February 1, 2000

so here I am again, with another journal entry. whoo-hoo. I would actually be keeping up with my site a lot more regularly, however, for some reason, the computers at the Rutgers lab don't seem to jive well with yahoo pagebuilder. So every time I try to save something, it all gets lost and that leaves a frustrated and pissed off Michelle. So, I have long since given up and now I reserve working on my site for when I am at the old homestead doing laundry. Joy, right? :P

anyhoo, not too much has been going on with me lately. I got a job, finally... At Barnes And Noble. Woohoo! Discounts! :) I guess this means I'll be reading a lot more, which is a good thing. A couple weeks ago I saw a gorgeous leather bound traveller's journal there, and I want it. No. I NEED it. :) Whether or not I'll transcribe any of it's contents onto here once I get it is another story, but we'll see. The reality is that this journal keeps me sane. If it keeps you sane too, then great, but it's definately more for me. :)

So have I been keeping my sanity in check lately without being able to write here? Well, somewhat. Not completely, but definately somewhat. I get a little bummed out once in a while, no doubt because of cabin fever. Having a job will definately change that. I've also decided that I'm going to go back to school, either in the spring or summer. I figure I'll go to community college and get an associate's degree in graphic design, and if that isn't enough to land me a decent design job, I'll go to Rutgers. I definately want to start soon, and get it all out of the way. The sooner, the better, because I'm sick of working retail. I'm ready to be creative and get paid for it. :)

I think, sometimes, that a lot of the reason I get bummed out is because I have few creative outlets. I don't have a lot of the materials I need.to do what I want. Primarily, I don't have my own computer. I have access, but only at certain times. I can't get up at 3 am from a wild dream and try and capture it in Photoshop, for example. (And yes, some of my best ideas come to me at night.) I have some good ideas that I need to excecute soon... mostly photography related. I think I may ask Lou (he lives upstairs from me, and is very cool) to collaborate on something with me. He does photography among other things. And he's definately creative. I think we could probably create something fairly interesting. :)

So I guess I'm feeling pretty good for a change. My birthday sucked ass. I pretty much stayed in bed all day because I felt sick from yucky girly cramps. Bah. Maybe next year will be better. I should be on a cruise drinking margaritas and surrounded by cute goth girls for my next birthday to make up for the last 5 or 6 shitty ones I've had. ;) Wishful thinking, I know. But hey, it *could* happen. ;) I got cool presents, at least. Rob got me a They Might Be Giants video and a Faith No More video, Bill sent me some excellent mix tapes, and Lou brought me a tiny birthday cake and a pack of cigarettes. :)

I guess I'm going to wrap it up here. I don't really have any soul searching weirdness to spew about right now. I know I've written better entries, but hell, this'll just have to do for now. I never said my life was a rollercoaster ride for anyone but me, anyway. ;)