It was August 20,1998 when our twins were born. I had a boy and girl! We were so tickled. We named them Aaron and Ashley. Aaron weighed 7lbs 15 oz. Ashley weighed 7lbs even. They were born 1 minute apart. Aaron being the first born. My husband and I were so tickled. He got to carry them to the nursery for them. He just grinned so big as he turned to carry them to the nursery. Ashley seemed healthy as could be but, as for he Aaron was having trouble breathing. His little heart rate flew up everytime he would cry, move or get excited. They were worried about this cause his chest just jerked when he would breathe. He didn't act like he could breathe good at all. They kept him in the nursery and didn't let me take him to my room like i did his sister Ashley . We all just missed him very much. They let me go in and see him later that night. I could not hold him but i got to rub his little leg and hand. I just cried and so did my husband it killed us to watch him suffering. We just talked to him telling him how much we loved him and wanted him to get better so we could hold him to. The next morning they sent him to Winston Salem to Baptist Hospital where they could better watch him and check him out and see what was causing his problems. They done a ultrasound and found he had Hypoplastic Left Heart. This is where the left side of his heart was not fully developed. When i got out of the hospital on Sunday that is the first place i went to see my son. His Daddy had went down everyday to check on him and bring me a report. I would lay and think about him and hold his little sister and cry for him to. I wanted both of my twins together. I called and checked on him 4 or 5 times a day. They were keeping him sedated so his heart rate would stay down. They gave him one of the three surgeries he was to have and he came through it fine. Then after a couple days his heart started into defibs and this cause his liver and kidneys to be damanged. This made him a v ery sick baby. He would get better and then worse and then that last night his heart did that they couldn't get him back. He died at 7:55 pm on September 6, 1998. We were all Heart broken. We had had high hopes of bringing our baby boy home. Only to have to let him go. We got to hold him for about 2 hours before he turned colors and had to be taken from us. My moma and daddy were there with us to so they got to say their good bye's to. This was hard on us all. We miss him very much and love him like he is still here with us. We think of him each and everyday. He may be an angel in heaven but he is still our little buddy! Aaron, Daddy, Mommy, Brittany and Ashley love and miss you very much and are waiting for that day when we are reunited. HE"S STILL MY SON A year has gone by Did you know he turned one? Although you can't see him He's still MY son. Its Christmas time again He would have had such fun. Although you can't touch him He's still MY son. By now he'd be walking With his sisters, he'd run. Although you can't hear him. He's still MY son. I carry him with me His life is not done. Each day My heart feels him FOREVER, MY SON. Author Unknown Unknown by: Unknown Author I thought of you and closed my eyes; and prayed to GOD today I asked what makes a mother and I know I heard him say... A Mother has a baby, this we know is true. But GOD, can you be a mother, when your baby's not with you? Yes you can, he replied with the confidence in his voice. I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice. Some I send for a lifetime; and others for a day and some I send to feel your womb; but there's no need to stay. I just don't understand this, GOD, I want my baby here. He took a breath and cleared his throat; and then I saw a tear. I wish I could show you, what your child is doing today. If you could see your child smile with the other children and say: 'We go to earth to learn our lessons of love and life and fear, My mommy loved me Oh So Much, I got to come straight here... I feel so lucky to have a mom, who had so much love for me I learned my lesson very quickly, my mommy set me free. I miss my mommy oh so much; but I visit her each day. When she goes to sleep on her pillow is where I lay. I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek, and whisper in her ear. Mommy, don't be sad today, I am your baby and I'm here." So you see, my dear sweet one, your children are okay Your babies are here in my home; and this is where they'll stay They'll wait for you with me, until your lesson is through and on the day that you come home; they'll be at the gates for you. So, now you see what makes a mother, it's the feeling in your heart, its the love you had so much of ; right from the very start. Though some on earth may not realize you are a mother. They'll be up with me one day; and you know you're the best one. Sign My Guestbook View My Guestbook