Out Of Order
NOTES: This takes place a few years after Sanctuary,
TYF never happened and B/A haven't spoken since. Buffy and a
human Angel find themselves in the same elevator during a power
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DISTRIBUTION: Great, just let me know where.
FEEDBACK: Yes please or I'll convince Joss
to keep Riley *grin*
DEDICATION: Rosi and Deirdre. Simply the
Buffy was hot, tired and
frustrated. Even after a long day's shopping she still hadn't
found the *right* dress, it was so annoying because she knew
exactly what it would look like.
**Black, very short and it would cling to her body like a second
Buffy smiled at that thought, knowing that when she wore a dress
like that she would look a million dollars even if she didn't
feel like it. She would flirt, tease and torment as she moved
slowly round the dance floor, gyrating her body seductively in
time with the music.
On nights like these, Buffy would close her mind to the present
and lose herself in long forgotten fantasies. The bewitched young
men of Sunnydale would watch her every movement with lust filled
eyes until they were in serious danger of combusting.
Buffy would smile into their faces and dance in their arms but
she never really saw them.
Over the last two years only one thing had stayed the same in
Buffy's life, at the end of the night she would always go home,
Miserable and lonely, Buffy Anne Summers would cry herself to
sleep just as she had every night for the last two years, ever
since the day she first learned about Angel's humanity.
** Oh, what a fool she had made of herself that day ** Buffy
still shivered at the memory.
She had been so stupid. Believing Angel would still want her
after all that time was ridiculous, especially after the way she
had treated him.
**Maybe, the reason she had believed he still loved her was
because deep down in her heart she still loved him, would always
love him** sadly Buffy had taken too much for granted.
**The man that had once told her he couldn't move on, that he
would love her forever had moved on just fine. As soon as
humanity had knocked on Angel's door he had jumped at the chance
of a wonderful new life, complete with a new lover **
**Oh, how Cordelia had enjoyed springing that little surprise on
On hearing that Angel had been granted his humanity, Buffy headed
straight to LA to see him, only to have her dreams of a blissful
reunion cruelly smashed.
** Get over it, Buffy. Angel has. He's looking forward now to a
great new life with somebody who really cares about him; Angel
has made it perfectly clear he doesn't want to look back. So go
back to your boytoy, Buffy. There's nothing here for you
anymore.** The words had been a real slap in the face then and
even after two years they were still so clear.
Buffy waited for the elevator
doors to slide back and walked in. She placed her heavy bag on
the floor and reached out to push the button for the basement.
" Wait" a male voice called out and slipped between the
Still focusing on the control panel Buffy casually asked "
She then looked up and received the shock of her life.
" Hello, Buffy. It's been a long time"
For the longest time Buffy and Angel just stood staring at each
other in awkward silence. Buffy was the first one to move as she
turned her head back to the line of flashing buttons on the wall.
Her shaking finger once more pressed the button marked basement
and the elevator started it's desent. One by one the floors
passed by without a word being spoken.
Buffy had just about given up hope that Angel would ever speak
when the elevator shuddered and the lights went out, leaving then
in total darkness. Her startled cry was cut short as the
emergency lighting cut in.
" Looks like you broke it" Angel teased, trying to
break the tension between them.
" Story of my life" Buffy muttered to herself and then
reluctantly turned to face her ex lover.
**Even after two years of humanity he still looked exactly the
" This is just great, the hottest day on record and I get
stuck in here" Buffy resisted saying the last part of her
thought **Stuck in here with you** she reflected bitterly.
Angel walked over and tried pressing the buttons, when that
didn't work he tried to force open the doors, but they were stuck
tight. Angel then picked up the emergency telephone and called
" Well?" Buffy asked anxiously as the heat in the
enclosed room increased by the second.
" Anything up to three hours, there's been a major power cut
all over the city so we might as well make ourselves
comfortable" Angel removed his jacket and sat down on the
For the next thirty minutes they talked about every unimportant
issue under the sun. Willow, Xander and Cordelia were discussed
to death. They questioned the state of the economy and finally
brought up the weather.
" Well, now that we've covered the world in general how
about we talk about us?" Angel asked out of the blue.
" There's no us" Buffy snapped a little too quickly,
the increasing heat was making her more then a little jumpy.
" Maybe we should talk about why there's
" NO. I don't want to talk about it" Buffy interrupted,
pulling herself to her feet she moved and stood against the
" Leave the past where it belongs, Angel. In the past."
she replied bitterly looking away from him, Buffy's eyes roamed
the elevator walls looking for distractions, anything to stop her
looking at Angel.
"What's wrong with you?" Angel demanded getting to his
feet as well.
" Nothing's wrong with me, I'm just peachy" the
sarcastic tone in her voice told him otherwise.
They stood staring at each other, one in anger the other in
confusion. Angel just couldn't understand Buffy's sudden change
" Peachy? You could have fooled me"
"Not hard to do" came back the childish reply.
" This is ridiculous, " Angel shouted. Feeling like a
caged animal he paced around the small area as best he could.
" Why are you so angry? I dont understand. If anybody
should be angry it's me" he demanded turning to face her.
" You! Thats rich. What the hell have you got to be
mad about" Buffy demanded right back.
On hearing that statement Angel's temper finally got the better
" EVERYTHING, Buffy. Everything. You said you'd be my girl
always, you said all you ever wanted was me, you promised you'd
never forget, you lied."
Buffy had never seen Angel so angry; it was so unexpected. She
had always believed she was the only bitter one in this
relationship and now it seemed she was wrong.
" You told me to move on" Buffy defended herself
"For your sake, not mine"
" And now you're pissed at me because I did just that? You
shoved me straight into Riley's arms"
" Riley" Angel spat the word in disgust.
" It's what you said you wanted for me, it's what you
deserved for leaving me" years of bitterness flowed out.
"What did I deserve, Buffy? Did I deserve to know how much
you trusted him?.....Did I deserve to know how much you loved
him? You made it very clear you loved him more then you ever
loved me. Is that what I deserved to know?" Angel didn't
give her time to answer.
" But the worst part was I didn't just know it, Buffy. I
felt it. I knew every time that bastard took your body. I felt
every kiss, every caress, and every orgasm. I feel you, remember?
I always did."
Buffy gasped at the pain that was reflected in Angel's now human
eyes, pain she herself had put there. Her heart broke at the
suffering on her ex lover's face.
Angel lowered his eyes, suddenly ashamed by his loss of control;
he never wanted Buffy to know these feelings.
** Angel ** Buffy's heart beat so fast she thought she was
**How could he have believed the bitter rantings of an immature,
stupid girl?...How could he have believed she loved and trusted
Riley more?** Because she had told him, that's why. Buffy cursed
her own stupidity.
She longed to wipe out all those feelings from his memory and
replace them with something new, something real.
**Angel needed to be reminded of her true feelings**
On that thought Buffy slowly walked forward.
He didn't get a chance to look up before being slammed into the
wall, Buffy pushed her hot body right up against his.
Electricity sparked between them sending jolts through both their
bodies. Buffy reached up and tilted his face down towards her.
" I want you to forget those feelings and feel this"
Angel opened his eyes in shock
" Every kiss" she whispered and softly kissed his mouth
washing away any thoughts of Riley from both their heads.
Angel didn't move.
" Every caress" she slid her hand over his chest, down
his stomach and onto his groin.
Angel closed his eyes again as his heart raced against his rib
She then slowly lowered the zip on his jeans and slipped her hand
inside, softly stroking his warm flesh she raised her mouth to
" Every orgasm" Buffy panted as her breathing became
Angel was lost, her tiny hand stroked his hard erection until he
was throbbing in unbearable pain.
"You're such a bitch " he cried but made no attempt to
" Angel, please. Just once." She ran her tongue over
his warm lips
I want to know what it could have been like if we hadn't thrown
it all away." Buffy's large hazel eyes bore into his very
Angel found it impossible to speak so he just nodded his head in
This was the only sign Buffy needed; she was then completely
over- taken by her need for this incredible man. Dropping onto
her knees she slowly dragged his jeans down with her, releasing
Buffy moved her head forward and took him between her lips,
pulling back the foreskin she lashed her tongue around the rigid
Angel leaned his head back against the elevator wall in pure
ecstasy as Buffy engulfed him.
She sucked hard, taking at least half of him into her warm mouth.
Angel groaned. When her small hands slipped below and caressed
his balls, Angel almost growled.
Buffy used her whole mouth to bring Angel as much pleasure as she
possibly could, every moan or sigh helped wipe away the pain in
his beautiful eyes.
She slowly licked her way along the shaft and then returned to
sucking in a firm motion, her soft lips gliding up and down with
Angel groaned louder. He knew he was close to spilling when his
cock started twitching.
" Buffy" he pulled her head away.
Buffy fought to get him back inside her mouth, her eyes lost in a
haze of lust.
"No, baby. Inside, I need to be inside"
Buffy nodded, smiled and lay back on the floor holding her arms
out to him. Angel dropped to his knees and struggled out of his
" Let's get your clothes off too " he whispered
urgently pulling at her skirt.
Angel positioned himself directly above her welcoming entrance;
Buffy was so wet he slipped in with ease filling her small body
almost to bursting point. Buried to the hilt, Angel took a deep
breath and savoured the moment.
After what seemed like an eternity Buffy arched her hips letting
her lover know how desperately she needed movement.
Angel smiled and withdrew. Now he was the one delivering the
pleasure, he wanted to hear Buffy sigh and moan; he needed to
hear her cry *his* name lost in blinding passion.
Buffy was still too impatient, she slid her hands around his
naked hips and pulled him down hard as she trust up to meet him.
" Not so fast " Angel smiled; he wanted this feeling to
He pushed in slightly and then withdrew, sending an avalanche of
pleasure over both their bodies. Buffy whimpered as he pushed
deeper and once again withdrew.
Each movement sent Buffy's mind screaming, her soul protested at
the loss and then celebrated the return. Her fingers gripped into
his back as the sensations washed over her in mind consuming
Angel found her warm moist lips and slid his tongue deep inside
her mouth; his passionate kiss imitated the movement of their
" AngelAngelAngel" Buffy continued to softly moan his
name with each stoke Then, when the pleasure became almost pain,
she threw her head back and cried out as the universe exploded
into an ecstasy of coloured madness leaving her feeling utterly
complete for the first time in years. Angel thrust one more time
collapsing on top of her as his body found it's own release.
They lay in each other's arms, both trembling and covered in a
light layer of perspiration. Neither spoke a word as they waited
for their bodies came down to earth.
Buffy turned and kissed his chest
" I can hear your heart" her voice quivered, she had
prayed for that sound longer then she cared to remember.
A wonderful smile crossed Angel's handsome features.
" I'm still getting used to it myself, never heard it beat
quite like that before " he tilted her face to his.
" Hello, Buffy. It's been a long time" Angel repeated
his earlier greeting.
" Hello, Angel. It's been far too long" she smiled lost
in his eyes this time.
They continued to just lie there smiling at each other, both lost
in their own thoughts and dreams.
"What will you tell Riley?" Angel finally asked
bringing reality crashing down.
" I haven't seen Riley in two years, not since I found out
you were human. He gave me an ultimatum, him or you...... he must
have died laughing when I picked you and you didn't want me"
Buffy's voice trembled as her most hated memory raised it's ugly
" I've always wanted you, Buffy. You hurt me so much with
that Riley speech, more then you'll ever know. I was so angry, so
bitter I think I just wanted to hurt you back. I told Cordelia
that I never wanted to see you again and if you ever showed up at
the office she was to put you off once and for all. I don't think
I ever really believed that I would become human in your life
time, and then it just happened so quickly." Angel still
found it hard to believe that he had truly been forgiven for the
crimes committed by the demon.
"In all the excitement I completely forgot about telling
Cordelia to keep you away from me. When she told me about your
visit and how she had lied to you and sent you packing I knew I'd
made the wrong decision. But when I called you to explain you
just wished me luck with my new life and hung up dismissing
.when did it all go so wrong? Buffy, when did we lose
sight of how much we love each other?"
Their eyes locked and the high walls of bitterness and
misunderstanding that had stood between them for the last two
long years shattered
Angel moved in to kiss her again but the moment was interrupted
by the sound of whirling machinery as the elevator kicked into
" Oh, this could get really embarrassing" Buffy laughed
and reached for her clothes.
They dressed in lightning speed, giggling like small children
caught doing something naughty. Angel pulled himself into his
jeans and spun Buffy around to fasten her top, taking just enough
time to kiss her neck,
The elevator jolted and the control panel flashed as the re start
mechanisms came on.
" I've a strange feeling I'm missing something" Buffy
mused straightening her hair. Angel laughed and passed over her
" Hey! Were you keeping it as
a souvenir? " She laughed swiping the garment and hiding it
in her bag.
Angel suddenly looked very serious.
" I was hoping to keep something a lot more important.
Buffy, I was hoping to keep you" he carefully watched her
" Buffy, I love you. Remember *always*" He quickly
added just in case she doubted the sincerity of his words.
Buffy reached up and threw her arms around his neck.
" I remember and I love you too " she whispered into
his ear " And I'll never forget that again"
When the elevator door finally opened the sight of two lovers
deeply engrossed in the most passionate kiss he had ever seen
greeted an extremely surprised maintenance man
The kindly man grinned at the sweethearts and re-closed the
doors. He completely ignored the crowd behind him waiting to use
the elevator, knowing somethings in life were more important.
He then picked up a small sign and stuck it across the entrance
The sign read.
OUT OF ORDER.
And that's how it stayed for the rest of the day.