Finding Faith

Bill the Bloodless

Finding Faith

Bill the Bloodless

Part 12 of San Bernardino. Set about a week after Revealed and about the same time as With Time To Reflect
Rating. 15
Disclaimer. All familiar characters are owned by JW and ME.
And though thanks doesn't seem nearly enough, thanks to Sho again for all her help and suggestions. :) :) :)


It may only have been five past six but the club was already busy. On a small stage a half naked girl gyrated around a pole, her bored expression unnoticed by the seven or eight men that crowded around her. To one side a tattooed bouncer made sure there was no trouble. A handful of other patrons were dotted around the club seated in ones and twos, and in one corner a group of four men were deep in discussion. A couple of them looked up as he entered but seeing nothing of interest they quickly looked away.
Xander allowed the door to close behind him and, with barely a glance towards the stage, quickly crossed to the bar, behind which a balding fat man was washing glasses. "I'm looking for a girl," he asked, holding up a photograph of Faith.
The barkeeper didn't even look up. "Haven't seen her, pal."
"You haven't looked."
With a growl the man stopped what he was doing and after looking at the photo, smirked. "Haven't seen her, pal."
Fists clenched Xander wanted nothing more than to knock the smug grin off his face but instead he just nodded and left the man to his work. 
It had been no different in the scores of other bars and clubs he'd visited in the last couple of days. For whatever reason people just didn't want to get involved. A one eyed man looking for a pretty girl was of no concern and had evoked little if any sympathy. 
After a nightmare journey of bus rides and hitched lifts he'd arrived in New Orleans tired, hungry and in urgent need of a shower. However he didn't let that slow him down and, after finding a cheap motel to crash in, he began his search for Faith. So far though, that search had been a vain search. Xander shook his head. Who would have thought that she could keep such a low profile?
Disappointed but unsurprised he turned from the bar and was nearly bowled over by a scantily clad young woman hurrying towards the stage. Xander jumped back out of her way but the dancer stopped and glared at him anyway, a look of annoyance marring her pretty face. "Whoa! Are you blind or some…" Noticing his eye patch for the first time her tirade came to a sudden halt.
Xander gave her a lopsided grin. "Half blind," he confirmed.
"Look, I'm sorry. It's just been one of those days."
"Don't worry about it." He started to head for the exit.
"Hey mister, is this yours?"
Xander looked back and saw the woman holding up his photo of Faith. He must have dropped it. "Yeah, thanks," he said then noticed what he thought was a fleeting look of recognition cross her face. "Have you seen her?" he asked, his voice rising with excitement.
The young woman gave the picture another look then shook her sadly. "No, I'm sorry. I thought I recognised her for a moment but…" she shrugged.
Xander sighed. "Oh." It would have been his first lead. 
From the direction of the stage came the sound of booing and whistling. "Frigging hell Roxie," the barman cursed with murderous look in Xander's direction, "are you going to get on the stage, they're starting to get restless."
"In a second," she told him without taking her eyes from the one eyed man in front of her. "So who is she?"
After another disappointment Xander was reluctant to talk but couldn't think of a reason not to. "She's my girlfriend," it still
sounded weird saying that. "She came here about a month ago." "Roxie," the bartender growled. The boos and whistles had gotten considerably louder.
"Look I better go" she held out the photo "but I hope you find her and if I do happen to see her I'll tell her you were looking for her."
"Thanks." With a smile Xander took the photo from her cold hand and, as she headed towards the stage, he left the club.

The young man from Sunnydale spent the rest of the night trawling some of the worst bars that New Orleans had to offer. Strip clubs, drug dens and even what turned out to be a couple of demon hangouts Xander showed Faith's photograph in all of them. And in each of them he got the same answer – nothing. 
Trudging wearily out of the scene of his latest disappointment, a dirty little hovel called simply The Watering Hole, Xander had had enough. There was only so much frustration he could take and, deciding to call it a night, he headed back to the motel. Something to eat and a good night's rest would see him refreshed and ready to begin again.
He'd only gone a couple of blocks when he heard the telltale footsteps of someone following him and he realised that he'd been 
hearing them since he'd left the bar. It just showed how much he was distracted. 
Xander slowed his pace and tried to catch a glimpse of his pursuer. Whoever it was though was either too good or too cautious and stubbornly remained out of sight. Still, just knowing that he was being followed gave him an advantage, one he wasn't going to let slip. 
A narrow alleyway gave him the chance to turn the tables on his pursuer and, ducking inside, he waited for him to appear. He didn't have to wait long as only several seconds passed before he hurried into the alley.
Leather clad, the man was no taller than Xander but with massive arms and shoulders seemed to be twice as wide. Completely bald, his head was covered into tattoos and a ragged scar ran from his chin to where his left ear should have been. He was the very image of someone you wouldn't want to meet in a dark alley.
Having faced vampires, demons and worse in his time Xander wasn't afraid, well not much, and, before the man knew what was happening, he attacked. His first punch caught the would-be assailant squarely on the jaw and he followed this up with a crushing blow to the man's nose. Bone and cartilage shattered with a loud crack but instead of going down, as Xander had hoped, the man only grunted. Then he grinned and spat blood from his mouth. "Is that all you've got?"
Xander gulped and backed away, looking left and right. "What do you want?" he asked, stalling for the time. There had to be something lying around that he could use.
"Well I was just gonna take you're money but now I think I'll make you scream a bit." He began to advance.
Xander screamed. "There, are you satisfied?" When the man made no reply he shrugged. "I didn't think so."
Suddenly the mugger closed the distance between them and, with his own punches batted away, Xander found himself clasped in a mighty bear hug. Lifted off his feet he struggled to break free but the mugger's grip was just too strong. The air being forced inexorably from his lungs Xander battled to keep down his rising panic and did the only thing that was left available – he bit him.
As Xander sank his teeth into the mugger's already broken nose the man cried out and with a curse threw him to the ground. "You bastard," he accused, "you bit me!"
Gulping in great mouthfuls of air Xander just smiled grimly. Too damn right he had.
The man shook his head, spraying blood left and right. "Well you're going to fucking pay for it," he promised and advanced once more. 
Still on the ground Xander had no intention of being manhandled again. Watching carefully he waited for the right moment and then launched himself forward feet first straight at the mugger's left knee. His aim true the man's knee bent backwards with an audible pop and with a howl of pain the mugger collapsed in a heap.
Scrambling to his feet Xander looked down at the man for a second then hurried off, the threats of the mugger following after him.

Once it had been the heart of a large plantation, an impressive mansion with large windows and a white washed façade but it had long  since been abandoned – at least by the living. Its new occupants cared little for the appearance of the building but here and there, despite the neglect, there could still be seen glimpses of its lost magnificent.
Deep in the bowels of the house, far from the killing light of the sun, a single figure stood in the centre of a large room, her head
bowed. Around her, concealed in the shadows, she sensed a number of watchers, ready to the bidding of the vampire before her. "You take a risk coming here Roxanna." More like a growl the voice was deep and ancient and sent a shiver of fear running through the woman. Vampire she may have been but there were still times when fear threatened to paralyse her and this was one of them. Slowly she raised her head but could see little of the speaker. Like his minions he kept to the shadows. "I have information Master."
"Information?" His humourless laugh echoed around the room. "Is that all Roxanna? If it brings you here, you must think that I'll like it."
For the first time she entered the house felt a bit of confidence return. "Oh you'll like it," she assured him. "You'll like it a lot."

Waking up the next morning Xander realised he needed help. New Orleans was just too big, he had lost count of the number of places he had already been to and he knew he'd barely scratched the surface. On his own it would take him months to check out every bar, café, club, and waterfront dive that the Big Easy had to offer. By which time Faith could be long gone.
With a groan he struggled out of bed. Already multi-coloured bruises covered much of his back and chest, and any sudden movement sent pain shooting down his right side. He would be damn surprised if he hadn't broken a rib or two. Not that he intended to find out; his first priority was still Faith.
Cheap as it was the motel didn't have phones in the rooms so, after getting dressed, he hobbled across the street to a payphone. He dialled the number and waited impatiently as the phone rang and rang and rang. Where the hell was everyone? He looked at his watch. Quarter past eight – they should be up by now. It was a half a dozen more rings before he remembered the time difference. "Oh crap," he swore but before he could hang up someone at the other end answered.
"Hello?" Still sounding half asleep the voice was barely recognisable.
"Dawn, is that you?"
"Yes" she sounded puzzled "who's that?"
"It's Xander."
There was a moment of silence then "Oh my God. Where are you? Have you found Faith? When are you coming home? Why haven't…"
"Whoa Dawnster easy with the questions. I'm on a payphone."
"Sorry."
"That's ok. Is Willow around?"
"Er still in bed. You do know what time it is don't you?"
Xander grimaced. "Yeah sorry about that. I forgot about the time difference. Can you get her?"
"I suppose. Hold on." There was a clunk as she put the phone down.
Xander leant against the phone booth and waited. As it had been every day that he'd been in New Orleans the sky was overcast and looked like it could rain at any moment. A chill wind ruffled his hair and he shivered. Looking about he saw that nearly everyone was wrapped up against the cold. Maybe he should have put a jacket on. Maybe he should think about buying a mobile phone. He shivered again, come on Willow.
It was another couple of minutes though before he heard someone picking up the phone and then Willow's voice. "Xander?"
"Hello Will."
"Oh thank God." The relief in her voice was apparent. "I've been so worried. Where are you?"
"I'm in New Orleans."
"And don't they have phones there?" Her concern had gone, now she sounded pissed.
"I'm sorry Will. You're right I should have called sooner but I just haven't had time."
"Haven't you found her yet?"
"No," Xander told her, unable to keep the disappointment from his voice, "and that's why I've called. I need your help."
There were several moments of silence then. "Xander I…er…I can't sense the Slayers anymore. Someone has stolen the Axe and…" 
"What?! When did this happen?"
"It was the same night that you left. Someone broke into Buffy's room and took it while she slept."
Xander could hardly believe what he was hearing. "Do you know who took it?"
"No and with it has gone my Slayer tracking ability."
"Oh."
"I could scry for her, although at this distance I'm not sure how accurate it'll be."
Xander was willing to take any help he could get. "Could you Will? I'm at a loss here."
"Of course I can. I'll need something of Faith's though."
"In her room, she left most of her stuff behind."
"Ok."
"How long will it take?"
"An hour maybe."
"I'll phone back in an hour then. And thanks Will."

Standing at the corner of Bourbon and Iberville Xander watched as the bus pulled away then turned and looked around. The French Quarter – if Willow was right then somewhere close by he would find Faith and by the Master's bones he hoped that she was. 
They may have been together for only a few short months but Faith's sudden departure had left a gaping hole in his life. He knew it had been the right thing to do but it hadn't made things any easier. There were times in the weeks that followed that he had had to force himself to get out of bed in the morning – to face life without her. 
Xander sighed. By the time he'd learnt of her location he'd been close to breaking point. He'd been burying himself in his work,
trying to take his mind of Faith, but that had only helped so much. He couldn't work all the time and as soon as he'd stopped his thoughts returned to the dark haired Slayer. They may not know it but, by telling him where she was, Buffy and Willow had probably stopped him from doing something really stupid. What, he didn't want to think about.
And now, even though Xander knew he shouldn't, he was starting to get excited. Soon, very soon hopefully, he would be seeing her again. Hold her warm body against his, kiss her soft lips and…he shook his head
He was getting ahead of himself. He still had to find her and even with Willow's information it wasn't going to be easy – there were clubs and bars everywhere. At least now though he was in the right area, his search so far been restricted to the Westbank and the Garden Quarter. Not that standing in the middle of the street daydreaming would accomplish anything.
Behind him was a nightclub called Utopia, which looked a good a place as any to start so, with a new found confidence, he went inside. A couple of minutes later he was back outside no wiser but no less confident.
Throughout the rest of the day and well into the night Xander walked the streets of the French Quarter, checking every bar and club he came across. From jazz bars to dance clubs, strip clubs to places that defied category he checked them all but there was no sign of Faith. Slowly his confidence began to wane and he began to think that he would never find her.
Then Xander walked into a seedy strip club called Talent and there she was. His breath caught in his throat. Lithe, dark and athletic Faith was more beautiful than ever. Standing in the shadows she hadn't seen him and for a while he just watched as she went about her work.
A tray in her hand, the raven haired Slayer moved between the crowded tables with a predatory grace, serving drinks and, Xander scowled, avoiding the grasping hands of some of the more unsavoury looking customers. Was this what she'd had to endure?
One over amorous customer was quicker than the others and managed to slide a hand round her waist and pull her close. Xander growled deep in his throat and started forward. He should have known not to worry though, Faith had been in worse situations and before he had taken two steps, she had broken free of the man's clutches. In a blink of an eye she had his arm bent behind his back and was whispering something in the man's ear who nodded vigorously, his face suddenly pale. The moment she let him go the man jumped up from his seat and bolted from the bar without a backward glance. Xander grinned, he wouldn't be back in a hurry.
Faith still hadn't seen him so Xander made his way across the bar towards her. A couple of steps behind her he stopped, suddenly nervous. Doubts flooded into his mind. What if she didn't want to see him? What if she wanted to remain hidden? What if…he gulped…what if she had found someone else? His heart was beating so fast that he thought it might burst from his chest. Oh God, what was he doing? He hadn't come all this way and searched so hard to chicken out at the last minute. He shook his head. Xander Harris faced his fears and met them head on. "Faith."
It was little more than a murmur and, even to his own ears, barely audible over the noise of the bar but Xander knew by her sudden stop that she had heard him.
For several seconds she just stood there, unmoving, then slowly – warily – she turned. Who she was expecting to see Xander didn't know but it obviously wasn't him and when she saw him, standing there in front of her with a ridiculously wide grin on his face, her eyes widened in surprise. "Xander, what are you…" she began but got no further.
Unable to restrain himself any longer Xander swept her up in his arms. Surprised again it took Faith a few moments to relax but then he felt her arms snake around him and she returned his hug fiercely. 
Xander felt tears on his cheek but he didn't care, he'd never been happier. There had been times when he'd thought that he might never see her again. "I've missed you Faith," he told her, his voice full of emotion.
At his words the Slayer pulled away and looked up. Tears unchecked on her own cheeks she smiled, a glorious happy smile that Xander would remember always. "I've missed you too," she responded. 
A few curious onlookers attracted by such a strange scene for a strip club cheered, a cheer that attracted more attention. "Candy, get back to work." The shout from narrow faced old man behind the bar was gruff and insistent.
Xander raised an eyebrow. "Candy?" he asked with a smile. 
Faith gave him a nudge. "Shut up, it's just a name," she told him then looked over shoulder and shouted, "in a minute Frank."
Frank wasn't happy and wasn't shy in letting Faith know about it either. "Not in a minute, now," he shouted back. "I don't pay you to talk, I pay you to serve. You can talk to Nelson on your own time, now get back to work."
The last thing Xander wanted was to cause her any trouble. "Look, I'll come back…"
Faith had other ideas though. "I don't think so." She directed a cold look in Frank's direction. "You can take your job Frank and shove it where the sun don't shine. I'm done." She grabbed Xander by the arm. "Let's go."
Once outside Faith dragged Xander into the nearest alley and, practically throwing him against the wall, kissed him hungrily. Xander responded eagerly and for the next couple of minutes the lovers remained locked in a passionate embrace.
Eventually their embrace had to end and not least because of the heavy rain that had started to fall. Soaked to the skin they broke apart with the utmost reluctance. Xander snagged another kiss. "Are you staying close by?"
"Why do you wanna know?" She grinned. "Have you got something in mind?"
Xander returned her grin. "I was thinking maybe I should get you out of those wet clothes." His grin widened. "Just to keep you from catching a chill you understand."
"Well if it's for medical reasons, how can I refuse?" She snagged a kiss of her own. "It's a couple of blocks away."

Xander had thought his own room was small but it was huge compared to Faith's. On the second floor above a Creole restaurant it was barely big enough to contain a single bed. It did have its own bathroom though and a window that led on to the fire escape. "It's not much," he commented standing in the doorway. The hallway behind him was narrow and had four other doors that he suspected led to similar rooms.
Already inside, Faith shrugged and turned to face him. "No it's not," she agreed, "but it's got everything I want. A bed, a bathroom and now" she smiled "you."
Xander closed the door. "So you want me do you? Well maybe I won't let you have me."
"Yeah right," she said and in less than a minute Xander found himself flat on his back on the bed grinning up at the Slayer above him. 
Entwining her hands in his hair she bent forward and brushed her lips against his. "Are you sure there's no way I can persuade you?"
Xander shrugged. "I don't know, you can try if you want" his grin widened "Candy."
"Oi!" Faith exclaimed with mock anger. "I swear if you tell anyone about that I'll…"
"You'll what?" he asked, laughing. 
"I'll break every bone in your body," she told him and to emphasise her point she punched him in the chest.
It wasn't a hard punch, at least not for a Slayer, but after his run in with the bear hugging mugger Xander's chest was a little tender and he grimaced.
Seeing the pain on his face Faith was immediately apologetic. "Oh fuck Xander, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to…"
Xander put a finger to her lips. "Shh. It's ok, it wasn't you." He told her about the mugger.
"And you're sure you're ok?" Faith asked when he had finished.
"Still a little sore." Which was a lie, the pain along his ribs had been getting steadily worse.
With a smile the dark haired Slayer began to unbutton his shirt. "Well let's see if I can take your mind off it."
Some time later, their passion sated, the lovers lay entwined in each others arms. Tired by their exertions they drifted towards sleep. A smile of contentment on his face Xander breathed in deeply. Never again did he want to be parted from the girl in his arms. There was no denying that without Faith his life would be less somehow. And, though there was still much to talk about, he was certain that he could convince her to come back to San Bernardino with him. And if he couldn't, he shrugged mentally, then there were other places he wouldn't mind seeing – if Faith was with him.
Today had been a good day and the future…suddenly took a turn for the worse as, with an almighty crash, the apartment door burst open and revealed in the doorway a huge mountain of a man. Hunched forward his head swung left and right, surveying the room before settling his gaze on the dark haired Slayer. An evil smile split his face. "Hello Faith," he growled.
Beside him he felt Faith stiffen and then, her voice thick with fear, she uttered a single word. "Kakistos."


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