September 4, 2000

Aquarius

Horoscope (by astronet.com)
Friendships can be heartwarming now. You need the emotional support of people who understand what you're going through. You have deep wells of strength in reserve, even though you may appear unpredictable on the surface. Some group situations may require more time and effort than you can afford just yet. You need to have a sense of freedom in all your dealings. Focus on ways to improve your home life first of all.

isn't it ironic? don'tcha think?

I usually don't pay attention to my horoscopes. i think it's a bunch of new age bullshit, usually. this one struck a chord in me, though.

i had a creative outburst last night (early morning would be a more appropriate description, actually...) and an idea/the beginning writings of a screenplay came about, as well as more work to the painting i'm creating for andreux. it looks really good. for andreux's sake, i hope i don't grow too attached to it. :)

Less than a week now before my trip to chicago. it should be a good time. there's some issues floating around, but i think i'm more interested in relaxing and having a good time. so intently, in fact, that i'm not about to let anything fuck it up. i've worked too hard for too long and had too stressful of a summer to not get this precious few days of relaxation.

i really want to get this web design thing off the ground. i'm tired of wasting my talents, working shitty jobs with shitty pay, when i could make a decent living doing something i love. i need to have a talk with jeffrey, and renee as well... the three of us should really sit down together and brainstorm. and now dave is interested too, which is a plus because he knows C and visual basic and a whole bunch of other programming stuff that i have no idea about because i haven't had the time to try and learn it. i should also speak to andreux, seeing as how this is part of what he does for a living, he can most likely give me a lot of good advice and ideas.

i'm getting tired of B&N. I'm sick of being tired all the time because i bust my ass so hard at work. it's too stressful. people always calling out sick, managers in bad moods, annoying fellow employees.... it's exhausting. i want to sit at home all day in front of a computer, with Liam nearby so i can play with him, and make twice, if not three times what I make now, when i'm never home and too tired to do much of anything when I am.

you know what i mean.

i redyed my hair. my bottle of special effects 'cherry bomb' is almost empty. boo hoo. :( it's lasted me four dye jobs already though. i think i'll get one more out of it before the bottle buys the farm. i'll most likely do a touch up before i go to chicago. gotta look good and punk for the big city, har har har.

it's labor day. i've already woken up with the baby, and the only thing keeping me awake right now is working on this journal entry. later today, i will go to work and stay there until midnight. i'm beginning to think they call it labor day because most of us unfortunate souls have to fucking WORK. to everyone who got the day (and/or the weekend) off, it's "no-labor day". Fuckers.