and right now this choice is the biggest of my life. I chose my feelings and the impact of this I’ll feel later on. I’m sorry if I disappointed you; for that’s my biggest fear, disappoint the ones I care about. But right now I have to look inside myself and see just what I really want. For once I’ll think about myself first. I wont be the same, but I realized that for me to make you happy I have to make myself happy first. All I ask is for some time and patient.   Please don’t judge me, I’m sure you wouldn’t want to be judged.

Love and sincere apologies,
                                   Nick Carter
 
    “Pop star singer Nick Carter has announced he’s leaving the group, Backstreet Boys. According to his spoken person all his band mates support his decision. This sudden decision has taken fans to tears and you can hear hearts breaking all around the world. His motives were told to be personal and no further explanation was given. His leaving is programmed to happen in two months, with the end of the current tour, Music Has No Age. The other boys have confirmed they will continue to be a group. They also said they will not be having tests for a new member. In the words of ex-band mate and best friend Brian Littrell. “He’s irreplaceable.”  Nick Carter was an idol and will be remembered forever. We, at the Post Cartoon wish the best in life for him. He will be missed.”

    Nick put the paper down and took a deep breath. Looking at the sky he felt a smile playing in his lips. A real one. It’s been a while since he smiled like that. He sighed happily. What the future held for him he didn’t know, but he was ready to accept whatever was thrown his way. Finally he was able to ignore all those voices that made it impossible for him to hear himself. He was happy.
“I’m free.” Was all he could think “I’m finally free.” His statement taken by the wind for any and everyone who whished to hear.

The End