why am i putting a diary on my website? prolly so naomi can find it quicker since she stole all my other diaries i tried to hide. so there u go naomi, i hope its more convienient for u. well, i just got back from basketball an hour ago, but since then i've had another nice cry. i like crying. i don't always like wot makes me cry, but crying in itself is nice. that and laughing. i think there is a thin line between laughing and crying. in my case at least. ne way, the reason i cried is because i'm terrible at basketball and its driving me crazy. i want to quit. i've been so emotional lately. life is hard stuff these days. i thank God Christmas break is tomorrow but there's also basketball so that deflates my happy bubble a little. i would like it if i was actually really good. i seem to get worse every day. i have such a bad attitude. my self esteem is rapidly dropping. recently i've felt so nasty, ugly, bad at baketball not to mention everything else, and i feel like no one likes me. and if they do y? oh and i hate my clothes. i think i have good taste in clothes--yeah i kno, everybody prolly thinx that--but i dont go to the mall very often, and when i do go there's not ne thing i like that much that i could wear to school(to explain that, i have like 4 cute shirts that dont have long enough sleeves to wear to school and they're no slutty). im glad ive already lost whoever started to read this. wait, im wrong, i can sense naomi reading this. hi naomi. oh and if ne one is actually still reading this and u think im weird, i couldn't agree w/ u more. also, im not always this depressing, i was actually in avery hyper mood seventh period but then basketball hit. i actually do my own commentary while i play about how bad i am. yulp.... stupid stupid stupid......i just read this over and it is stupid, but i won't change a word because idon't care how stupid it is and im used to it.
wow thats really depressing steph.....basketball is not really that bad any more. i can b such a drama queen. naomi says that i should say oh yeah naomi doesn't steal diaries anymore. sorry naomi, my diaries...are you happy now? no you say? oh well.....im leaving this is boring.