June 6, 2000

Yes, I know, it's been a few weeks. Don't worry, you haven't missed much, and anything you did miss will be discussed right here. So settle down, already. :)
I haven't been online too much lately, and when I am, I'm usually not much in the mood for writing. I've been working a lot, so I'm usually pretty tired, and my social life is flourishing, finally, so by the time I get home, checking my email is about as far as I get. No biggie.
This last week has been rather sucky. Not completely, but still worthy enough to write about. I worked like a dog all weekend, and didn't have any scheduled days off during the week until wednesday. By tuesday morning, I was extremely tired, extremely grouchy, and totally not in the mood to hear that Bill couldn't make it to Boston with me in July. I did not react well to this news. Had I not been having such a crummy week prior to that, I probably would have just been kinda disappointed. So, it was just bad timing on his part, but he didn't know. Naturally, it would have been nice to know a couple of months ago, but he didn't know then that his plans would have to change. So, I can't hold it against him. So now that my week has panned out to be slightly better than it was when it first began, I've cooled down to the mildly disappointed reaction that I really should have had to begin with. It helps that the PMS has faded since then. :P Speaking of PMS and other womanly things, I came home from karaoke on wednesday night to discover that my IUD had fallen out. I was a wreck, because my period was close to a week late, and I had myself convinced that I was pregnant yet again. I freaked, cried myself to sleep, then woke up at the crack of dawn, ready to call every OBGYN in New Jersey for an appoinment to get checked out and have the IUD removed. My only option in the end was to spend my entire morning and most of the afternoon in the emergency room at RWJ Hospital. They removed the IUD (which was a much worse experience than having it put in, let me tell you... the cramps were level with labor contractions, and I was bleeding. :() and they tested me to see if I was pregnant. Fortunately, I am not. I'm not going to be able to have sex for a while though, because now I have no birth control. Condoms are my only option until I get my period again next month, and frankly, I'd rather not have sex at all than use a condom; especially after nearly a year of being able to just do it whenever I want, with no preparation or discomfort. Besides the fact that I don't trust condoms at all. I won't start on a rant about why I hate condoms; I'm sure it's nothing that you folks haven't heard before.
On the good news front: I am being considered for a management position in the cafe at Barnes And Noble. This is by far not my dream job, but I'd be making somewhere between 21,000 and 29,000 a year, and that ain't bad, if ya ask me. At least, it's not bad compared to what I make now, which is basically chicken feed. I'll know in 2 or 3 weeks. The DM is on vacation this week, and when she gets back, my store manager needs to set me up for an interview with her. So, we'll see. You all will find out later than I will, because between the 12th and 19th, I won't have computer access. Rob has to leave the laptop with his boss for that week. Yeah, I know, you'll miss me so much, right? :P
It turns out that I'll be going to Boston in July after all, but not because I particularly want to. My time off has turned into an opportunity for my mother to gulit trip me into bringing Liam up there for a few days, so I'm going on the 17th. (I have to stay in NJ for the 16th - the Warped tour is going to be in Asbury Park, and Green Day is headlining! Woohoo!!!) It'll be good for Rob and I, too... we;ll be able to spend a lot of time together with Liam, and I'm looking forward to that, contrary to his beliefs. :)
Anyhoo, folks, that's about it. I should go now, because I'm kinda zonked. I shall write again soon enough. :)

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