Alone

My heart is full with hatred
Hatred of my life and hatred for others
Many of days I come home crying
Waiting for the day when I can die

I've waited for about sixteen years
Still I have never gotten my wish
The wish to die and leave this life
I have waited to long. I will do it tonight.

The stars are perfect.
Perfect alignment for me to die
To get the knife and make the cut,
The cut that will end this sorry life.

I run to the basement
Where the guns that Father hides are
Grab on that will be just the right size
The 34millmeter will do just the trick.

I race back upstairs
In addition, I turn off the lights.
I lay on the floor and hold the gun to my head.
My hand is on the trigger as I am ready to pull.

Bang! The gun goes off
The last thing I remember is seeing all of the blood
And proclaiming to the world
"I'll no longer have to be alone anymore."
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