What Dreams May Bring
Chapter 5 - The Ties That Bind
January 2008 - Resolution
Traditionally, the Summers-Bennetts ring in the New Year without much fuss.
They privately celebrate their continued survival and their existence as a family
unit. Their only resolution is to make no resolutions.
Except for this year. Spike and Buffy promise their daughter that this year
will be a happier one for the entire family. They don’t promise no fighting…
that’s always been part of their relationship. They do promise to remember what
they’re fighting for.
There is but one goal, one need, and one end result for all parties combined:
to love each other above all else.
Family over diversity.
February 2008 – The Birthday Girl
Willa’s fourth birthday is nowhere near the circus of her third. Just her
pre-school friends in her classroom, with Mama and Papa fussing over everyone.
After lunch, they brought out chocolate chip cookies decorated with Cookie
Monster… Willa’s new obsession.
It’s sweet and normal and Willa blossoms under her parents’ love and attention.
They sit in a circle to play Duck, Duck, Goose and it never fails. Spike
is unerringly tapped on the head and made to chase the children around the
circle. He always catches them with a roar and a hint of fang, making them
giggle.
Buffy smiles.
March 2008 – Don’t Count Your Chickens
Every morning for the past week, Buffy races to the bathroom. At first she
attributes the vomiting to the new take-out place they ordered from. When she
gets tired and achy she pins the blame on a developing illness. When a fever
fails to develop and she becomes weepy and bloated, she begins to suspect the
absolutely impossible.
Except it’s not so impossible, is it? Not with their sweet Willa asleep in her
bedroom.
Spike continues to be solicitous, but Buffy keeps her dreams and hopes to
herself... just in case.
A sibling for Willa. Time will tell the story.
~*~
It’s been several weeks – the mad dash to the bathroom has stopped. Buffy’s
still tired and moody but she’s perked up somewhat.
She and Spike snuggle in for the night. She hasn’t been feeling right all day
and wants to close her eyes and feel safe in the arms of her loving husband.
The same arms that seem to be poking her in the middle of the night. She
awakens from a dream of warm, sticky honey. “What, Spike? Why are you bothering
me?”
“Got your period, Luv. Want me to clean you?”
Buffy cries, throwing herself into Spike’s arms.
April 2008 – Retail Therapy
Dawn comes for a ‘surprise’ visit. While she’s happy to see her sister, Buffy
mutters something about ‘bloody vampires who can’t keep their noses out of
everyone’s business’. Spike’s and Dawn’s selective hearing is already in place.
In the end, she’s grateful for his thoughtfulness, of course. Shopping sprees
coupled with sister time is just what she needs. They avoid the maternity and
baby stores like the plague, and concentrate instead on the shoe and clothing
stores.
They sit in the food court, bonding over ice cream and crushed dreams. They can
almost feel Joyce’s love surround them with warmth.
May 2008 – Pride and Joy
Mama and Papa anxiously sit in the audience awaiting their daughter’s Mother’s
Day performance at nursery school.
Clear and unafraid, Willa says her lines:
My mom is very sweet and always caring.
She worries about me when I am in school.
She makes sure that I get where I am going
On time so that I don't feel like a fool.
But best of all, my mom loves me
Both when I’m good and bad.
She makes me happy with a hug and kiss
And holds my hand whenever I am sad.
There’s not a dry eye in the house.
(Poem paraphrased and borrowed from Poems
For Free.)
June 2008 – Daddy’s Little Girl
What’s good for the goose, is good for the gander, and Mama helps Willa
secretly prepare a poem for Father’s Day.
Along with breakfast in bed, Mama sits and cuddles with Papa while Willa
recites:
Daddy, I love you
For all that you do.
I'll kiss you and hug you
'Cause you love me, too.
You feed me and need me
To teach you to play,
So smile 'cause I love you
On this Father's Day.
Spike is beyond touched. He still doesn’t believe himself worthy of the
treasures he holds dear.
Breakfast is forgotten as he hugs his girls.
(Poem borrowed from Poems
For Free.)
July 2008 – Summer Daze
The year has slowed to a crawl. Outside of the summer camp program at
pre-school, there is nothing else to do. Neither Spike nor Buffy have jobs
outside of Willa, and it’s… boring is too harsh a word, more like routine.
Something is missing from their lives. For Buffy, it’s not hard to figure out
that she’s pining for a new child. More than anything Spike wishes he could do
that for her... for them all, but he’s more accepting of his limitations.
They don’t let their daughter suffer for their problems; not anymore. They
stand together against all odds.
August 2008 – Little Miss Smarty Pants
She may be young, but she’s bright. Willa will be attending kindergarten in a
few weeks. Her testing at pre-school has shown her to have above average
intelligence, a fact that delights her parents.
They’re encouraged to see how far she can go, so certain toys and games are
brought into Willa’s daily routine. Mama works with blocks and puzzles to
unlock understanding of the abstract, and Papa works with letters and words.
It’s all a game… another way to spend time with their daughter. They still give
her alone time and unstructured play.
A happy Willa makes happy parents.
September 2008 – Two Heads Are Better Than One
Willa’s been a good girl, and Mama’s given her permission to get off the school
van at Treena’s house for a weekend sleepover. The girls do their worksheets
and spend the rest of the day playing in the yard.
Dinnertime comes around and Molly asks why Willa has gotten so quiet. “Mama and
Papa are so sad,” she says. “They want to give me a baby brother or sister, but
it isn’t happening. Only one miracle to a family, they say.”
Molly thinks for a moment. “Want to give them a surprise for Christmas, Willa?”
Maybe another miracle will happen.
October 2008 – That’s What Friends Are For
Parent conference day rolls around at the nursery school, and Buffy and Spike
pick up Treena and Molly. Xander is running late and will meet them at the
school. The little girl is so happy, she takes every opportunity to show off
her new almost-daddy.
Spike tells them to go in while he looks for a parking space. Buffy and Willa
lead Molly and Treena into the classroom. All their friends yell ‘Surprise!’.
Molly turns to see a grinning Buffy, who had planned the shower for her dear
friend. The real parent conferences will be held in a week’s time.
~*~
Spike and Xander relax in the car, talking about the rollercoaster of marriage.
Spike extols the joys wholeheartedly, but doesn’t skip over things both large
and small that can derail even the best of relationships.
The subject turns to children; Willa and Treena always a prime topic. Xander
wonders aloud about another addition to the Bennett household, when he sees the
pain flit briefly across Spike’s face.
“Don’t you dare apologize, Harris. If it’s meant to be it’ll happen. At least
we have Willa. Won’t mind playin’ Uncle Spike for a new tot of yours.”
Xander wouldn’t mind at all.
November 2008 – A Simple Grace
Buffy and Molly plan menus and discuss wedding attire, while Spike and Xander
keep the mites entertained.
As much as he loves his girls, Spike is grateful for Xander’s friendship. With
their history behind them, they’re relaxed and easy with each other. As much as
he understands females, the added testosterone is good for them both.
Xander asks Spike to stand up with him at the wedding, and Molly does the same
with Buffy. The old, established married couple setting the newlyweds on the
right path. Not to mention two little flowergirls in matching dresses.
No fuss, no muss. Simple.
~*~
They pass on an organized Thanksgiving this year. There’s no need to celebrate
in a single day what they’ve felt year ‘round. Thankful for what they have. It
doesn’t stop them from wanting more, but they understand it’s more than they
ever dreamed of.
Buffy resigns herself to the fact that she’s not going to bear another child
and refuses the thought of artificial insemination. They speak briefly of
adoption, but the time isn’t right. It’ll be brought up again somewhere down
the line.
Spike suggests they seek out part-time jobs, just for a little variation on
their daily routine.
December 2008 – Home Is Where the Heart Is
The Summers-Bennetts insist on hosting the Harris – Parker nuptials in their
home. The six friends have become inseparable over the past two years. Willa
and Treena are thick as thieves.
After the debacle of Xander’s last marriage attempt, his wedding to Molly is
kept deliberately small and low-key; just immediate family. Following their
friends’ lead, they’ve promised a large reception at another time.
In keeping with tradition, Willow officiates. I do’s are exchanged with a
minimum of fuss, and the family circle widens joyfully with the inclusion of
Molly and Treena Harris.
All the while, Xander grins with secrets held.
~*~
A Christmas wedding is special, rife with all sorts of promises and rebirth of
spirit. Everyone joins in the group hug as Willow pronounces Xander and Molly
mated for life.
Buffy takes out the digital camera. It seems she’s developed quite the keen eye
from taking all those pictures of Spike and Willa, and might be willing to
pursue photography as a line of work in the future.
She sets everyone up for a group photo, sets the camera on a tripod, and after
one minor adjustment takes her place by her daughter and husband.
Everyone gets a framed print.
~*~
They all sit in a group around the tree: The Harrises, Bennetts, Angel, Willow,
Dawn, Giles, and Andrew… who’s taken to casting shy smiles in Dawn’s direction.
Gifts are exchanged and memories made as they talk of the future; Willa and
Treena drowse in their fathers’ laps.
One of Buffy’s gifts to Spike is a legal document – a change of name for
herself and their daughter. They are all Bennetts, as they should have been
from the beginning.
It’s a time to think of new children. Maybe a new little Harris to dote on?
Wistful longing runs rampant, but silent.
~*~
Spike and Buffy open Willa’s present last. It’s a small box, oddly wrapped in
blue and pink instead of holiday red and green.
There’s a picture of Willa with her arms outstretched, as if she’s waiting for
something to be placed in them. There’s also a sealed envelope with Do Not
Open Until July 2009 marked across the front in Molly’s prettiest
calligraphy.
The oddest thing is a post-it that says: Spike, ask Willa what to do.
Spike puts his ear to his wife’s belly as his daughter directs, and smiles.
The Bennetts are adding to their family after all.
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