To Pieces

anywhere i am
my happiness unforgiving
so different, so beautiful
i crave the air i breathe
take it in so far
i've never felt so alive
so calm, so myself
so deep my thoughts surrounded
by the gods of wisdom
i'm on the floor, yet floating still
my eyes, the glisten reborn
so magical, so pure
i am myself
and one with you
forever entwined free me now from everything
i want to leave with you
i don't know where or when or how
but to be alone with you
and laugh and feel awakened
i miss your breath, your mouth, your touch
i love you loving me to pieces
Leaving You

i've only seen myself the way you see me
my eyes so full of all i've felt
my eyes which carry so much pain,
those eyes that used to make you melt
to be wide open endless nights
without you there to care or speak
and everything i love today
is seeming same, just getting weak
except for you,
because to change,
for you to do is like a chore
and it's too bad things that i live for
fuck me over even more
and now i know you won't remember
these little chats of ours we used to have
and i don't know if i believe in me
without you preaching who i am
why can't you tell me what you want
can't you just lie and take it all away
then leave and don't be back for long
to make me wonder why i stay
i've been around so many times
and seen so much my heart explodes
but seeing you leave without goodbye
is ripping me inside the most
i pray for you to wait for me
i pray for you to change and give me more
i tell myself you'll realize
someday what i was fighting for
but i leave
i run so fast so out of breath
i run to someone's open arms
they tell me they'll be there for me
to keep my wounds away from harm
but i don't know if i exsist without you
what is left of me without you
can't turn around
though realize without you
i'm deserving so much more
All We Lost

all i can say is i hope you believe
believe that someday you can achieve
a love that was lost
to have it again
i pray you'd enjoy it
more than our end
makes me cry so hard to know that we didn't last
all that we've gone through
you've forgotten our past
but it'll stay with me always
cuz not a night passes by
i don't think of the old us
as i try not to cry
the way you used to kiss had no anger at all
i know "i'm sorry's" won't save what we can't control
but i'm still sorry for everything
that we have lost
and all that i gave, which wasn't my most
i try not to say sorry
but forgiveness i seek
this all seems so hard
cuz  i still can't believe
believe in the fact that it was over so fast
believe how you're acting
i just hope it won't last
you once were so soft
but i just never knew
who you really were
i wish it was true
i'd shut my eyes tightly and try to pretend
that caring and warm
you'd be in the end
i'd taste every kiss as though it was our last
but never even imagined it'd be over so fast
i still can't remember the last time we spoke
you call me a whore deep down i hope it's a joke
i try to talk back
feel my mouth drying up
i just can't insult all we once gave up
but keep eating away at all that we were
as i finish my smoke and say not anymore
and sometimes at night
when i'm not sleeping at all
i see all sick truth and in tears i would fall
but i pray to god
that someday it would be
you will ache like i did
and cry out for me
I Still Miss You

i used to feel so close to you
lying down to find each other
amongst all jagged and torn
and the cold nights you'd never leave
give as much as you ever could
hold my hands tight in yours
your callouses i still would remember
against my own skin
i still feel close no matter how far
still feel my soul sewed to your heart
i'll never forget what we were
won't see any other truth
with my eyes closed
i can still taste your mouth
can imagine you near
but it's been too many nights
of being with to be without you here
i knew this would happen
where from could this be
i think i've had a taste before
in past memories
i want you to touch me again
i need to hear your breath
because it's unbearable here
and i still miss you