| wednesday, august 18, 2004 i'm leaving saturday. i'm going to miss orbit, but i think it's time for me to leave. it's a very unrequited love. just heard sugarcult - memory on elliot's xanga. got to download it later. no, i'm not ready to go. i'm suffering a lot, a lot of goodbyes and a lot of doubts about the place i'm headed as well as doubts about the people i'm leaving. like i'll fade away. i don't want to be forgotten, but oh well, i'm damned to my fate. i'll miss eric. ----- monday, may 3, 2004 rene magritte, jack vettriano, robert doisneau, les chiens de la chapelle, 1953 jack kerouac wednesday is the ap calc test. thursday is the ap lit test. sleep is good. ~ 10:55 pm ----- saturday, april 24, 2004 travis - love will come through ~ 12:50 am ----- monday, april 19, 2004 lately, i've been having obsessive thoughts about how i have to beat everyone and achieve undying glory. frightening to you, and a bit frightening to me. i can't keep still. relaxation seems like it won't come easily for me unless i am under the covers of my blanket, a situation where everybody succumbs to relaxation. but yes, this obsession with conquering or be conquered is really sucking up fuel. maybe this is a sign that i need to pick another fight with my dad. you know, get some of those destructive juices flowing again. ok. let's go. win win win. conquer conquer conquer. *evil snicker* ~ 5:35 pm ----- monday, april 5, 2004 i hate people. ok, no i don't. i hate vincent. bastard. ~ 12:00 am ----- thursday, april 1, 2004 happy april fools day. i've been going around telling everybody that my acceptance from berkeley was withdrawn. i didn't wake up early enough to make the toothpaste cookies, gosh darn. do not go gentle into that goodnight, old age should burn and rave at close of day; rage, rage against the dying of the light. ~ 2nd period. ----- tuesday, march 23, 2004 happy birthday michelle! BOSTON U BABY!!! i am woman, hear me roar. XD meyerson's the linguist and the emperor edmonds and eidinow's bobby fischer goes to war haddon's the curious incident of the dog in the night-time amano: the complete prints of yoshitaka amano ~ 4:05 pm ----- monday, march 22, 2004 Tomorrow is Michelle's birthday! Truly exciting. But yes, here is what inspired me to update today: I WANT BERKELEY. Done. that's all. i just want to get in there. la di da, ho hum. I finished reading The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy last night. Moderately satisfied with its conclusion. Well, no, but ok. I got the answer to life, the universe, and everything, and as that was all I was seeking, I am moderately satisfied. Douglas Adams is British. I should've known and recognized that slightly British humor. ~ 2nd period. ----- sunday, march 21, 2004 surfing the crimson wave has always made me need to go to the restroom more. that totally sucks. 323: michelle's birthday 326: sadies w/ square and company 327: eternal sunshine w/ ross (and company?) 328: dinner with kevin w. 41: family dinner for dad's bday 42-44: kc convention 43: dad's birthday 49-418: spring break, make time to study!!! 49: kc installation/extolation 410/411: hang out with will (?) 413: american idol taping, be there by 10 AM, ends ??? 414: los angeles (galcos) w ross 415: beach with steph c. 416/417: kill bill with ross & ann 51: must have acceptance sent in. first two weeks of may: ap testing 59: birthday 529-531: pacific media expo 64: last day in dbhs, dashboard confessional concert w ann, vincent's birthday 65: senior prom 610: graduation 611: yuia's birthday 613: jamie's birthday 625: steph c.'s birthday i was so bored tonight i designed a sweatshirt design for mun. it's kinda... lousy. o well. that's what happens when i don't take the time to learn adobe. andrew wei is a swell guy. ~ 11:25 pm ----- wednesday, march 17, 2004 i love google on holidays. fenix tx - ordinary world it's true: i started went on an AIM sabbatical starting... Sunday (was it?) and I ended it last night. That's right, i have NO discipline. ~ 2nd period. ----- tuesday, march 9, 2004 i suppose you only see her the way i only see you. oh, how i wish you would see me that way too. i wonder what would happen if the chase really did end, and what i hope for actually becomes reality. i wonder if i would run away. ~ 5:50 pm ----- monday, february 16, 2004 the closer i come to graduation, the more grateful i am. i have never realized how many beautiful people there are. bygones are bygones. people are wonderful. the fact that i'm able to breathe is an amazement. life is great. ~ 8:15 pm |