October 12, 1999

Obviously, I don't. But hey, I bought a cool little whip for 6 bucks at the costume store. :) Elyse suggested being a psychotic raggety ann doll (because of the color of my hair) but where am I gonna get a raggety ann dress? Maybe I should hit some thrift shops this week, try to find an ugly vintage dress, fuck it up a little, get some semi-professional gore makeup, and go to town on myself. Aha! I think i've got it.

like the background? Blinding, I know... but I dig it. :) I just made it in photoshop completely by mistake, but I loved it and thought it'd make a great psychedelic background.
Well, to be honest, nothing interesting enough to write about happened today. So I'm compensating with a busy-looking page. :) Call me whacked, but hey, I'm BORED.
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so Halloween is coming up fast and I have no clue what to wear as a costume. There isn't anything funky enough in my wardrobe to be used as a costume, and if there were, well, it probably wouldn't be anything great. I want to be scary this year. I thought about being a dead dominatrix, but then I thought, "Do you really want to squeeze your fat ass into a corset or some latex?"

I'm sure we'll figure something out, at any rate. I heard that there's some theater in jersey that shows horror films. Texas Chainsaw Massacre was playing this month, last I heard.  That'd be a lot of fun. And I really want to go to one of those infamous S&M clubs in NYC. Being in costume would definately heighten my courage levels... I'm into BDSM and all, but I've never been part of a community of folks who are.

now the only question that remains is, Where am I going to go show off this lovely ensemble on Halloween? Well, I know Rob and I will probably go out somewhere with Elyse. Her idea was to go to NYC, but I dunno where or what we'll do when we get there. It's too bad Bill can't come up here. Perfect holiday! My 2 best friends, my boyfriend, and Liam (until his bedtime, anyway, and then we go cause trouble somewhere!) :)

so that's a little frightening, as well as the fact that I've heard that aside from the regular bondage crowd, there's guys walking around naked, watching the scenes and jerking off. OPENLY! I'm a voyeur, but shit, I wouldn't walk around masturbating in front of strangers. Isn't that something that happens in asylums?? :P Anyway, I still think it'd be fun to go to one of those clubs on Halloween. We'll see what happens.

I know I definately want to do something exciting. Halloween is my favorite holiday, and I haven't really celebrated it the last few years. Depressing, I know. But this year, I want to go all out and have a really good time. Hopefully I'll be out partying and having makeup run down my face and having a blast instead of planting myself in front of the DVD player with the Nightmare on Elm Street Series and the Blair Witch Project. Now that would be depressing. :P But come november 1, y'all will all know every grimy, disgusting, and exciting detail of my All Hallow's Eve. :)