Kevin and I were totally surprised when we found out we were expecting a baby again. I had pretty much decided I didn't want anymore children after we lost our first son. I was taking the pill and still became pregnant. So then I worried even more cause I thought what if this baby has the same Heart problems or something worst cause I was on the pill.
We decided not to tell anyone until we knew more. I went to my Dr. visit but was loosing weight because I was so sick. I couldn't keep anything down. Pop out of cans tasted nasty. I was able to eat dill pickles. I ate a lot of dill pickles cause that was really about the only thing I could stand.
They heard the baby's heart beat and said it is a very active baby cause they found it in several spots.
When I went for my 4th month checkup I gained like 8 lbs since my last visit. But I was also able to eat food with no probably. My all day sickness was gone. The doctor told me that I needed to slow down on my eating cause 8lbs was a lot to be gaining in a month. I agreed but was trying to figure what all I had eat to make me gain that much. This was also the day for our First ultrasound.
I was lying there on my back when they smeared the warm jelly on my belly and used the wand to move it around. When she did that she pasted over some images. I thought it was the head and stomach. She jerked it off really fast and asked my if this was my first ultrasound for this pregnancy. I said yes why? They had me wait until I was 4 months that was they could see if there was something wrong with baby and look at the heart really good, so she had me pretty scared. My hubby said I already seen it so you might as well tell her. I am thinking the worst by now cause I didn't see what they saw. She said well here is the baby's head, stomach, legs and so on and the heart is fine. I was glad but still trying to figure out why she reacted that way if the baby is fine. Then she goes and here is the other baby's head and so on. My mouth hit the floor. I started crying. This baby had the heart problem. But it was Hypo-plastic Right so there were more options. We also found out they were boys.
The Doctor who gave me the big talk on weight gain called me that night and said he was sorry and that my weight was very good for twins. At this point I was referred to another High-Risk Doctor plus I was going to need a Level 3 nursery and the hospital where I was ate was just a Level 2.
I started seeing Dr. William Polzin of Good Sam. in Cincinnati. I had doctor appointment every week and ultrasounds every two weeks. Also had non stress test done twice a week. I was on 24 hour bed rest which sucked but I would do to make my babies stay in as long as they could.
The twins arrived at 38 1/2 weeks weighing in at Andrew 7lbs 2oz and Zachary 6lbs 9oz. Good weight for twins. Zachary was then taking to Children's Hospital in Cincinnati and Andrew stayed at Good Sam. with me. Twelve days later Zachary had the first of three major surgeries. Came through with flying colors. Was a good little fighter. Everything was going so well. He was growing great and do well at each check up.
Andrew and Zachary were very good babies. Zachary did his best to keep up with his older brother Andrew. Zachary was starting roll over and two teeth. Andrew had two teeth and showed his little brother how they work on a few occasions. I knew Andrew was going to be the little trouble maker. (heehee)
On December 12, 1994 we took them to the Doctor for their checkup and to get their shots like you are suppose to. Well we came home and Kevin was getting ready for work and said does Zachary look okay? I said yes he always gets a little blue when he gets his shots. Kevin had never gone with me before. That was that. He left and shortly after he left Zachary started fussing. I laid him down on my chest and tried to smooth him when he let out this horrible cry, it was a cry of pain and he looked at me like help me mommy. He stopped breathing. I called 911 and started doing mouth to mouth. It seems like forever before the squad got there. My mom showed up and stayed with Andrew. She also had to call Kevin and tell him what had happened.
Zachary was taken to the local hospital where he was then Air Flighted to Children's in Cincinnati. He passed away at 5:27 PM on December 12, 1994.
To this day Andrew will not let any one or any thing sleep in bed with him. I find him talking aloud to someone and when I ask he tells me he is talking to Zachary.
Zachary sweetie mommy really misses you. She is having very hard time getting the image of you looking at her for help out of her head. I try to deal with every day but it is so hard. Daddy and Andrew miss you too.
I love you baby.
